Friday, December 02, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 12/3/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 12/3/16
12/3/16 is the number 8. The realization is hitting that it is going to not be a logical road ahead so that means that the path is fraught with delusions and distortions that will need to be played out harshly so that the real world teaches the lessons. There are powerful moments when egos have taken over so strongly that reason goes out the window and only the game of truth and consequences will work in the overall scheme of things. Experience is the greatest teacher and often we only learn by making choices and seeing outcomes of our choices. What concerns me is how so much of this society blames others for their mistakes regardless of the facts being presented. So this type of self-delusion is more difficult to change because of how strongly people can hang on to their perspective. Such paths are never easy for those not in the telepathic agreement field. Thus it is a game of patience. Today, you are being asked to breathe in and out in as calm of a fashion as possible. We are in the darkest times of the year and the icy, cold winds are bringing those of consciousness into deep contemplation to explore and discover the grief that needs to be felt, loved, and fully embraced. Life is always in motion and in each life there are moments of expansion and contraction. Notice what you are feeling and then notice if that feeling is reflected in the outer world. The challenge is going to be to bring your full awareness to the here and now and to expand your narrow view into a greater global and world view. You cannot deny what is going on in the outer world because there is no outer or inner. It is all one and it is all a reflection of who you are and what your personal purpose is in this world. The Moon continues its transit of Capricorn until 2:45 PM EST, and you are drawn to practical activities and goals. A sextile between Mars and Capricorn's ruler, Saturn, suits the Capricorn Moon's energies well. Work takes on definite shape, and you can see results from your efforts. This gives you a sense of responsibility and a feeling of directedness and purposefulness. It's a good time to temper your energy, pace ourselves productively, and exercise better judgment. This is also a strong time for getting organized. Traditional methods work, and thoroughness brings rewards. The Moon ends its transit of Capricorn at 2:45 PM EST when it enters Aquarius. With the Moon in Aquarius, you seek to be fair and supportive while maintaining your independence.
~Suzanne Wagner~

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If passion drives you, let reason hold the reins.
~Benjamin Franklin~

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Take a breathe and know that the road ahead is going to be one where you are going to need consistency and stamina to move in constructive ways into the future. Nothing is going to be easy. The shock of what is going to be ahead is going to shake the very core of what you know to be true about your world. That is why you have to know yourself deeply and use that core and center to be able to not panic or become really down and depressed. The answers that many were hoping for are evaporating as we speak but the level of self-deception that continues to desire hope even in the face of reality hitting them is the most amazing level of delusion that any of us have seen in modern history. Only in WWII did Germany succeed in creating an atmosphere of such distortion that the masses became caught in such a huge game of mind control. It is up to you to remain in a place of awakened presence and to hold a place of truth regardless of the projection of mass mental control that people in power are now going to exert on your reality. Realize that this is a form of brain washing. There are people who can create an energy pattern where you see what you want to see or you see what they want you to see. The only antidote to awakening from such a strong illusion is a quality of total destruction. I am afraid that this is going to be a very painful process. So hold tight to your truth. Protect your family and know that you need to stay very awake to the trends and patterns that will unfold that can affect you. This is going to require some very forward thinking and planning. I would suggest that there are going to be some lean times ahead so preparation for the worst even if it doesn't happen is probably a good idea as we go into the future.
~Suzanne Wagner~
What is Truth? – By Philosophy News

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Thursday, December 01, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 12/2/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 12/2/16
12/2/16 is the number 7. It is time to begin the creation of a personal strategy that will allow you to move forward in a constructive way but one that does not sell out your personal values and truths. The journey ahead is going to be long and so it is in these moments when you recognize that the length of the global shift is going to be one that takes the rest of this life and probably more. Therefore you have to step into your own personal journey towards awakening and enlightenment. It is often in the harshest of times that the only recourse is to do the inner work, as the outer work will require a greater force than one person. So having your own deeply centered wisdom is the only way that you can effectively communicate to a world in chaos. Only your personal awakening will expand your aura in such a way that you may begin to be able to inspire and expand others out of the limitations in which they find themselves. It is time to change the flow of your life towards a pattern that will allow you to move beyond the density inside and outside. From that place you will find the magic again. The Moon is in practical Capricorn all day, and while you seek out definition and structure under this influence, a Venus-Neptune semi-square may first break these down the patterns that are not working in the first half of the day. Venus-Neptune challenges your perceptions, particularly regarding people and how negativity is actually creating the experience of pleasure for some. That is a big thing to look at. Can you see that just like a cancer feeds on CO2 rather than Oxygen so to you can become a cancer to yourself and feed on negative energy over love. What is the end result of such a thing. Death of the organism upon which it feeds. It is love and light that will feed the soul. Yet holding that love in a strong and powerful place inside while on the outside so much negativity is being cultivated and worshiped is difficult. Because that kind of negativity feeds on ignorance and hurting of innocent and less consciously aware people. It is time to seek out constructive ways to explore your deeper spiritual needs. Mercury enters Capricorn today and will stay in the sign longer than its average three weeks, until January 4th and then from January 12th to February 7th, 2017, due to an upcoming retrograde. While Mercury is in Capricorn, your thinking is methodical, and your focus is sober and practical. It is easier to concentrate on the task at hand under this influence, particularly if its usefulness is apparent. Your conversations may be quite realistic or focused on business/practical matters. Your thought patterns and communication styles become more logical, orderly, and organized. You are more able to sort out what is relevant and essential. Realism finally begins to enter the picture and your speech becomes clear, concise, and no-nonsense. Right now precision is going to be very important to guide this chaos in as constructive way as possible. You need to be wary of becoming too rigid in your thinking under this influence, because if you do this the wrong way, you words may come across as cold or harsh. For some, there is a fine line between realism and pessimism. Just think of if you watch yourself on a video 5 years from now what you will think of yourself. How are your words and actions actually coming across to others. It would probably be a good exercise to video yourself with your phone and voice what you are feeling. then take a look at it a week from now and honestly analyze how you look and how you come across. Do you look happy? Do you bitter and angry? Do you look like a calm organized person or do you look like an emotional mess that is fractured in your thinking? Is your argument logical and sound or is your argument filled with emotional vindictiveness and a quality that you want to hurt others.
~Suzanne Wagner~

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To conquer oneself is a greater task than conquering others.
~Buddha~

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Here is an honest and grounded perspective that I feel is very real.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVD7yWe-LrE

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 12/1/16 - Plus Personal Blog


Numerology/Astrology for 12/1/16
12/1/16 is the number 6. The number 6 calls out to the spirit of St. Hildegard to support you in your continuing journey forward in this life. Hildegard’s visions caused her to see humans as “living sparks” of God’s love, coming from God as daylight comes from the sun. Sin (dark energies) destroyed the original harmony of creation. And it was Christ’s redeeming death and resurrection that opened up new possibilities. What is dying within you right now? When you willing lay your old life on the alter of destruction that is how your soul is redeemed. Within you is that spark and it is up to you to figure out how to allow that spark to grow and expand so that it touches all those you love. While there is very forward-looking, resilient energy with us now, with Chiron stationary and turning direct today, there can be some emotional vulnerability. Emotional truths about matters you’ve been avoiding or confused about begin to emerge now and in the coming weeks. Expect these truths to not be comfortable but they serve to motivate you to take appropriate and potentially new action. Mars forms a trine with Jupiter today, and you are brave, direct, and confident. You are looking for new challenges today. This can point to taking action to improve yourself or better your life. Do your best to be optimistic and enthusiastic, certain that your actions will be well-received or will lead to better circumstances, and your positive attitude can attract winning situations now. Be careful because your more adventurous and competitive sides can emerge now.
~Suzanne Wagner~

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“Life has a way to testing a persons will, either by having nothing happen at all or by having everything happen at once.”
~Paul Coelho~
The Chronicles of Narnia – The Resurrection of Aslan
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What does your life stand for? What will be you legacy and what is it that others will remember the most about you when you are gone? When you die what will be the defining moment of this life that you will recognize as a moment when your soul shone through with such power and courage that it will give you the momentum to propel yourself past the domain of fear and into the next level of conscious expansion. I have said it before but I will say it again, that I believe we are all down here on this planet to learn to overcome fear. This dimension is filled with things that cause you to contract and to make you small. You are beings of light and love and it is your personal challenge to find out how to move through the fear that you have chosen with this DNA and this body in this lifetime. I was blessed that the guides and angels told me this when I was very young and that truth has been one of the guiding principals of my life. I recognized that I was afraid of everything. I was afraid of change, doing things wrong, having people be upset at me, disappointing others, failing, not getting to my goals, not being able to find my courage at the critical moment, etc.
I know that each of us have all these fears and have been working on finding ways to expand beyond the limitations the fear creates in our world. I remember going on my first fire walk and standing in front of the coals and asking for permission to walk. Now, you are not supposed to walk until you get a clear “Yes!” in your head. So over and over again, I walked up to the burning coals and even from 6 feet away I could feel my skin burning and the heat choking the air in my lungs. And each time I stood there asking permission, the fire showed me the many places in life where I had not had the courage in the face of fear. Movie after movie of my life showed me the multitude of places that the fear had overridden the courage inside my soul. Each time I could see the collapse and shame from not being able or willing to stand up for someone or something. Even when I knew what was right, there were moments I failed to show up to my potential again and again. And because of that others got hurt. Others suffered because of my unwillingness to stand up and speak the truth and to be a beacon of love. Each of those moments were tests from the divine and God to help be find courage to do what was right over what was convenient. The lesson was to listen to my heart and the deeper principals of life and love over the words of others or following the herd mentality.
Finally, there was a moment when something shifted inside of me. And now, I spoke in my mind to the fire and I said, “I am going to walk across this fire even if you burn my feet. I am not going to allow fear to define this life for me.”
And then I heard the fire say, “Then walk.”
And I walked across those hot coals and I remember that it felt like walking across popcorn. No heat, no pain, just the sensation of walking on popcorn.
When I got to the other side I had a revelation. Nothing on this planet is designed to hurt you. If fire will not hurt you then everything in this reality is just an illusion. It is like we are in a big holodeck (like on a spaceship).
In that moment I understood how gurus could sit and meditate in the middle of crocodiles. How your perceptions add to and help co-create this world in which we live. Where we are in agreement is where the world appears to be consistent. Where we are different is where we fight and create conflict. And even within that reality, each person is actually in their own bubble of perception which clouds their judgment and shapes their world and therefore their reactions, struggles, and responses. This is an amazing world in which we live. I believe that this world was designed perfectly for each person to learn to work through fear.

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The fear of this dimension is never going to go away. What will happen is that you will finally see through the illusion of your own fear and step out of this reality completely. This is a world that creates war and conflict. This is a world that creates suffering and pain. When you begin to awaken you understand that and then you have a choice. That choice is to look at what you are willing to do that will define your soul as to what you stand for. Are you willing to confront how the external reflects your internal state of being and find the courage and strength of your soul that exists in the domains beyond fear. If you are afraid of this dimension just think how terrifying all the others will be once you move beyond this experience.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 11/30/16 - Plus Personal Blog



Numerology/Astrology for 11/30/16
11/30/16 is the number 5. The number 5 is again attempting to get our feet firmly on the ground and to find the doorway to healing and personal transformation. The path ahead is rocky, hilly, treacherous, and filled with unknown twists and turns. But you have this one path and that is the path that you must walk. Each person will feel challenged in the way that is aligned with his or her karmic lessons. All paths lead home. Some are faster and some are slower. It is up to you to determine how quickly this difficult time will take. Choose willingness over resistance. Choose to open and listen to all positions and perspectives and recognize the suffering of others even in the face of your own suffering. No ones pain is more important than another.  With the Sun forming you must consider your spiritual needs first, which might at this point seem to contradict your plans and goals; or you may need to confront the ways in which reality is not measuring up to your ideals. It is time to find ways to incorporate imagination and spirit into your life. Know that this energy can create problems feeling motivated. This influence takes away all security and all sense of certainty. You can either go with that flow or resist it and feel lost and without direction. Concentrating on artistic or spiritual pursuits is better than focusing on things that require straightforward, factual thinking because right now nothing makes any sense. Chiron is stationing direct, exact tomorrow. Launches of new projects should probably wait. The Moon is in Sagittarius all day.
~Suzanne Wagner~

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How like herrings and onions our vices are in the morning after we have committed them.
~Samuel Taylor Coleridge~

David Simon – Possibility Right Wing Ideologues
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You cannot open a closed mind. You cannot open a mind that is defending itself. Understand that defensiveness is an indication of a deeper internal conflict is happening. Being “right” in our world is a very important thing and to have validation makes a soul feel good about themselves. But learning to defend that position in the face of obvious distortions, over time, always becomes more and more difficult.
My father used to say, “People most of the time don’t change. Most of the time what you see is exactly what you get.”
It is our illusions and projections of change onto others of our own internal darkness and our desire to make that emptiness whole again inside that creates an atmosphere of self-deception. You are not defending that person’s actions on the outside, you are defending your own desire to evolve and change your own darkness into consciousness. I support the journey of each person to heal his or her own darkness. I support and understand you wanting to defend your ability to evolve and change. Now, it is time for you to separate your own personal journey from a projection that you have on another person. Stop defending a person who is doing things that cause others obvious harm. Stop defending a person who lashes out like a small child when they do not get their way. Stop defending a person who is clearly only interested in their own welfare and not the integrity of the institution that they are supposed to be defending.
I had a dream last night and it was about a bunch of politicians all rushing around like children with those Big Wheel Tricycles. They all had out of proportion heads and small child bodies and they were yelling and whining just like 2 year olds wanting their way and pushing and punching the other kids to get what they wanted. I remember even in the dream thinking, “This is what we have come to as a country. We have people in charge still on and evolutionary level where they are on the playground pinching, punching, and scratching the others in order to claim dominance. None of these politicians ever got past the 2 year old stage of development and now they are going to run the country from a perspective of that immature place. We are a country with a lot of people in charge with big heads, big egos, and only a desire for power and to win.”
Like the Avatar movie as the main female character (Neytiri) said to the human (Jake Sully) in the avatar body, “Don’t Thank! You don’t thank for this! This is sad, very sad only. All this is your fault. They did not need to die. YOUR FAULT! Your fault. You’re like a baby making noise. You don’t know what to do! Stupid! Ignorant like a child!”

This is our country right now and these are our leaders. It is sad….very sad.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Monday, November 28, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 11/29/16 - Plus Personal Blog


Numerology/Astrology for 11/29/16
11/29/16 is the number 4. The number 4 once again attempts to help us find a new balance. (Which has been hard to accomplish under these circumstances.) Holding the duality in your soul in perfect balance is going to take practice and fortunately you are going to have a lot of time to do just that. Regardless, it is all about your life, your choices, your actions, and your karma that is what you will be working on. Never has that been more obvious than now. The external world will do what it is going to do. You will have to do your best to maintain the truth and values that allow your soul to progress forward and not allow external circumstances to pull you backwards into the dangerous past and history that has caused so much suffering. The world is going through the throws of a major death and it is up to you and the connections you have with those you consider your spiritual family to join together and hold true to each other and find the way to be in alignment and keep open conversations where all feel heard. That does not mean you will get the answers you like. That does not mean everyone will agree with you. What it does mean is that each of you will be confronted with the delusion of your slant and the projection of your unhealed shadow. Remember, if you find anger coming back at you, then deep down inside you are angry. It is time to go look deeply at how your choices are a reflection of that anger even if your higher functioning mind believes that you are not angry. No one wants to look at the dark energies inside and how they erupt in your life is going to cause you to have to really look deeper inside than you have ever done before. If you find yourself being afraid, notice where you have been pretending that you are fine and not afraid. How has fear constricted you into playing it safe and not putting your essence out there because of fear of rejection and ridicule? This is a level of social acceptance that is a place of brain development that in many has not matured into a place of center and wisdom yet. This is a wonderful moment to allow that maturity to begin and evolve. You will be a better person by allowing yourself to see the opposite not as a problem but as a piece of information that is essential for you to find a healthier inner and outer balance. The New Moon occurs this morning at 7:19 AM EST in the sign of Sagittarius, and a new cycle begins. It's a time when finally you might be able to focus on some of the constructive traits of the sign of the Archer, which are optimism, enthusiasm, adventurousness, honesty, and independence. Take a moment to consider how to incorporate these qualities into your life. Now it is important to make a conscious effort to focus on the goals ahead that will increase your knowledge and awareness. When you are armed with truth it gives you the courage to expand your horizons, and gain confidence and optimism through a broader perspective. You can too easily get lost in the false news on the internet, but with this potent Sagittarius energy, you can find ways to get to the truth whether that is what you want to hear or not. With that information you can nurture your faith, hope, and vision. Because Sagittarius thinks in big terms, be careful to not overdo your expectations that you have on yourself, others, and the world situation. With the New Moon in a square relationship with Neptune in Pisces on the Nodal axis this will get magnified. Venus squares Uranus today, presenting a potential challenge or struggle. Values and tastes may clash, and group activities may suffer as a result. Impulsive attractions to both people and material goods can lead you astray. Avoid impulse buys at this time. Some instability, restlessness, and rebelliousness is possible in romantic relationships. You may not see eye to eye, and you might be taken off guard by unexpected events. You may struggle with freedom versus intimacy issues at this time. Truth will win regardless of if it shows up in the freedom area or the intimacy area. Hold off on decision-making with regards to finances, as there is a tendency to act on a whim rather than reason. However, Venus sextiles Chiron, and there is a simultaneous drive for intimacy and sharing. You are finally beginning to see the beauty in human weaknesses.
~Suzanne Wagner~

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Positive politics is the arousal of our collective conscience,
activated for the purpose of healing the world.
~Marianne Williamson~

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As we move into the holiday it is good to remember that we are going into the darkest time of the year and as such those with seasonal depression disorder and other mood challenges that this can be one of the most difficult times of the year for many. The recent events have pulled many into places of despair that they have never felt in a long time and I have tried to do my best to reach out to those and get them out of the house and moving in directions that shift the focus off the fear and anger and into more constructive patterns and behaviors. This year it is particularly difficult and so staying present to the suffering of others and helping them through it when it is appropriate is a good thing to pay attention to. Just remember that so many are hurting, don’t spread yourself too thin. You have only so much energy and time to give when you also are working on your deepest self. Be aware of if you are using “rescuing” others as an avoidance of your own inner work.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Sunday, November 27, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 11/28/16 - Plus Personal Blog


Numerology/Astrology for 11/28/16
11/28/16 is the number 3. The number 3 is attempting to help everyone reframe the negative to the positive. But the divide internally and externally has never been more obvious. Inside you is a side that is divine and there is also one who is a tempted energy that cannot help but express what you are feeling. We see the split inside and that becomes magnified in the external world. Each of us is attempting to learn to find the balance between the light and the dark, the love and the hate, the fear and the compassion. Unfortunately the healing that needs to happen is not easy or quick and so you are going to be learning how to hold that duality right in front of your face for quite a while. Be patient with yourself and others. You are attempting to break free of the intense emotional drama that has been the last two plus days as we come out of the Dark Moon in Scorpio. There is a deep and dark purging of energies that have been hidden in this Moon energy that is within you. You have to decide and define your values and ask the question, “What can you let go of? What position are you hanging onto? You cannot keep holding this much energy, anger, and pain. Yes, it needs to move. Yes, you need to let it be puked out of your body because this negativity that you are holding inside is very toxic and must be released. You have to break free of the emotional traps of that you are hanging onto. You have to find a way to look higher and above this energy that wants to pull the world into more suffering. It is time to look ahead and somehow we have to find how to stand in joy even if you are feeling all this intensity. Do not let the duality pull you out of balance. It is going to be very difficult. It is going to take until Monday to break out of this terribly upsetting place. Notice the story is shifting. Notice that you are in a deep and painful ending. Notice that Venus has come off of Pluto but it is also squaring Uranus. You have to find relationships that help us define who we really are. The Moon is in Scorpio until 3:46 PM EST, after which it transits Sagittarius. The Scorpio Moon is observant, strategic, emotional, and intense, and the Sagittarius Moon is exploratory, philosophical, and spontaneous. The Moon is Balsamic today, and with a New Moon occurring tomorrow morning, you will want to finish up loose ends. It's best not to start anything new during this phase of the Moon, as it is a time of endings. Reflection is favored over innovation now.
~Suzanne Wagner~

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In relation to the chaos and upset over this election. Teal Swan is a teacher who supports people in feeling through what they are feeling fully and gives permission for what each person feels.
“The reason that somebody is not taking action out of fear is that they do not have the capacity to hold the space for that fear. And that happens when we grow up in a society that does not allow us to feel emotion. We learn that we can take action even if it scares us. But we are never going to be able to get the whole world to take action even though it scares the hell out of them. Demonstrate by example that there are those who do have the capacity to hold fear and take action also. This is an emotional awakening for the planet. Fear is an accurate way to feel in this circumstance.”
~Teal Swan~

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We are all on the fast track of learning and we have no choice but to look at the collective consciousness that has created massive global upset all at the same time. Now this is not surprising because of the astrology but lets just say that the personal hits that each person feels regardless of their choices or positions is pretty equal on both sides of the fence. Each of us is being used as a tool for global awakening. Refusing to tell yourself the truth about your choices and actions is a choice. That choice is simply showing you where you have fallen asleep and that part is attempting to awaken and come back into your consciousness. It forces you to look at your deep-seated anger and rage that you have allowed to fester within. Now, please know that this is true on both sides of that fence. Each side has been sitting on huge emotions and unwilling to look at them so now we have this huge mirror showing us the parts of ourself that we did not want to look at. Regardless of if you feel righteous in your position, you are angry, hurt, and upset. It is not about what the others are saying that oppose your position. It is whether you can hold that strong of a reflection of deep internal divide in your core and work with it. What others say that triggers you is what you believe about yourself. There is a huge chunk to swallow. If you know in your core that you are a good person then what others do or say will not matter because you know the truth all the way to your core. But if you are upset and hurt by the words and anger that is being spoken by others then you are also angry. You cannot hide behind righteous indignation. I have a favorite phrase that I remember when I am in these situations. It goes like this; “The meaning of my communication is the result I produce.” That means that if you think you are being reasonable but someone reacts in anger at you then you are angry. Take a look at that mirror. It is hard to stomach and swallow but that is the very bitter pill all of us have to look at to move forward. It means that you might be clever enough to think that you have worded things in a reasonable way but deep down someone hears a very different thing. That is because 80% of language is non-verbal. That is a huge amount. Meaning that others read your tone, body language, the negation in the angle of your head and mouth, they see the intensity in your eyes, and they feel the rigidity of your body as it move into defensive postures. So regardless of your carefully constructed words that defend your position and actions there is a very real and raw undercurrent that is also loudly communicating to others. That is the reflection that you cannot see. That is the reflection that you have to deal with that is a not nice part of yourself. Can you learn to love that angry voice inside your body? Can you learn to accept and allow others to see your “dirty laundry”? Can you allow others to see the real you, not the fabricated and carefully constructed you? This is a time for vulnerability. That is what I see the great teachers doing. They are horrified with what has transpired but they are very forthcoming and real about their own process to find a new balance and to understand what is happening and how this is moving each person towards a new understanding and awakening to a deeper and truer self. No it is not fun to see so much anger out in the world. No it is not fun to see so much fear in the world. But honor and admire those who are showing that deep and vulnerable part of themselves in ways that are their attempt to move into balance and to learn to hold that huge duality that they feel inside and outside in equal proportions. If you are not doing that, if you are not telling the truth, if you are not showing your vulnerable self, you are not doing this moment in time and wave of change justice. This is a unique moment to move quickly past your old self and discover a very new you but you have to be willing to be very raw and real with what is going on inside of you. You cannot grow in a vacuum. You cannot expand truth if you do not allow the lies out. It is just the nature of this dualistic world.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Saturday, November 26, 2016

Suzanne Wagner Poem - The New World Order of America



The New World Order Of America


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In a moment of time away it flew.
Into a cuckoo’s nest of distorted anger and hate.
Into a world where those negative people found an open gate.
While in our illusion we had so safely sat,
The darkness of the world snuck in like a rat.
In the Civil War we fought for all men to be free
People fought and died on the ideal of equality.
But those that had the hate in their heart
Did not let it go so that anger could depart.
Instead they hid it deep in the darkness of their chest
And let it rot, fester, and continue to detest.
What frightens me the most is that when we look back
The pain did not heal it just turned a darker black.
It survived the generations and was passed through time.
It lives in the genes and the DNA like a toxic slime.
Then as it grew it began to infect
Others who were naïve and had a feeling of neglect.
It was so subtle at first that they did not see
That they were becoming an instrument of an atrocity.
I know that this is how the light shows us the dark
That we ignored and refused to remark.
But now it is here and it is a tough road ahead.
It is a darkness that has taken over and is wanting to spread.
It is up to you to find your own way.
It is up to you to not be afraid.
It is your choice where you will stand.
When the forces of darkness attempt to command.
We each have a choice. We each have a path.
We each have a soul and our own personal karmic map.
But what I know is that the battles I have fought
In my past I can feel as knots.
Those knots are the places where I sold out in fear
Those knots are the karmic warning to speak up when others jeer.
This moment attempts to pull us back over a hundred years.
To a place where the darkness inside others justified death and tears.
It has already begun and the damage has split the country in two.
It will take even longer now to attempt to undo
What one man whose desire for power and hate,
Took us off the cliff of sanity and fair debate.
You are here for this moment in time
To save the world from his lies and war crimes.
You have to stand up for what you believe.
You have to love regardless of the hate you perceive.
You have to own the shadow in you that you see in him.
Your longing for personal power allowed you to help him win.
There is no easy answer and no quick door.
This is a type of primal suffering and uproar.
That you have not seen at any point and time.
It is a throw back to when powerful people used others to do their crimes.
Where you stand and what you will do,
Is completely up to your courage and karmic due.
If you stand in the place of love and light
If you want to protect the land and what is right.
I will stand with you and protect your back.
I will face what comes and together we will crack
A column of light to pierce through that dark
To show the way for others to find and reclaim their heart.
~Suzanne Wagner~