Sunday, January 27, 2013


Osho Zen Tarot: Receptivity, Laziness, Thunderbolt
Medicine Cards: Blank Shield, Squirrel, Elk
Mayan Oracle: Transparency, Cauac
Ancient Egyptian Tarot: The Fool, The Hermit, Ace of Cups
Aleister Crowley Deck: Fortune, The Devil, The Star
As the astrological shifts continue to wander towards a better place of resolution and clarity, March asks us to become the receptive vessel of presence through the art of listening. Listening is a skill that can be difficult for some to learn. To listen you are required for a time to step out of yourself and into a place of active openness. It requires you to step into the full presence of who you are without attachment, judgment, or need to have a goal. Receptivity is a feminine form of active listening.
I know that many of us have had the experience of speaking from our heart and sharing when you notice that the other person is really not with you. They do not feel present. They feel bored. They are distracted and appear to be sleepy or uninterested. Nothing is more heart breaking then to realize that someone is not feeling your heart and not with you in the conversation. Often when we realize that is happening we quickly finish the conversation and put our need to the side as we become uncomfortable at feeling so vulnerable when another is not interested. It is almost embarrassing.
Now, sometimes it can be us that is co-creating them not being receptive to what we are saying. Perhaps we are saying the same thing over and over again and the other person does not know how to help us find a resolution. But sometimes the other person is locked within himself or herself and unable to open in the passive art of presence to listen.
I have found that people will often self correct when you allow them to flow with your full conscious presence and open receptive heart. Especially women. Women need to process their feelings by sharing. Other women are often great at having some skill in the flow of emotions and can more easily allow another woman to express, vent, and share. Men are often more challenged in this area as it feels to them as if their woman is repeating, navigating the same pattern over and over, and not letting situations or circumstances go. And they are also right. Women can get caught in a loop of emotional habits and expressions as a way to release internal tension from their life that has built up.
It is a real art to find the place to sit with another that listens actively and can allow the heart to guide the other to a new place of clarity and resolution. To do that requires all your focus and energy and it can be quite tiring.
I have seen great teachers have great power through their compassion and heart presence. When they are with another they guide and heal the other with what seems as if no words. But words are only 20% of communication. The other 80% is body language, eye contact, and compassionate receptivity. This is a tremendous force that can heal and transform.
It has happened to me that in the presence of a great teacher I have become uncomfortable with my drama and distorted reality by feeling the huge love and compassion coming from the teacher. Their stillness and clarity became a mirror upon which I could see my own distorted reality. With shocking clarity I could see I was speaking from my personality rather than my authentic self. Only then was I able to stop speaking and step out of my drama into the freeing expression of my soul.
This is the month to practice a deeper way of being with another. March is the month when you realize that you have somehow become complacent and it is time to move on. If this astrology has taught us anything since 2008 it is that nothing is forever. We have been forced to move many things in our external world but now we can see that it is our internal state that has been even more stuck. That stuckness has been making you feel lethargic, unmotivated, and directionless. Life is amazing and if you are feeling lazy or bored you are in a state of negative mind. Instead attempt to shift your awareness into the place of non-doing.
Some people mistake non-doing as laziness. But they are not the same. When you are being lazy you are not deceiving anyone but yourself. When you are in non-doing you are full of energy, radiant, vibrating with the natural flow of life and witnesses every moment as a miracle.
Something sudden and miraculous is coming towards you. Your job is to be fully present and a blank shield upon which to allow the event to ignite your spirit to a place that it previously could not have conceived. You have to believe that if it is happening that you are prepared and ready. You have to know that you have the stamina to go the distance. You have to know that hiding being your ego’s personality will not work at this time. You have to trust that inside you is a guiding light that knows the way. You have to be willing to look foolish and not fit into others boxes of perception. You have to be willing to stretch into the unknown darkness within and find the places that you do not love yourself.

You are being transformed into something divine. You are being stripped of your old personality. You are being freed of the rules of your ego that have hampered your progression. The cold winter freeze is preparing to melt away the rigid patterns of your identity, so that in the warmth of April you will spring into light of your true self for all to see. Allow yourself to melt. Feel the freedom that receptive openness brings. Embrace the unknown and you will finally know yourself.

Saturday, January 26, 2013

Personal Note From Suzanne 1/26/13

The shifts seem to be happening as we are experiencing the beginning of the Grand Trine in Water. Neptune went into Pisces last year on Feb 3. Saturn went into Scorpio and formed the second corner of the Trine on Oct 5th. And now we are inching our way to Jupiter going into Cancer creating the full Trine on June 25, 2013. 

The water signs will really enjoy this pattern but it will support everyone in different ways. Part of that reason is that Jupiter is exalted in Cancer. That means it is Jupiters favorite place to be. This will allow for expansion and abundance to grown in the area where it is hitting your personal chart.

What I seem to be seeing in my clients and myself is the beginning of a flow that is allowing a shift in energy and perspective. For some that shift is extremely emotional. A Grande Trine in Water is a rare event and it can catalyze tremendous suppressed emotions to surface. Feelings of insecurity that have been long buried, nostalgic thoughts of the past where you can see your poor choices, and bad behaviors are allowing you to finally awaken and to take accountability. This is what seems to be required for you to advance spiritually into this next level of growth.

The fear of the unknown and the clinging to the past reality has been inhibiting your forward progression. That awareness is now blatantly obvious but unraveling your old defensive behaviors and reactive tendencies is very difficult. The question is how do you risk and allow yourself to step beyond into the unknown when you want to fall back into the old patterns. You know there is no doorway back to that reality. Doorways are opening up towards a very different place but the experience seems to be so strange and out of your comfort zone that not only do you not know how to progress, you do not know even the steps to take that will allow authentic expression.

I find that the answer lies in just noticing what is coming up. To not judge it. Allow the truth of that experience to just be. And remain open to the doorway that will present into a new possibility. 

Things are never what I make them up to be in my mind. My mind is really good at making up stories about others to protect my perspective and beliefs. What seems to be necessary for myself and my clients right now is to consciously choose to not allow that place of drama to limit my reality. It is time to not let the fear that we learned from our childhood and past experiences to distort the incredible options that are opening with this Grande Trine. All we have to share with others is where we have risked in our life to uncover the deeper truth of ourself that is buried under all the judgement, ego, and projections. All we can truly share is our own experiences of risk, bravery, courage, and where we have been unrelenting in discovering who we are underneath this illusion we have created to make ourself comfortable. In that way we give others courage to step boldly onto their own path. 

None of us will walk the same path. None of us have the same blocks from past lives that we need to remember, unkink, and transmute into a higher form. But by being willing to walk in our own personal shadow of death and confront the distortions and illusions that limit the expression of our light, we give encouragement to others to find the magic and mystery that is their personal journey.

I choose consciously to be a beacon of a possibility. I want to find freedom and peace from my own mind. I want to breathe the air of understanding. I want to hear the song of my soul. Everything else is just a distraction drawing me back into my safe reality. 

I am tired of being safe. I am tired of feeling the constriction of my fear. I know that there is something beyond my present level of awareness. The only way through is to risk loosing everything. At least that is what my ego says. 

Of course you need to be conscious and clear enough to know that you are not going to do something stupid and damage yourself. You also need to not hurt others. But you can still stretch beyond your present understanding of reality. But you have to choose. Until you are miserable with listening to the rhetoric within your own mind you will not risk stepping outside the safe box in which you exist. 

And when you do, there are no guarantees. That is the problem and the number 1 reason to stop. We want to know that we will be safe and sound. We want to know that there is a treasure of some sort if we risk. There is a treasure but it is rarely what you believe you are going for when you begin. 

At this stage of my life because I have that awareness from many past experiences it makes it almost harder. I do not believe any enticement that my mind wants to create to get me to jump. I know it is a lie and I know that the treasure is what you uncover about myself. 

So as this Grande Water Trine begins open to the huge flow of emotions, intuitive experiences, creative expressions, and dreams. See what could happen if you just suspended your mind for a moment. What could you discover about yourself that you did not know existed within you? There is a mystery to uncover and it is hidden in the deep dreams of Pisces, it is hidden in the emotional expression of Cancer, and it is waiting for you in the sexy waters of Scorpio.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Why Women Cry

A little boy asked his mother, “Why are you crying?” “Because I’m a woman,” she told him. “I don’t understand,” he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, “And you never will.” Later the little boy asked his father, “Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?” “All women cry for no reason,” was all his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, “God, why do women cry so easily?” God said, “When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.” “You see my son,” said God, “the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides.” Author: Unknown

Saturday, January 12, 2013

I Will Be in Utah Jan 16-Feb 4, 2013

Just giving everyone a heads up that I will be in Utah from Jan 16-Feb 4, 2013 and my online scheduler will be on Mountain Time.

I look forward to getting back to Utah even under the intense cold and snow conditions. I just hope that the roads are good while I am on my way.

I will also be teaching a Channeling Class Jan 19-20 in Orem at the Season's Salon and Day Spa.

Then the next weekend I will be teaching a Relationships Class Jan 26-27, 2013.

I can't wait to see and connect with some of you on deeper and more intimate levels.

Stay warm, wash you hands (so you don't catch the flu) and practice contentment.

The Destruction of Enlightenment

I am finally feeling the positive shift of the energy that has been breaking down the old for myself and so many others. I understand on a new level how the quest for enlightenment requires the destruction of the old self and ego. There is a place of surrender that happens when enough breakdown has happened that there is really nothing left to loose. At that moment there is an ecstatic release of energy that transforms the pain into awareness and understanding. I feel I am getting a few clues into that arena now. I am grateful for the destructive patterns that have unraveled the old in order to bring in the new. We never know what that transformation will look like. It never looks the way our ego wants it to look and yet there is a perfection in the unfolding of our being that is raw, beautiful, divine, and accepting. Sending this message out to all those who are also walking down the pathway of ego death into the unknown possibility of being. This picture inspired me and I hope it does you also.

I love this quote.

Enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing through the facade of pretense. It’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of February 2013

In the midst of the month of red hearts, roses, and love there appears to be a bit of stress and strain in the emotional sector. The good new is that it is not as bad as anything that we have been through in 2012 but it will put a bit of a wilt on some of our flowers. 

It seems that nothing that transpires is going to be some great shocking wave of discord, which is really a relief after what we have all been through. It looks as if it will manifest as more of the coming to a head of situations and circumstances that have been slowly coming to a boil over the past few years. 
You will not be surprised at the situations that unfold around you and yet there is still that pain and sadness that needs to be felt and moved through. You will see where you disconnected from certain people, patterns, or perspectives because of fear, contraction, ego, needing to be right, and resentment. Now you either have the energy to deal more directly with these things or the timing is better and the flow simply points you in the direction of resolution and completion.

This is a month when you embrace and integrate the patterns of disharmony in your life. When you are in alignment with your natural flow there is a feeling of return to the home that is within you. No one person has the corner on the market to enlightenment. You are unraveling so many past life fears, patterns, constrictions, wisdoms, and passions. It would be impossible for anyone to know how to unravel the wonder within you. It is up to you to find your truths and gifts, then to find the way to share them with others. 

None of us really know what we are or what we will become. If you think you know then that is your ego talking and often it is creating an impossible standard to uphold or attain. That creates tremendous stress and exhaustion that collapses us rather than inspires us to continue to move forward.
There is a wild card at work in your life right now and you should expect to be touched in some way by destiny. That does not mean the touch of destiny will be pleasant. That does not mean the touch of destiny will be gentle. 

It does mean that you will experience an interdimensional shift. Something is coming that will potentially drastically change the course of your life. You are being moved into a place of open consciousness. 

Are you willing to surrender to that flow? Are you willing to allow the hand of fate to shift your reality into a more aligned and refined position? Can you let go of needing to know the way to allow the way to guide you instead? Are you centered and confident enough to know that you can trust the universe regardless of what it manifests in your life?

The key is flexibility, openness, and the understanding that wisdom comes from loosening the holds over the reality in which you are cocooned. There is another way. There is another doorway. It is right in front of you. But you must be willing to find the passionate heart within, practice peacefulness, see the balance that is organically calling to you right now, and embrace everything that your judge internally and externally.

You cannot be open if you are protecting and hiding parts that you think are not divine. Every part of you is beautiful. Your sorrow is sweet and opens others hearts when expressed authentically. Your anger is a reminder that you have boundaries that at times need to be respected. Your fear is asking others to see you but to know that you are delicate and tender inside. Your resentment is the passion that you have refused to express because of what others might think and judge about you. You anxiety is where you do not feel as if you fit or belong in this time and space.

So you see none of those emotions are really a problem. They simply are what being human is all about. The only problem comes in when you deny the natural existence of the divine order and flow that is a part of all life. 

It takes a tremendous amount of energy to deny the truth of human expression. What could you be doing with that energy instead? Imagine the possibilities.

If you let go of the future for just a moment and sat in the middle of your being with the clarity of a beginners mind you would discover so many wonders that you have been ignoring, passing over, or never noticing. Then life would be filled with your glorious light and presence in each and every precious moment. 

Then you would become the valentine in the truest sense. We are all waiting and longing for your presence to enrich and enhance our life. And we are waiting even more passionately for ourself to become whole, happy, and the mystery we came to give.

Happy Valentines Day!

Tuesday, January 01, 2013

Death and the Journey of Ego

Below is a response to a question posed to me by a client. I thought it an interesting question and of value to others about the journey in life around death and the ego. I hope you enjoy it.

God works in mysterious ways and while I know and fully believe in intuitive hits and messages from the divine I know also that somehow in the end it does not look like I have pictured it but the truth is still there regardless. What I am trying to say is that the journey that the universe is presenting is already putting you through a process and that process is somehow essential to the unfolding of karma or emotional releasing that is necessary for your growth and development. Again, things are often presented way in advance so you can begin the process of detaching.

I will give a personal example. When I was 21 years old I knew my father was going to die of a heart attack also. I knew he was not okay and tried to talk to him about it. He kept saying for me to not worry that he was fine. And year after year he was still alive, despite everything in my body and soul telling me that he was not okay. 6 years later he had his first heart attack. He had triple bypass surgery, coded 2 times on the operating table, then caught tuberculosis from the hospital that no one caught for 6 months and broke his back from coughing before someone finally diagnosed it correctly. 

About 4 times he could have died but he did not. 8 years later he had another heart attack and after that second one he admitted that when I had a concern about his heart when I was 21 years old. He knew that he had a problem but he did not want to worry me. Again and again he continued to have heart attacks for 22 years until the last set was it and he did die. 

When we went through his papers also at the time when I was 21 we discovered a suicide note written in his hand. He was very angry and upset with some financial investments and felt like a failure and also wanted to leave at that same period I was feeling the death energy so strongly. So death was stalking him for a long time. 

I was right but not right, do you see?

The universe speaks in the language of feelings not necessarily facts. In our western mind world we want the numbers, dates, and facts. It is rarely that simple. Life and the journey is a complex web of dharmas and karmas.

Because of being given the information about my father at 21, I consistently worked on our relationship and communication. It was rough, it was frustrating for him as he did not like talking about deep feelings, etc. But in the end I had the best communication with my father over anyone in my family including my mother. It was so pronounced that as he was dying he said to me, "Why is everyone acting so strange?"

I told him that family members had issues that they had not worked out with him. He asked me to help them with them. I told him that I was trying to do just that but grief is a hard emotion for people to navigate much less then adding the past woundings and issues on top of it.

He then said, "But we are okay, right?" I told him that we were great! He knew that I loved him and I knew that he loved me and that was all there was to it. As a result his death for me was peaceful, beautiful and without regret. That in of itself was a beautiful gift. 

I did loose my father at 72 years old but he went 30 years past my initial prediction and I am a psychic.

I give you this because in the psychic realm we have a saying, "It is always hardest to read timing on the ones closest to you." Because of that I look at everything I get about death with my family members as metaphoric first and foremost rather than literal. 

What I mean by that is ask yourself this question, "What do I need to go through emotionally, spiritually, energetically if this information is true?" Then take yourself through that process ahead of time, step by step. Watch yourself grow and see who you become.

The other piece that I want to say is that whenever there is an intense piece of information given psychically the ego mind with make up a story to soften the blow. These things usually cannot be trusted. What I mean is that I believe that you are feeling a truth in that your husband will leave the planet before you and you need to start looking at your attachments and begin to soften some issues internally. It would also be wise to get a huge life insurance policy on your husband to protect you financially just in case. But the piece about the lottery and getting the money is potentially an ego piece to distract you from the other emotional pieces that need to be processed.

I have too many people to count that believe that they will win the lottery and none of them have ever won. It is a huge ego attachment hook for most and a piece that cannot be completely be trusted. 

I have also met lottery winners and lets just say that none of them really believed they would get it but they hoped and none of them made a bargain with the universe to get the prize. Now all of those sentiments and ideas are beautiful and it is showing that you want to work with children and my suggestion is to being a foundation or charity for children right now. You do not need to wait for the money. Almost everything in life is earned. Money flows where the heart is willing to go first. If you step on the path the money may follow in a very different fashion that you are seeing. 

Intuition is a tricking thing because angels are working to help you complete karmas, attachments, and beliefs that have outgrown their usefulness. So take it with a grain of salt. Protect yourself. Trust that no matter what transpires that you are protected and in the divines arms. The issue you seem to be working on is trust. 

I have learned that it is never about trusting the information, it is about trusting myself that no matter what the universe throws my way that I will be okay. Lots of details and facts are often an indication of ego and mind in action. 

So step back. Know that you are feeling something. Try to not let your mind create a story to make it okay. Because you are okay right now. You are protected right now. The universe is asking for your full presence and love in this moment. They are calling you to wakefulness and attention. Be here now. Love fully this man you are with. Give him everything and if he leaves then you will feel that you have lived and loved so deeply that you and him can die complete in that loving. 

That is often what the universe wants to give you. That full love that is not held back. I know that any of us can leave in an instant. The universe always knows better than us. Trust that and know in your heart that you will be safe.

Love and light to you.