Saturday, December 31, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 1/1/17 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 1/1/17
Happy New Year! 1/1/17 is the number 3. I love it when the numerology reflects the gratitude we all feel in finally saying goodbye to 2016. And yes, while there were some great times in 2016 the overall feeling was one of pathos and intense emotional expression for all of us even if it was just in witnessing the drama of others there was no way to not feel the heightened energetic flow that was 2016. While some of you are feeling the negative side of the number 3, which makes you feel a lack of stamina and focus, others of you are feeling the encouraging potential that can give you the momentum to expand your mind and thinking and ignite your soul’s deepest purpose. This is a time to be brave and also limit the confrontational qualities that 2016 exhibited to an extreme degree. It is time to find your rhythm and passion and allow that to move you forward. From that place manifestation demonstrates love, kindness, and compassion. Mars and Neptune come together in the sign of Pisces very early today. This brings your impulses and desires into a somewhat confusing, peculiar, hard to explain, or difficult to understand pattern. You may not feel content with your regular routines or your present life circumstances. There is a deep desire for radical change and a total overhaul of your past self and find a deeper reality upon which you can stand in a more grounded and congruent way. On one level you tend to crave more drama, glamour, or meaning to almost everything in your life. That big picture reality is making concentration on practical concerns and affairs somewhat difficult. You want to act on your intuition but you have enough recognition to know that your fantasies are strong so you don’t quite trust them. At every turn you seem to be second-guessing yourself. Don’t feel bad. That is as it should be. Such a major change needs to be felt into on a level that is perhaps unfamiliar to you from any other moment in your life. You want to strive towards all that is boundless. Fortunately there is less tension and most of you are feeling more relaxed. After all, “What will be, will be". And each of you will have to deal with all this newness as it comes up moment-by-moment. This transit favors dancing, swimming, photography, arts, and entertainment. The Moon is in Aquarius all day, stimulating your humanitarian impulses as well as an enterprising spirit as the Moon connects harmoniously with Saturn, Jupiter, and Uranus.
~Suzanne Wagner~

"Love is always a disturbing presence. We must disrupt the order of things to obey the orders of Love." -
~Vera de Chalambert~


“2017”. The two indicates that we are taking a look at the duality within us and in the outer world. Be careful to not see everything as polarized between “them and us”. It is by owning the shadow reflection of the other that you learn about the parts of yourself that you do not love and accept. The 0 magnifies the duality that is happening in the world and that seems to be pretty obvious that that has been going on for a while. The world is waking up to those that “have” and those that “have not”. That imbalance desires correction. The number 1 shows that you have to stand up as the individual that you are. You have to find the deepest part of your truth and choose to live from that depth rather than from a more shallow position that requires no responsibility or accountability. Each person is now looking to what is true for themselves and then the dance is to find out how to create that in the external world. That is where the number 7 comes in. Only with structure and organization can you overcome the established patterns of power and control. But you cannot control anyone and anything if you cannot control yourself, your mind, your emotions, and your direction in life first. The Water Protectors of North Dakota have given us a clear map and guidelines to move the systems beyond the old patterns of greed. First you have to get organized and to understand the systems of social media and how to get truthful, documentable, visual information out there. Only by showing can you rally others to your cause and you have to make sure your cause is just and for the good of all. Those with selfish tendencies right now work contrary to the greater good. Those that want to incite violence are also dangerous to causes that have heart and the positive intent for the planet in mind. If you want to belong in this new world you have to have the combined impact of these numbers, which is the number 10. You have to be in power and control over your actions. You have to be conscious with your intent to not harm others and you have to be willing to stand for something. For each of you that will be different. But you have to find what “you” came to do, what “you” came to give this planet, and what “you” know deep in your heart is right. What is scary for many is that there is no more “wiggle” room. All choices have to be congruent with your higher self. All those that you empower have to reflect your spiritual mission to the most exacting degree. Learning that where you give your energy places you within that karmic realm of consequences is essential to finding the pathway through the tumultuous karmic potentials and into the deeper truth that is calling to awaken.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Friday, December 30, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 12/31/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 12/31/16
12/31/16 is the number 7. The number 7 reminds each of us that plans and strategies are really helpful but know that in such times as these the bigger plan is to stay flexible and become very present in the moment and highly adaptable in all changing circumstances. Preparing for 2017 is about knowing that you are not asleep and that you can respond to situations with grace, love, and openness. That does not mean to be a doormat and to just take what is offered but to really look beyond your own needs and into the needs of others to see how on a global level we “together” can have an impact that supports love and well-being for all on this beautiful planet. Know that the astrology is terrible today into tomorrow for drinking and driving so pick a designated driver or plan to have a taxi to get your from one point to another. Jupiter forms a quincunx with Chiron today. This aspect will align perfectly again in February and September 2017. This can cause you to re-evaluate your life goals, your beliefs and where you choose to put your faith. We are in a time of doubt and uncertainty. You may feel a little lost and susceptible to influences that seem to pull you back and forth. Know that the fight is between your ego and your soul. And that fight has never been more obvious. If you are not self-aware, you might push impractical ideas and projects ahead, only to face obstacles because your goals do not match the circumstances nor the reality. Remember, you are not in the past. You are not anywhere familiar as you move forward. With leaning into the new there is always discomfort. But that does not mean it is bad, it just means that it opens unknown doors and forces you to adapt and deal with life very differently. Circumstances are such that you need to make adjustments to your plans and goals on almost a daily basis if not weekly. You are going to need to tame expectations of yourself and others as no one is in their best or most stable place right now. The Moon is in Aquarius all day, and independence, equality, and freedom are vital to feeling emotionally satisfied. Mars moves to a conjunction with Neptune in Pisces, exact early into the day tomorrow, making your impulses and desires confusing, peculiar, hard to explain, or difficult to understand right now. You not longer feel content with your regular routines. Everywhere there seems to be more drama and everything seems to take on a bigger meaning and impact in your life. It may be difficult to concentrate on practical concerns and the desire to accomplish much seems to not have that punch or drive. It is really best to act on your intuition. Just be aware that fantasies are strong so stay grounded in this reality. This is a time when you can find inspiration if you are willing to tell yourself the truth. You may feel a bit like a yo-yo. You feel that you are consciously pulling back one moment and the moment you do that your energy levels will drop. Creative pursuits that involve physical movement are highly favored and could provide excellent outlets for excess, undirected energy. This influence favors dancing, swimming, photography, arts, and entertainment. There is something deep building inside of us but you may not yet know where it is taking you, or how to get there. There is a strong need to release pressure and tension. Find any doorway that allows you to actively seek out inspiration. These times require you to dig deep to uncover the hidden potential within your soul and heart.
~Suzanne Wagner~

“My dark days made me strong. Or maybe I already was strong, and they made me prove it.”
~Emery Lord~


Over and over again the universe tests you. It will bring up an issue again and again to see if you are willing to dive fully into a place and perspective to discover the deepest truths that wisdom can show you, or it brings up the possibility of expansion and the possibility of another angle or direction that suits your essence better. The choice is always yours to make.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Thursday, December 29, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 12/30/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 12/30/16
12/30/16 is the number 6. The number 6 asks you to find the selfless healer within you and allow that to express in the world. In each person’s life we have to sacrifice in order to bring a circulation of new energy into the mix. Doing that with grace and simplicity is essential for finding compromise in a chaotic world. Learning the lessons of tolerance and humanitarian service requires you to step out of your own feelings and into the bigger world where others are suffering more than you. It is always interesting to me that when it comes to generosity, the poor are often more generous than the wealthy. Now, I know that there are many great philanthropists out there who create organizations that give tremendous amounts of money to big things that impact the world for the better but when in comes to normal-daily-gifting based on how much money you make those with less often give more. That is because they know what it is like and they relate more to those because life has broken their heart open to have a greater capacity and depth. So bad times are tools the universe uses to make us expand out of our comfortable spots and stretch into a broader and bigger worldview. Allow yourself to be broken and mended again and again. See the beauty that emerges when you stop trying to protect your ego or your opinions and are willing to put them out there in constructive and honest ways. That is the way you find your power and who you really came here to be. The Sun sextiles Neptune today, and this tends to soften your rough edges. You take things as they come. This influence stimulates your intuition and imagination, as well as a need to attach more meaning to your life and to the lives of others. It sets a great mood for respecting your intuition and relaxing rather than pushing forward. You might find yourself at the right place at the right time because your hunches are more likely to be correct and you are "tuned in." You are inspired, and charitable acts now will serve to lift your spirits. Instinctual judgment is enhanced under this influence. You can see matters, and people, from a different perspective--one that allows for, and even finds beauty in, differences. The Moon continues its transit of Capricorn until 8:30 PM EST when it enters Aquarius.
~Suzanne Wagner~

“Safety is knowing that when this particular life form is finished, what it has served remains….”


Can you be grateful that you live in times of great struggle? For myself I have to say, a gentle and compassionate, yes. It is not fun to stand up to bullies. It is not pleasant to believe in the goodness of humanity when people use things actively to hurt others who have never done anything to them. It is painful to have people lash out at you for being a voice that is truthful and when you attempt to call others to wakefulness. (Especially when they do not want to see beyond their own distortion.) It is dangerous to be the one standing up when others want to hide their heads and disappear into the vacuous past. But that is what you do when you are holding a light for everyone and everything. It takes great personal power to know in your heart what is right and to know that others want to find fault with others who do not think the same. It takes great clarity to accept others who see differently and not agree with them but to stay again holding the light and love for the hope that is this world and is all of life. I hold the hands of the great teachers that have come before, the great teachers now, and those who also want to stand in the place of offering love regardless of the atrocities that others feel compelled to express because of their own fears and self-hatred. Forever have the “enlightened ones” counseled peace and love. It seems so simple and it is one of the hardest things to do in this plane of existence. I know I do not stand alone. I know that the love I have for the truth is stronger than my fear. I choose to not to fall into illusion and go numb to the hatred that others speak. I choose to not let the toxicity that they are creating to pull this world into deeper pain and suffering. I choose to stand up and stand with those light workers and those that know that only love is the way home.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

2017 The Year of the Warrior - Astrology and Numerology for January-February

Welcoming in the Year of the Warrior - 2017

We are in a time where as individuals we are going to have to create patterns within our smaller communities and no longer depend on the government as much as we have in the past.
This is going to be a challenging situation on multiple levels. 2017 is about creating new systems that serve the people as the government and the world situations are going to be in chaos for a long time to come.
I have said it before and I will say it again that the old patterns are being broken down and shattered. So you have to find the exit door out of the external world’s “carnival hall of mirrors”. Finding the lies that are infesting this world and find those places that you can count on for stability is going to be the ongoing goal throughout 2017.
I know that each of us signed up for this moment in time for a reason. Some of those reasons are personal and some of you came here to help create those new systems not yet in form. There is a lot of work ahead and knowing how to find the cracks in the armor of this breaking reality and move things in a direction that serves the greater whole is going to be difficult as we are in a time of self-deception and lying.
Finding the truth or a real gem in a fake-jeweled box of costume jewelry is going to take skill, knowing, education, and a strong eye. But that is where we find ourselves for the next while.
The powers that lie outside are corrupted and so that means that only finding the power inside is going to be of any assistance as you move forward.
2017 is the number 10 and as such this is a year for finding your power, radiance, and to source your own energy. People are going to be shielding themselves as a form of protection and to protect their ego and defend the mistakes that they have made up to this point. Others will be attempting to go numb and to fall back into the illusions of the past. Fortunately the reality is going to be so difficult and painful that no matter how hard you try, you will not be able to fall back asleep nor find comfort in the old patterns and habits.
This moment reminds me of a time when I was in Suriname and I stood too long under a tree that had a parasite that lived on the leaves. When the parasite detected something underneath, it fell from the tree and landed on my back where it slowly began burrowing into my skin. The sensation at first was one of itching and then it graduated into a full-blown desire for me to rip my skin off to stop the itching. I went through 3 hours of hell going back to the town on a bus and I had to have people hold my hands so I did not tear my own skin off. By the time I got to the Doctor in town he knew what it was but told me the way through this was to coat my back with a liquid plastic. It would not allow air to pass through and the parasite would suffocate. But not before creating such a ruckus that I was going to be miserable and in terrible pain first. And sure enough as he covered my back in this liquid plastic these parasites freaked out and began moving in a desperate attempt to breath, get out, or break through the plastic. But die they did, somewhat slowly and painfully for the both of us. This taught me a lot. How hard we will fight to survive, how hard it is to let go, and how painful it is sometimes to be fully in the moment. Pain is a tool that brings us completely into the here and now.
2017 is going to do much the same.
I give this story because that is what the United States is going to be like for a while. Our country has been infected with a parasite and there is more than one of them. It has secretly hidden out in our ignorance and self-deception to now spring forth in a big mass of toxicity. To get rid of them is going to be a painful process and it is going to be a miserable journey until they finally “metaphorically” die off.
This is not fun for any of us but it is how we learn to deal with and become a part of the real world. Our fanciful world is not real and the “real” world is a painful reflection of our careless disregard for life and the balance of power throughout the world.
2017 could be one long tough lesson and constant reality check.
We are living our own Star Wars movie. Which side do you stand on? There is a dark force that is attempting to take over and there are those who will choose to stand up against it, again and again. The consequences for not speaking up or standing up have never been greater in your life. Even if our small corner of the world manages to have stability there is a greater whole of instability that is impacting and affecting the world. We have to learn to work together. We have to come to a place where it is not just about us but it is time to see that united as a world and as a people we can survive. Divided we will continue to fall and reek havoc upon others either consciously or unconsciously.
Welcoming in the Year of the Warrior – The Numerology for the 10/1 and the Power of New Beginnings
I know that you want to know and have a clear view of where you are going in 2017 but this is a year that when you add all the numbers together, you will get the number 10. So this year is going to be all about change and many rapid and unpredictable new beginnings.
A 10/1 year, it is like a snowball going down a hill rapidly. You are going to have lots of change that collects the energy of your chosen path. As you begin to implement those changes in your life the energy will create bigger and bigger shifts as the year progresses.
Remember that we are still dealing with the Neptune in Pisces until 2028 so we are all learning to roll with the big waves hitting us and recognize that in seeking the truth we don’t have the control of the past mental illusions and that there is a bigger current carrying us to an unknown destination. Surrender is the key to learning what is really important and what gives your life happiness and meaning.
You are literally changing the trajectory of your life. It is a big moment and one that in the future you will reflect backwards and see how this moment shaped your life going forward.
The number 10 year is about coming back to yourself (the number 1 or the “I”)
It is going to be difficult to change the external but you can reclaim your internal self. That is the only way that you are going to be able to find the doorways to the power that is going to be needed as you progress forward this year.
The number 10 year is about taking a warrior stance in your life. There are many ways to do that. Some warriors are loud and intimidating. Some are quiet and calculating? Some are invisible and some are out there leading the charge. You have to determine which one is you and which one you are willing to be able to put the energy into. Just know that you will have to maintain that rhythm for a long time so this will be a moment to learn how to pace yourself along the journey and go to healing tools to help you maintain a level of excellence and clarity.
You are doing your own person Haka Dance this year and it is one of great significance for your life forward.
(What is the haka dance for?
The haka is a type of ancient Māori war dance traditionally used on the battlefield, as well as when groups came together in peace. Haka are a fierce display of a tribe's pride, strength and unity. Actions include violent foot-stamping, tongue protrusions and rhythmic body slapping to accompany a loud chant.”)
Warriors know when to fight and when to plan. They know when to organize and strategize and only when a clear pathway emerges do they move forward and take action. That is what you need to keep in mind this entire year.
As a year of the Warrior, it is about finding your inner strength and individuality. You cannot depend on external structures to give you the security of the past. You cannot depend on others if they are not strong and centered also within themselves. As a warrior, you should not go into battle with people that you do not totally and completely trust. You have to know who has your back and who might stab you in the back when you are not looking. Therefore you will be letting people and certain situations go.
In a number 10 year, it is called a “Samurai” position. You will be required to have a level of mental and emotional toughness and control in order to be effective in the external world. You will be required to have a clear discernment of others because of the great need for groups to come together in effective and peaceful but assertive ways. You will not have energy or time for those who see the world radically differently than you. They are on their own path and right now people are so positioned that many are not able to see beyond their own ego and projection so it is a useless endeavor to try to play with them in constructive ways unless there is a deep willingness and capacity for growth and change.
The Water Protectors in North Dakota are showing us the most effective way forward. If you cannot find a peaceful heart and move from that place, then your actions inflame situations rather than move the world towards a peaceful solution and resolution.
We have had many great teachers showing the power of peaceful movements. Yes, these ways require great sacrifice. Yes, they require you to take physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual hits that perhaps you have never experienced before. But as a world we have to move past all this anger, aggression, and hatred. You cannot fight hate with more hate. You have to show those that are hateful how much suffering they are causing others. You have to allow them to discover on their own, how their lashing out in such destructive ways eventually makes them feel terrible inside. It takes time to allow their anger to be fully expressed until they actually begin to see and feel that it is their own anger that is actually eating them alive.
Karma is a great teacher though a slow one. Anger that lashes out is always originally internally self-created. It will take a long time for many to find a place of accountability and personal responsibility. That is why you have to stay strong in your belief of love, peace, global harmony, and the atmosphere of personal responsibility.
If you really want a world where All of humanity learns to work together in cooperative ways you have to be willing to be flexible and open to listening and holding to the core truths that are the glue that keep this world together. And that glue is love. Each person is being asked to love this crazy world, love each other (regardless of whether you agree or disagree), love the cognitive process of resolution and cooperation, and love the fact that emotions are often messy and hard to navigate. We are in a time when none of us are going to get what we want. Therefore we are all going to have to compromise and come together eventually. I pray that this will be sooner rather than later.
The world needs spiritual warriors. Are you willing to be one of them?
The New Year begins with mental Mercury continuing its rethinking retrograde cycle until the 8th. New Year’s Day is going to be an excellent one for writing in your journal. It’s OK to make your aspirations big because there is plenty of time to revise them in the spring anyway. No plan you make will actually come to pass under this astrology so begin by picking a direction and then be aware of where the universe continues to shift you again and again in subtle and not so subtle ways. Don’t lock anything in stone. If you learned anything from 2016 it was to be more fluid and recognize that nothing is going according to the old plans and patterns. Choosing directions is all you can do but remember that you will continue throughout 2017 to have many additional forks in the road so you might as well have a strong mindset of change and that will help you to constructively navigate all the directional shifts in this New Year.
Assertive Mars moved into Pisces back on December 19th and stays there until the New Moon on January 28th. This combines well with the other relationship planet, Venus, also moving through Pisces January 2nd through February 3rd. Your intuition is heightened at this time, so go on an inner journey beyond the veils of this world to see what messages and missions are ready for you to bring down to earth. This can create a new theme of Healing and Hope by the end of 2017! Notice I did say, “By the End of 2017!”
January is not without its challenges, but they are mostly the week of January 8th leading up to the Cancer/Capricorn full moon on the 12th. The planets form a Grand Cross. It looks like a big cross in the sky if you connected the dots between the action-oriented signs of Aries, Cancer, Libra, and Capricorn. Allow extra space in your schedule this week to expect the unexpected. A Grand Cross pulls you apart in four directions and then reintegrates you in a new and better way. Although you might feel slightly beat up going through this process, the end result hopefully will be a better you.
If you had difficulty starting your New Year’s diet and exercise program, take heart by knowing athletic Mars moves through Aries, January 26 though March 9th. Aries likes to move, be it through exercise, dance, yoga, martial arts or whatever you do to get your blood circulating.

February is an interesting month. Valentine’s Day is sandwiched between two eclipses. The lunar eclipse in Leo and Aquarius is on February 10th. Full moons tend to pull you apart emotionally, and lunar eclipses just magnify and amplify the effect. This Leo moon eclipse urges you to look at where your heart is engaged vs. where you are living life in a detached, go-through-the-motions manner. The opportunity is to participate in life in a way that your heart is engaged, yet not get sucked into the drama around you. If you are just going through the motions in life, then this eclipse will push you to make changes, or you might go into deep depression. (Which is not recommended!)
To get a hint about how this eclipse is working, watch people born from 1951-1955 as death & rebirth Pluto in Leo gets activated in their charts. It also activates the charts of anyone born within a week of January and July 15th.
The moon is in Libra for Valentine’s Day. That’s perfect since Libra represents relationships, romance, grace, beauty and luxury. Libra likes nice restaurants, art and jewelry. This is not the zodiac sign to be frugal. It is an enthusiastic day for couples because the life-giving Sun is in harmony with warm and generous Jupiter. It’s best to take advantage of this energy before the evening gets late as emotions wear thin the later it gets. Activities that take place between two eclipses are significant. Be focused and clear, saying what you mean and meaning what you say- no fantasy wishful thinking or false promises.
The solar eclipse is on February 26th in Pisces. This special new moon helps you go beyond the veils of this world to bring forth a higher vision and intuitive insight for your incoming projects. There are numerous planets and asteroids in Pisces now. Make certain you see the world as it is, because it would be very easy to fall into fantasy thinking. While this is excellent for creative activities, it can also see only what it wants to see in relationships and business dealings. Hold the higher vision, but keep your feet on earth!
Overall, this is a great three-month period with only minor challenges. You have the opportunity to release and forgive the past, and do the initial visioning of that, which is ready to come into your life next. That seems perfect for the transition into a new year!

Peeking ahead: Relationship planet Venus turns retrograde in March, and that doesn’t happen very often. Your relationships and finances are going to shift.

Numerology/Astrology for 12/29/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 12/29/16
12/29/16 is the number 5. The number 5 craves a solid ground upon which to stand. The number 5 wants healing to happen and for each of us to make conscious choices that allow for bigger shifts that impact not just ourself but the world. Only through fully being here on the planet can you learn to transcend this world. You cannot move beyond the lessons of this world by denying that there are any lessons to learn. There is a huge difference between knowing the information and living that information. You are being asked to bring yourself fully here into this moment in time. It is time to fully feel into this world and use that energy to shift you out of complacency and shallow emotional expression into a deeper love and compassion. A New Moon occurs at 1:19 AM EST in the sign of Capricorn. This lunation symbolizes a new beginning in the cardinal earth sign of Capricorn - quite fitting for the energy of the New Year. It's a time during which you finally can focus on some of the constructive traits of the sign of Capricorn. The Goat energy is tenacious, resourceful, disciplined, wise, ambitious, prudent, constant, and it considers how to incorporate these qualities into your life in positive ways. But Capricorn is a goat with a fish tail, so it also asks us to go deeply into what we are feeling and to explore that darkness within. After all we are in the darkest time of the year and winter is the time of contemplation and introspection. With this Capricorn energy you might want to focus on practical and attainable long-term goals, work on developing maturity and common sense, prepare for the uncertain future, make commitments, recognize your responsibilities, and nurture your dreams in a realistic manner. With this potent Capricorn energy, you have the chance to create some serious order in your life if you are willing to do the hard work and dredge up the gunk and muck that you have allowed to languish in your deep subconscious. It's time to make some solid plans and to set the stage for reaping the rewards from beginnings that need to happen in your immediate future. One of Capricorn's "lessons" is acceptance of the concept that reasonable boundaries and rules offer freedom. Right now each person wants to have freedom from worry and chaos, for example. Uranus stations as it turns direct today after months of retrograde motion. Uranus energy hangs heavy in the air, and "all things Uranus" become strong themes. As the planet gains speed in the next few weeks, your urge to express yourself uniquely, to take some chances or risks, to rebel, and to listen to your own instincts over the projections of others. It is a powerful moment when you can claim your voice even if that voice is contrary to the way the society is attempting to control your actions, words, and mind. Within each person is a rebel and that rebel is going to gain ground over the next few weeks and that voice is going to clarify and become more certain and refined. Uranus retrograde causes great discomfort and now there is finally that shift into Uranus going direct. Remember that Uranus is the planet of shocks and surprises. When it was retrograde it was constricting clarity of thoughts and the expression of those thoughts. So expect there to be more of those out there speaking their mind and expressing what they are feeling inside. I know that a lot of you want to sweep the upsets under the rug and I am not attempting to inflame things I am just showing the patterns of astrology and giving you possible explanations for what is about to happen. Expect dramatic shifts on a global and personal level. This type of energy creates brilliant but sometimes disturbing breakthroughs in the energy for the planet. Expect more sudden, unexpected, and chaotic events. These patterns are designed to create a destabilization and to frighten you into action. That is essential to revitalize and redirect humanity back onto a more conscious and sane course.
~Suzanne Wagner~

“And she had a gift for seeing light in the darkest of souls; for she knew that even those with wings, cast shadows…...”
~Darrielle Cresswell 12/5/16~

It is moments such as this that you discover what you are really made of. The challenge of life is to be honest and informed and to remain open and with a compassionate heart. Those two being held in balance together is very difficult. It is easy to have the “illusion” of love and to act in a loving way when you deny the truth and do not allow in the harsh reality and the facts of life at the same time. It takes great courage and spiritual strength to see both, to hold both, and to be at choice about being loving from your core in each and every moment. It is easy to be in denial and live in a fantasy world. It can feel as if you are choosing love over hate but it is a dangerous thing to not allow in the truth of each moment while choosing love. Denial is what creates wars and conflicts. Denial is what causes governments to pass regulations that harm those with less while those with more get to manipulate circumstances for their own end.
Humanity is in a time of wakefulness. Circumstances have been created to force us to see things in a truthful fashion and to somehow choose to be compassionate in the midst of realization and recognition of the work that is ahead that needs to be done. When you speak from a polarized position of love but it has no substance nor a connection with the reality, it comes across as shallow, La-la, and detached from the suffering of others. It makes you feel to others as if you are not in touch with reality and you are either unwilling to see the suffering they are experiencing or you are protecting your ego and some of your own bad choices from your past.
In that case you are actually in denial and you are disconnected from your lower chakras. The upper chakras want to feel the love and light. The upper chakras want to not be here in the real world. The upper chakras want to carry you away from the horrors of this world and into the highest potential that can be imagined in this reality.
None of that is bad but when you are not connected to your lower chakras it has no power, energy, or substance. People who have had an easy life and have not faced huge challenges are sweet but they often have no substance and they come across as unbelievable because you cannot feel that they have really been challenged in such a way that the truth of what they speak is actually grounded in their body or their reality.
The lower chakras force us into this world. They are the places that connect us to the truth of this moment not just the higher potential truth that is humanity (the upper chakras). When you are in the lower chakras you can discern truth in the physical from someone just wanting to look good or a person that just wants to tell you what you want to hear.
Only when you are fully and completely in your body and you have walked through fire and your own personal challenges (some that you have won and some that you have lost) can you have credibility with others and therefore impact them on a deep core level.

Right now what is important is for each person to get in touch with their body and to uncover what prevents you from being fully in your life. Notice to what you cling to and if that clinging prevents you from authentically connecting to others because you are not fully in your body. Notice why you are afraid to feel more deeply into a situation. Notice where you are still living on the surface of your life and prefer to hold onto an ego position of “I am a good and loving person”. Each person is great. Each person is love. Each person has that spark of light and the divine within them. But clearly seeing a situation for what it is in the moment is essential for survival. Knowing truth from distortion even more so. Remember, there are people who are not acting from their core inner light. There are many people who have suffered so much that they are broken and in this life to learn to heal themselves. There are also those who came in to play games of power, money, and manipulation. I do not judge those who have chosen those games of life to play but you cannot live in an illusion that others happen to be playing the game that you are playing. Looking beyond your own personal bubble and slant of reality is very difficult. Your slant holds some of your lessons that you came into learn. But an even bigger lesson is to lean into the energies outside your bubble and feel into things that are uncomfortable and unfamiliar. That is where you learn true compassion. You can only have compassion if you feel into another person’s reality and step out of imposing your reality on them.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Tuesday, December 27, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 12/28/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 12/28/16
12/28/16 is the number 4. The number 4 strives to find balance in a tremendously unbalanced world. Each of us lives in a world where it has never been more clear that without being internally balanced the external world will never find peace. The denial of the work that needs to be done within is now paramount and so there is finally no excuse but to seek solace within and to drop into that place of self-love and compassion to support a world in chaos. Sometimes in order to find balance the imbalance has to be very obvious, which is what is happening in the world now. Only by not having world peace can we see that the having world peace is so important to the survival of this beautiful planet and all of humanity. The number 4 is pointing out where you have a lack of conviction and what things to go back to the old balance. But we are no longer there and now there is a new way we are being asked to find balance. If you are feeling a lack of energy and an inability to adapt to the situations externally then you need to do the inner work first. The Tarot card associated with the number 4 is the Emperor. The image of this card is a strong-jawed man with conviction and capacity to do what is necessary to protect his family and mate. He is the archetype for putting ideas into form and is grounded, realistic, and cautious. He knows that productive management of family and life requires order and systems that organically work with the reality in which he finds himself. So the same is true for you now. What patterns do you need to implement into your life to have a constructive system that supports work but also your personal life and spiritual well-being? Take some time today to do just that and organize your life around a new system that allows for a more well-rounded life that is about contentment and peace. The New Moon occurs very early tomorrow, making it a better time for tying up loose ends and reflection rather than new action. The Moon continues its transit of Sagittarius until 10:13 AM EST when it enters Capricorn. The Sun's conjunction with retrograde Mercury reminds everyone that they may need to take a hard look at the past before making plans in the future. The future and predictability of the past is no longer a zone we are in and there are unstable patterns that will continue to challenge us to adapt in new ways as we move forward. The universe is trying to bring illumination to your thoughts and ideas. It's a favorable time for processing recent events and for beginning to look at problems or issues from a new perspective and with a new understanding. What you say or write now has impact in the evolution of your karma and the way you will move and progress forward or backward in your life. Mercury favorably aspects Mars, which can help you be especially alert and observant. You feel more resourceful right now, so use it to your advantage. Even so, this is a better time for going over the past than for making solid plans for the future. Because this future is one that you have not seen … ever …. in this life. Saturn squares Chiron today and this is going to be a pattern that will unfold throughout all of 2017. This is the first in a set of three squares (the aspect will perfect again in April and November 2017), and there can be fears not being competent or capable enough to meet your responsibilities. You may have a hard time striking out on a unique path, again due to fears or insecurities. The desire to break from the status quo is strong, but you may not have the necessary confidence to do so. This is a time of taking a hard look at your vulnerabilities, learn how to protect yourself and those you love, and choose your personal priorities as you go forward this next year.
~Suzanne Wagner~

“There will be a time
when my words
will float into
your awareness.
And instead
of being in resistance
you will begin to understand.
That is because
your pain will finally open you
past your ego
and into the truth
of your closed heart.”
~Suzanne Wagner~


As we move closer to the completion of 2016 into the potential of 2017 we take a look into the abyss that is the future with a mixed emotional complexity that many have not felt ever or in a very long time. Allow the truth of your experience to just be and allow the unknown potential to filter in as it is warranted. Feel into your heart and allow the impulses that passionately beat within to be expressed with compassion and grace.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Monday, December 26, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 12/27/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 12/27/16

12/27/16 is the number 3. The number 3 is about allowing the roller coaster of life move you in its dance of dramatic ups and downs and learning to enjoy that journey and see that you wished for a life of excitement and change. We love surprises when we go to theme parks but when do we not like them in our normal life? That is because “life” always appears to be more serious but when you go to a theme park you have already decided to enjoy the surprise. So today, what if you chose to enjoy the surprises as saw your life as one giant theme park adventure? You might learn to take it less seriously and you might learn to enjoy the ups and downs with more of a sense of wonder and mystery. Astrologically we are prepping for a big astrological shift tomorrow on the 28th. So today, you might want to start contemplating your New Year’s resolutions and bring yourself into a more grounded and reflective moment. We are almost to the half way point of the Mercury Retrograde and Mars is lining up with Neptune in dreamy Pisces. While this is great for visions it is also terrible for those prone to addiction. This combination is just the thing to get you into trouble over the New Years Day celebrations so be mindful and get a taxi or have a designated driver. I tell you in advance because you know in the moment making those choices is much more difficult. Recognize that Uranus is not done with any of us yet and it is still attempting to create revolution and revelation. Saturn in Sagittarius is also still breaking you out of old mental patterns of perception that are antiquated and not in alignment with this new world emerging. The transformation of your beliefs is just at the beginning and there is an entire year where you will see things in a very different light. Pluto in Capricorn is forcing you to see that you don’t have any control over the changing environment and that you have to allow the universe to complete its mission in this area of change that has the intention to awaken humanity. The result is going to be that you recognize that each person has made their choices and therefore their consequences. You have to take time for you and to put yourself in a place of clear and grounded power. It is no longer about others. You are being asked to look at yourself and your personal direction going forward. At this time you recognize that you cannot save anyone from his or her own karmic patterns to grow and awaken. Now it is time for you to shift that focus from outward to inward. That is because as you go into the new year and the “Year of the Warrior”, you are going to have to find that place of inner clarity and stand firm with that regardless of where the world’s energy decides to twist and turn. Being a warrior means to stand alone in your own skill and abilities. Being a warrior means that you have the courage to face what ever comes. Being a warrior means accepting the hand that fate has dealt you.
~Suzanne Wagner~


“Why should I fear the dark when the masks people wear in the Sun are far more terrifying?”
~Dave Wise~


Within you is a warrior that is fierce and strong. He or she probably has not needed to come out much but you should feel the drumbeat and the electricity in the air and know that you are embarking on your own person journey that is an edge for you. That does not mean that everyone is going to need to fight something in the external world. Quite the contrary. This fight is internal. This fight is with the old self and allowing a new self to emerge. This is a moment when you find inside something that you have lost or forgotten. It takes intense moments in time to recognize when you are at a key transformation of your life. And this is one of them. For each of you it will look different. Some of you might have already made choices and those choices will unravel and series of lessons that are essential for your soul’s evolution. Regardless of whether those tests are right or wrong in your ego mind. Know they are perfect none-the-less. This is what it takes to discover fact from fiction. You have to take what you perceive as the truth all the way through to the end point. Only at the end will you discover the “real” truth. And that truth is never an external understanding, it is always an internal revelation. This world is only trying to show you ….. You. The parts that you cannot see. The parts that you deny. They parts that you have judged as unworthy. The parts that you dislike. The parts that sabotage you….. etc. When the denial is strong enough there are tough lessons that open and unfold. When you are open and awake you can see it all as you. You can love it all as you. You can accept it all as you. And you do not react in negative ways but move from a place of understanding and learn to grow with that reflection and allow it to mature and soften your heart.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Sunday, December 25, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 12/26/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 12/26/16
12/26/16 is the number 2. The number 20 reminds us that even in this time of celebration and the desire for peace, you will not be able to ignore the suffering of this planet and the huge transformation that is building up as we all progress forward. I am not just talking about our own country but take a look at the bigger picture throughout the world. We are set for a global transformation of some sort and that is going to be essential for the progression of love, peace, and harmony. Right now you see the duality and that duality is attempting to show you where you are out of alignment with a particular side of element in your life. Remember, denial of facts and truths will not heal yourself or the planet. It is only by seeing both sides and learning to love all that you are, the good and the bad, the right and the wrong, the distorted and clear, can you be truly free. Jupiter opposes Uranus today - an aspect that will perfect two more times, in March and September 2017. This is a transit that cries out for freedom, particularly regarding close relationships. At this time you wish to seek out partnership and still hold tightly to your individuality. You are looking for release or freedom from pressures, strains, and areas of life where you have been feeling the most limited, restricted, and constrained. Events occurring now can bring surprises and sudden changes of hearts or paths. The desire to grow and progress has become the strongest anyone can remember and it is time to entertain new possibilities and find inspiration from unusual sources. Do not underestimate the rebellious and impulsive forces still in play under this influence. While this influence can give you the right motivation to try something new or break free from a limiting situation, be careful to not glorifying all that is new and fresh to the point that you forget what's truly important to yourself, your family, and the world. Mars challenges this opposition today, adding even more impulsiveness or impatience to the mix. Tonight, Mercury forms a sextile with Neptune, however, and you rely more on your imagination or intuition when making judgments and drawing conclusions. You are inspired, and wish to inspire others with your words. The Sun and Mars move towards a sextile aspect, and you wish to creatively solving problems. The way to do that is to have more faith and confidence in yourselves rather than seek validation externally.
~Suzanne Wagner~

To meet everything and everyone through stillness instead of mental noise is the greatest gift you can offer to the universe.


Miracles and Intimacy – Marianne Williamson

Saturday, December 24, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 12/25/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 12/25/16
12/25/16 is the number 10. The number 10 shows that there is some sort of synchronicity in the universe that goes beyond expectation and reason. Here we are celebrating the holiday with family and friends and we are on a place of powerful new beginnings. This timing could not have come at a better moment. We are all wishing for this holiday peace, goodwill, and for positive things to come to this world not just our country. But what everyone should realize now is that there is no magic wand or magic person that will do it for us. It is up to each of us and the power of the people and the love that this reality wishes to express that will tilt the world in that direction. Bridging those gaps of culture and perception is now the task to help everyone co-create a world where acceptance is the key to peace. Love wins over hatred only when as one voice we speak together with one heart. Saturn and Uranus came together in a trine yesterday, and Jupiter will oppose Uranus tomorrow. Venus harmonizes with this configuration today, forming a trine with Jupiter and sextiles with both Uranus and Saturn. You’re friendly and considerate, generous and cooperative without going overboard. You give one another space, yet you are also showing your commitment to others in productive and constructive ways. It's easy to find the right balance between security and excitement in your relationships. Integrity and loyalty are favored. This is a good time to connect with others and to build trust. Your business sense is robust and balanced as well, and this can be an excellent time for creative design. The Moon is in Scorpio most of the day - until 10:20 PM EST when the Moon moves into Sagittarius. The moon is in its quiet void-of-course phase all day Sunday the 25th. However, there are three harmonious Venus aspects, which make for a very pleasant day. It is an interesting Christmas Day with a private Scorpio moon and social Venus connections. Perhaps a combination of time with loved ones and quiet times is a good mix. On Monday, the moon is Sagittarius combined with Jupiter opposite Uranus creates a bit of a wild day. Sagittarius believes in doing it big, so watch the budget if you are choosing to do the After Christmas shopping on the 26th. Jupiter has been building to opposition with Uranus since the Presidential elections. Uranus is “expect the unexpected” and Jupiter believes that bigger is better. So take a look where you need more freedom and innovation in your life as neither of these planets is happy when trapped in a closed environment. It is time to risk, let yourself be seen, open to new possibilities, and discover your own untapped resources.
~Suzanne Wagner~

And never could I have known the taste of heaven, had I not swallowed pieces of hell, first.
- ebn; image: by moveimgay on We Heart It

Take this moment to appreciate what is wonderful and beautiful about your life and this world. Now, ask the question, “Is it worth fighting for to bring your experience to others out there in the world who need it and want it?” We live in a world of imbalances. And we do not need to live in that world. There really is enough to go around if we all chose to be in a place of giving, gifting, sharing, teaching, helping, and supporting others. After being in Peru and wanting to help those who seemed to have less “things” but more “joy” than many American, I asked them what they wanted. I have always been surprised by their answers. They don’t want what we “think” they should want. They often want simple things to make their life better, things such as a piece of tin for a roof, a car that can get goods from the villages to the markets for the whole community. Often their choices are inclusive of others and their community. Rarely do you find in 3rd world countries do they want something just for themselves, especially when it is a larger gift. If you could give a “larger” gift to the world, what would you give? I do things such as donate to Tibet Aid and give to a family that needs the help, money, vaccinations, and schooling for their child. And I choose to do that consistently as part of my monthly offering to help those that I don’t even know. Now, you must pick carefully as there are unfortunately scammers out there, so check out the organizations first before you give but make a choice to reach out in a small way monthly that allows for your abundance to touch others in need in ways that serve them. I always remember the MASH show where the rich Doctor Charles Emerson Winchester, wants to give beautiful candies to orphans but it has to be a secret gifts. The Orphanage sold the candies for money to feed the children real food instead of a short termed treat. Have your expression of compassion be for someone your might have judgment upon. If you judge the Arabic world, perhaps donate to helping Syrian refugees. After all it is what is the right thing to do and it is how we learn to love what we fear in the world.
~Suzanne Wagner~
Christmas at M.A.S.H 4077

Friday, December 23, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 12/24/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 12/24/16
12/24/16 is the number 9. The number 9 is perfectly timed today on the beginning of the festivities for the Christmas season as it reminds us that it is time to let it all go. The coming together of family and friends is the opportunity to let the past be in the past and let you choose to create new memories without some of the stigma of the habit and history of your childhood issues or pattern that are really not of consequence any more. After all so much has changed in just the last 2 months that you might as well do a clean sweep and change everything else because this new year is not going to be like anything you have ever experienced in this life. There is always excitement in new journeys along with trepidation but right now on the holidays lets us celebrate that blood is thicker than water and that in all times of great transition that what we cling to in such times is our family and friends. A long-term aspect is exact today and is the first of three in a set: Saturn in Sagittarius forms a trine to Uranus in Aries. This exact will perfect again in May and November 2017. You have the opportunity to make changes and progress without sacrificing security and reliability. You can successfully apply new methods to old projects, or take a new, innovative idea and turn it into a workable project. There can be breakthroughs, new beginnings and structures in your life, and success in business, science, and math. There is the ability to combine the progressive with the traditional, and there can be a better understanding between the young and the old. You can be committed and retain your independence. You might enjoy more freedoms or creative license in the work you do. Educational advances are possible now, and you may be updating your skills and knowledge. The Moon is in Scorpio all day, harmonizing with Mercury and Pluto in Capricorn as well as Neptune in Pisces. This is a time for insight into both professional and personal matters.
~Suzanne Wagner~

The most common way that people give up power is by thinking they don’t have any.
~Alice Walker~


Wishing you and those you love and Happy Holiday Season. I hope that the desires that you dream of become the reality. Know that in this spirit of giving and gifting that we all are here as Americans to come together and to find the doorways back to peaceful co-existence and to show the world the joys and sorrows that are what democracy is all about. Freedom has to be fought for to be maintained and I hope that all that want freedom find that doorway to a more peaceful resolution in their life, home, and spirit.
~Suzanne Wagner~