Saturday, April 30, 2016

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Numerology/Astrology for 5/1/16
5/1/16 is the number 6. The number 6 is asking us again to back up and take another look at what you need from an internal level compared to what your mind tells us or your ego tells you from an outward level. Things in life have to be aligned with all the levels of reality to crack open and move smoothly. If you are out of alignment with something on an internal level and you want the external to validate your internal weakness, it will fail miserably. It is all about being congruent internally first and then allow the external to show you that you have the alignment you seek. The Sun forms a sextile with Neptune this morning, and you have better access to your imagination and intuition. What feels like serendipity experienced now may actually have to do with a good sense of timing and feeling in synch. You are more generous and charitable with your time and energy. You are able to see people and situations from a different perspective--one that allows for, and finds beauty in, differences. Charitable acts can be satisfying. This is a good time for self-improvement programs or efforts. Instinctual judgment is enhanced under this influence. The Moon continues its transit of Aquarius until 10:34 AM EDT, when it enters Pisces. The Pisces Moon is compassionate, sensitive, giving, and perceptive at its best and noncommittal when challenged.
~Suzanne Wagner~

If the internal and external in your life are not in alignment things will not work. In this case back off the external expectation and look to the internal place that is sabotaging your reality. Your internal may not be strong enough yet to hold that place in a calm and clear fashion. Many stars have had a peak moment in a film but have been unable to hold and maintain that star power and expectation over time because the external did not match the internal. Finding that balance so you can move with comfort is a difficult pattern to maintain.
~Suzanne Wagner~


I am always amazed at the expectations and demands that my ego can make on my situation. The things in my life are given value not by what my ego wants or expects but by what others see as that value. People will give almost anything they have to be in the presence of authenticity. But you cannot tell them that value. It is the world that dictates what that value is. That does not mean that a person does not have much more value than the external world may perceive because each person is worth more than anyone can pay. But it is what someone sees as that value to them in that moment. That is why sometimes it takes time for what you are creating to find its value. You give the gift and then over time others see more and more the value that you have given them and the word spreads out to others. Then there becomes a consensus as to what that value is and that becomes the price. My father told me something years ago. He said, “No company can actually give you the money that you are worth.” It is up to you to find a way to know that you have value and give that value regardless of if others see it or not. Over time as eyes and hearts open, others will see that value and know the gift that you are.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Friday, April 29, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 4/30/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 4/30/16
4/30/16 is the number 7. The number 7 so you have to recognize that the pattern that you want to happen has not bee happening and the faith that you had in another is not quite working out the way you had planned it. It is interesting how you might feel like you are following the rules but others who made the rules are not following their own decision process and choices. I know it wills seem ridiculous and unfair that you have to stick with the plan when others don’t but it is your integrity at stake and how you build your own power in this world. If the plan is working for you then stick with it. If not you may modify it at a later date but I personally would not try to implement it during this Mercury Retrograde. The chance of miscommunication is very high right now. A difficult aspect between Venus and Saturn this morning can point to some holding back in your interactions. There can be coolness with your affections, and possible anxiety on social or financial levels. Things aren't flowing very naturally and there was a recent upset that has made you look closely at what others are truly capable of in your life. It is a moment when you have to recognize what you have is what it is and you have to let people be who they are and stop trying to change them. All the rules and regulations that others put into play are about their insecurity and rarely about you personally. The Moon is in Aquarius all day, and you are attracted to the unusual, extraordinary, and unconventional. Independence, equality, and freedom are vital to feeling emotionally satisfied with this position of the Moon. As the day advances, you tend to open your mind and your faith increases. This will lead you to be more able to tap into your imagination.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Soul work is not a high road. It’s a deep fall into an unforgiving darkness that won’t let you go until you find the song that sings you home.


People will be who they are as they move through the challenges that their life is presenting to them karmically. You can see someone’s potential but always recognize the level that they are at and where they are in the journey to awakening. Allow them to find the path even when sometimes that means that they seem to be in a blizzard of chaos and confusion. Just remember that you have been in this same place and allow the journey to open them in the time that is right for them.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Thursday, April 28, 2016

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Numerology/Astrology for 4/29/16
4/29/16 is the number 6. The number 6 is where your untouched depths whisper to you. Tickling your fancy to take a risk and do something unique. Those urges are from your most powerful and integrated self. It takes time to learn to listen and trust when those feelings come through but that is why we practice today in the number 6 position of silence. When you learn to wait on the will of the Divine and move only when there is an alignment of energy that allows for a feeling of congruency then things in your life are calmer, more in a flow, and take less energy than when your ego is pushing. The Moon continues its transit of Capricorn until 4:47 AM EDT, when it enters Aquarius. Under the influence of an Aquarius Moon, you will feel an emotional need for freedom and independence. Things that are intellectually stimulating help you make that change towards a more unconventional self. Venus enters Taurus today, where it will transit until May 24th. In Taurus, Venus is usually quite content, but can be possessive. You feel that deep need for security and you want to value that which lasts. Seeking out things that create pleasure is a strong driving force today. Taurus values the here and the now as well as the world of the five senses. Tangible and physical expressions of love and romance are most important now. Holding on to someone you love, and/or the things you love, is a very strong tendency under Venus in Taurus. A Last Quarter Moon is towards the end of the day, when the Sun in Taurus forms a square with the Moon in Aquarius. The Last Quarter Moon phase points to some sort of crisis of consciousness. After basking in the awareness symbolized by the full light of the Moon at the time of last week's Full Moon, you disperse your knowledge and come to a point when you need to sort out what works for who you are becoming because you are being prepared for next week's New Moon, when something new is born once again. Because there is a decreasing of the light of the Moon, this symbolizes a descent into your unconscious and deeper self. It's time to begin finishing up those things that are lingering on your “To Do” list.
~Suzanne Wagner~

All the broken hearts in the world still beat.
~Ingrid Michaelson~


Each time my heart has been broken I realized that I could not control the world. I recognized that I cannot control others and each person has a map and a karmic blueprint that they are obligated to address and deal with in this lifetime. Sometimes that allows us to cross paths and connect deeply but when the karmic piece is accomplished then that person or circumstance wanders away again on their own unique path for awakening. Attachment to people, situations, financial pictures, and superstitious tendencies that we use to explain our “Good” or “Bad” life are not real and all have to fall away for the authentic self to blossom. No one can shine when they are under the protection of another’s safety. We need to feel safe but then we need to be brave enough to leap past the illusions that we have used to feel safe and then build confidence. At some point you learn to love yourself enough and then you recognize that you must walk your own path alone.

~Suzanne Wagner~

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 4/28/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 4/28/16
4/28/16 is the number 5. The number 5 helps all of us to feel a bit more grounded which is helpful as the astrology (specifically Mercury) is going retrograde later today. It is always better to have your feet firmly planted on the ground if you know there is going to be a shift happening. Today is a day to feel downward and into your feet. It will feel as if there is so much to do so don’t let the energy get ahead of you. Just do what is right in front on you. If you notice the house is a mess then begin to clean that up. If a closet is bothering you with its lack of organization it is time to de-clutter and clear it out. If you feel inwardly stressed it is probably a great idea to go for a walk and put your feet in the dirt. What you notice is the next thing on the list to do in the earth plane. And while you are doing it, relax. Life is always about one more thing to do. This is not an ideal day for clear decision-making. A semi-square between the Sun and Chiron can undermine your confidence as you may fear being different or doubt your experience. Venus in dynamic aspect with Jupiter can serve to exaggerate your feelings, wants, and perceived needs. You might overstate your feelings or promise more than you can deliver. Cloudy thinking or experiencing confusion can figure strongly today with Mercury moving to a station and turning retrograde. Communication can be tricky, and it can be hard to focus on cold, hard facts, especially if you have been fuzzy in recent days. Mercury will remain retrograde until May 22nd. During this time, your thinking is turned inward, as you review and re-assess matters. Mercury retrograde periods can be times of heightened inner awareness, when meditation, benefiting from keeping a journal, reworking old plans, and reviewing past work are favored. Minor breaks in the mechanical aspects of communication can actually re-connect you to other, and possibly more meaningful, ways of communicating. The more difficult times are the periods of the shifts themselves which is where we are at today. After this moment you can grow more as you become accustomed to the new energy pattern.
~Suzanne Wagner~

He believed that if he took apart her wings she would have to stay. That if he filled her head with thoughts of a better tomorrow she would never leave. What a fool he was to believe she needed wings to fly.
~L. Boyer~


I woke up this morning to the soft pitter-patter of rain on the roof. It was so lovely. The crisp clean air caught my breath and the clouds enveloped the house like the protection of angel wings. There is so much about life that is hard but there is also so much about life that is a miracle and when I look at both I see the balance innate in nature. Then I strive to find the acceptance of that balance within myself. What is calling for you to spring into? What does your soul want to expand more of into your life? And how can that journey become a daily adventure into learning how to thrive while being alive?

~Suzanne Wagner~

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

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Numerology/Astrology for 4/27/16
4/27/16 is the number 4. The number 4 requests from you an exactitude and patience to claim that inner wisdom and self-control that brings your being to a place of high morals, conscientiousness and dependability that allows you to realize your potential and power. The number 4 asks you to use practical thinking to create order out of chaos. It asks you to find balance is duality and it asks you to undertake difficult or unpleasant tasks in order to stabilize your power and potential. With the Sun forming a quincunx with retrograde Mars, there can be some inner tension between your will and the expression or performance of that energy. There is a tendency to fly off the handle easily today so be especially aware of the intent of your actions. It's hard to find satisfaction or a sense of peace under these aspects. You may feel decidedly "out of sorts" and on the fence about key issues in your life and the direction that you must take. There can be some inner tension revolving around going after what you want, yet knowing how to approach it, is not clear. Tomorrow, Mercury is stationary and is preparing to go retrograde, so know that there can be some confused perceptions. The Moon is in earthy Capricorn all day. Its trine to Jupiter in Virgo is helpful, gently stimulating your ambition.
~Suzanne Wagner~

"I have watched as there are those whose mission and purpose is to cause harm to others. I have cried for those souls to awaken and see that love is the way. I have looked to the sky for the human potential to be stronger than egos. And I choose to believe that love will triumph over hatred.”
~Suzanne Wagner~


It is time that the world learns to live in harmony with each other. It is time that humanity steps beyond this self-righteousness and open their hearts to be willing to discover and explore the common ground that we all share. It is time for compassion to expand beyond the judgment, for mercy to win over fear, and for this earth to find a place of peace.

~Suzanne Wagner~

Monday, April 25, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 4/26/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 4/26/16
4/26/16 is the number 3. With the number 21/3 the feeling of luck and the positive aspects of life seem to be again flowing but things may not be what they seem. Lady Luck can and will shift on a dime so being cautiously optimistic is fine but leaping off the cliff and blindly following impulse is not the wisest idea today. Regardless, enjoy the ride because the happiness and joy is needed after such a rough week astrologically. This week in many ways is one of adjustments, particularly of your expectations from others and the unrealistic expectations you have on yourself. Tonight's Venus semi-square Neptune influence suggests a need to reorient yourself in terms of what you should expect from your relationships. Happiness is addictive under this influence. You tend to see what you want to see. Glossing over the more realistic points, details, and flaws of circumstances and of people provides a type of instant gratification. However, it's wise to hold off on making important purchases, or committing to a relationship until the veil lifts. Be a little more cautious than usual with commitments and agreements under this dreamy influence. The Moon continues its transit of Sagittarius until 7:55 PM EDT, when it enters Capricorn.
~Suzanne Wagner~

"I have my madness, I live in another dimension and I do not have time for things that have no soul."
~Charles Bukowski~


In life I try to put my total heart and soul into things. I think that is the way to live life fully. Why do things halfway? And yes, there are moments when you do not have everything energetically that you would wish and circumstances are not perfect for the dynamic expression that you had hoped but you still give everything that you have. My life has taught me that if you are going to do something you do it with a complete commitment and energetic expression. Yes, there are moments when you fall short of your own expectations but you put all you have in that moment into it regardless. Living life half way is no way to live. Live and be in a place where you choose in completely to what you have as your offering to others. Then even when it does not work the way you intended, you know that you have done all you could in that moment and that allows for a feeling of completion and satisfaction.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Sunday, April 24, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 4/25/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 4/25/16
4/25/16 is the number 20. With the number 20 it is time to acknowledge that within you is both good and evil. You must now make conscious choices to attain balance in your life. This is no longer a request but a necessity. Your aim is to find the wise use of time. When you are willing to do that you will be given greater spiritual dimension and a new depth to your perceptive qualities will emerge. Why would the universe give you more if you are not using what you have been given right now? You can get angry that you have to change or you can choose to change. You can make yourself sick so you don’t have to grow up or you can just allow yourself to grow and move upwards in your life. If you look at both of those you can see how much resistance you have in the anger and sickness and then can you see how much easier it just is to let go and do what is right in front of you. We waste so much time and energy in resisting what is just the natural course of all life. Everything in life is designed to adapt and change to the constantly changing environment. Use the swing of the duality of the number 2 and allow the magnification of the number 0 to propel you out of the old place and into something new and different. The Moon is in Sagittarius all day, stimulating your spontaneous and curious side. You will feel drawn to new situations of conquest or adventure. You will require less prompting than usual to get moving and to experience life. Bored with the mundane, anything that breaks the routine is appealing now. With the Moon squaring Jupiter and Neptune, and then aligning with Saturn, you may be wrestling with expectations you have held in the past. Let them go as they are not going to work out the way you expected. Overdoing or overstating something may be a symptom of the inner restlessness and your desire to attach more meaning to past situations in your life.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Being a good person does not mean you have had an easy life. It often means that you have had very difficult moments that broke your heart open and allowed you to see your priorities and how you are a part of this amazing world.
~Suzanne Wagner~


Why are we so afraid to claim our life? Why is it that when the universe presents us with the truth of our potential again and again, we fall back into the lie that we told ourself that does not allow us to grow? Why do you believe the negative voice in your head over the positive voices and reflections that surround you? And finally why do you continue to put the energy into maintaining a false self that makes you miserable anyway? Step into the center of the light within your essence that knows the way. Step out of the shadows of the distorted ego perceptions that you believe whether they are from others or yourself. Do not waste this precious life waiting. Life is open and ready for you to dive into. But it is you that must decide to leap past your limited ego and into the infinite possibilities that is your true self.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Saturday, April 23, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 4/24/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 4/24/16
4/24/16 is the number 10. Power comes in many forms. Power is not necessarily flashy nor does it need to be seen and acknowledged. Great power comes from a place of inner clarity of who you are, what is right, and what needs to be done in a moment. Great power has no need for others to see or acknowledge what they are doing because when you hold the keys to your own destiny you choose what is morally and responsible. You make choices that you can live with, without feeling guilt or shame. You make the tough choice rather than take the easy path. You do what is necessary in the moment to make a difference to the most people rather than to make your own ego happy. Today is a power day. What are you doing to do with it? The Moon continues its transit of Scorpio until 8:47 AM EDT, when it enters Sagittarius. With Venus in dynamic aspect to Mars today, there are potential tensions in relationships. Attempting to satisfy romantic needs and assertive/sexual needs simultaneously can be challenging. Be wary of making impulse purchases. There is an air of competitiveness under this influence, which need not be difficult. It can be stimulating and invigorating. With Venus, Jupiter, and Uranus parallel to one another today, the Venus-Mars aspect can create just enough tension to make some waves and motivation to do something with your creative, innovative ideas.
~Suzanne Wagner~

“My darling girl, when are you going to realize that being “normal” is not necessarily a virtue? It sometimes rather denotes a lack of courage.”
~Aunt Frances – Wild Women Sisterhood~


Courage shows up when you have to go against the established norm. Courage shows up when you follow your heart regardless of what you head tells you. “Normal” is just the present telepathic agreement field created by the masses as the baseline for acceptable behavior. It is the brave and the bold who show the world that there are other ways to do thing. It is the courageous who are willing to punch holes in the old reality and shape it in new and wondrous ways. Today, take a look inside to see what you are willing to step beyond. Look at the limitations that are in place in your life and decide if they are there because of the “accepted norm” or if they really work for you in all ways. If they do not, have the courage to push into a more authentic expression and possibility.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Friday, April 22, 2016

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Numerology/Astrology for 4/23/16
4/23/16 is the number 9. The number 9 begs you to ask the question, “What needs to be completely are resolved at this time? What task is holding you back from realizing your potential? What do you need to release to find freedom?” Your intuition is knocking at the door to your conscious self. It is showing you where you are wasting energy in a place and space in your life that does not serve you. It is time to take a step forward by not taking a constant step backwards into your past reactive self. You can do it. There is so much you have to offer when you close the door on the escape patterns from your past that separate you and make you feel alone. You do not need to be alone any more. There are those out there that have been waiting for you to awaken and step beyond your habits and programming into your authentic self. The Moon is in Scorpio all day, and you have the desire to get to dig deep within to get to the bottom of matters. All that is hidden, taboo, secret, or suppressed interests you at this time. You want to understand a deep truth that has been hidden in the basement of your awareness. Scorpio's energy is provocative, passionate, strong-willed, and intense. It can be an immensely healing and transformative energy. The Moon's opposition to Mercury this evening can lead to some misunderstandings but overall there is gracious and progressive energy as Venus, Jupiter, and Uranus move towards a parallel aspect. This is an innovative, positive, and fresh energy. You are open to new energies, approaches, and attitudes. Fortunate events occur as a direct result of your willingness to entertain the unusual and to think outside of the box. Enthusiasm runs high, the desire for freedom from restrictions is strong, and thirst for adventure is propelling you forward.
~Suzanne Wagner~

“Rebellion is when you look society in the face and say I understand who you want me to be but I’m going to show you who I actually am.”
~Anthony Anaxagorou~


Ralfee Finn’s Weekly Astrological Forecast.
This week, four planets—Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, and Pluto—are retrograde, soon to be joined by Mercury on April 28, forming a powerful aggregation of astral energy I like to call the Retro-Zone. Last week, foreshocks, aftershocks, quakes, and tremors escorted us into the Retro-Zone, presaging much of what to expect for the next several weeks and months as we adjust to the new pace of daily life. I am not predicting the world will continue to physically wobble during this period. I am forecasting that internal quakes—mental, emotional and spiritual, major as well as minor—are certain to disrupt regular routines. Lots of folks could find themselves in a reactive state, unable to break free from standard emergency measures. But the old ways don’t work as well as they have in the past and in some ways they don’t work at all. We’re in a new world that requires the bravery of innovative responses. So find a fluid stance that allows you to roll with the shifts as it simultaneously supports your capacity for growth.
Mars Retrograde began on Sunday April 17, as did Pluto Retrograde. (Two notes: 1. See last week’s column for a detailed description and interpretation of that dual retrograde. 2. For those new to astrology, the planets aren’t actually moving backwards; they just appear to be, relative to our orbital perspective.) As Mars and Pluto “retrace” their paths, we revisit our recent history. Although in Pluto’s case, it’s more like revisiting ancient history repackaged as something new. With Pluto you always have to look beneath the particular circumstances to find the underlying theme or themes presenting themselves through a new set of circumstances. This is one way of understanding why “the same old same old” is such a common lament under Pluto’s influence. Pluto is unrelenting in stripping away what’s superfluous to reveal what’s causal. So as you review, pay attention to what you cling to as a “must be” and then question why you are holding on so tightly.
As Mars reviews its recent path, we reexamine where we have felt its influence. Mars represents themes of self-assertion, from the lowest forms of anger and global rage to the highest forms of self-actualization—and everything in between. Competition, ambition, and tests of strength and courage in all areas of life are part of Mars’ domain. Mars is retrograde until June 29, and during the next nearly three months, its retro glance reaches back to January 2016, which means we’re looking at what we’ve been working on since that time. Use this retrospective wisely by being open to the possibility that it isn’t always necessary to push to make something work right. One of the secrets of a Mars Retrograde success story is allowing whatever your interested in to unfold at its own pace.
Mercury Retrograde begins in eight days, which means there are only five good days (remember the Mercury Retrograde Three-Day Rule) to backup your files and documents. For those new to Mercury Retrograde: All things related to communication and travel tends to unravel during this phase. For seasoned Mercury Retrograders: Don’t be too blasé; this Mercury Retrograde is certain to be a tough one.
The good news is a Venus/Uranus conjunction, in Aries, an innovative planetary coupling that’s sure to stir more than a few urges. Don’t be surprised if you feel like taking a risk on love or if you notice someone is in hot pursuit of you. Just be aware, Venus/Uranus combinations are notorious for an exciting start that dampens quickly once the initial contact is past. My Venus/Uranus motto: Have fun, but don’t expect it to last forever.

Today and tomorrow are probably the toughest days of the week. The Moon, in Libra, squares Pluto as it simultaneously opposes that Venus/Uranus conjunction. This entire bundle indicates the potential for sudden, volatile flare-ups fueled by fanaticism that just won’t take no for an answer. This turbulent, tempestuous atmosphere is likely to set nervous systems on edge, so make a special effort to be calm and centered. And if possible, do your best to help others find the same reserve. Surely compassion and kindness are the most important components of any emergency survival kit.
~Ralfee Finn~

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Numerology/Astrology for 4/22/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 4/22/16
4/22/16 is the number 8. The number 8 is perfect for the building energy as we come into this Full Moon in Scorpio. It brings you into a reflective space where you see and feel where the patterns of the past are still locked up and where they now need to move. Past stuck energy is rolling in a deeply felt powerful and emotional way and once the mouth opens it will be difficult to shut it back down again. Perhaps that is perfect. Perhaps it is time to let out all that frustration and stress. After all emotions are meant to move and with all these patterns combining there is definitely going to be movement. The Moon is in Scorpio all day, and reaches Full early in the day, at 1:25 AM EDT. The Full Moon is a time of reaching up to grab what has been in the creation mode for some time. This one in Scorpio indicates an emotional time--a time of romance, fertilization, and relationships. This Full Moon brings about emotional declarations. Something has been building inside of you, likely of an intimate nature, and now is the time when the energy of the cosmos fairly demands that comes out into the full reality for others to see. Over the next two weeks, you will discover what this declaration will mean for you in your life. For now, you can't sit on your feelings. You need to express them. The Full Moon illuminates the conflict between collecting the vision and learning to share that vision. Full Moons are about exposing or illuminating issues that have been sitting there below the surface but that have not yet been dealt with. While Taurus deals with matter, personal values, material goods, possessions, and security, Scorpio rules the destruction of form, shared possessions, change, and transformation. The Sun in Taurus wants you to be happy with the simple, tangible things in life, while the Scorpio Moon draws your attention to complexities, intangibles, and mysteries. Neglecting either end of the axis will surely backfire. Ideally, a balance should be found between the two energies and this is what the Full Moon invites you to do. Venus aligns with Uranus today, and you have a real taste for the unusual and the avant-garde. You are itching for a change. Excitement and newness are valued over permanence. You lose your fears of taking risks in love and social situations. Themes include infatuations, whims, gossip, and unanticipated opportunities socially or financially. You have a greater need for self-expression, personal freedom, and social excitement.
~Suzanne Wagner~

“The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.”
~Pablo Picasso~


There is no luck. It is about being prepared for the steps that allow you to move into your future self. 

~Suzanne Wagner~

Oprah’s 10 Rules for Success
1. Understand the next right move from a place of stillness and feeling.
2. Seize your opportunity.
3. Everyone makes mistakes.
4. Work on yourself.
5. Run the race as hard as you can.
6. Believe.
7. We are all seeking the same thing.
8. Find your purpose.
9. Stay grounded.
10. Relax, its going to be okay.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016



Osho Zen Tarot: Transformation, Maturity, The Rebel
Medicine Cards: Turtle, Crow
Mayan Oracle:
Cib, Rhythm, New Myth
Ancient Egyptian Tarot: Prince of Cups, Three of Swords, Temperance
Aleister Crowley Deck: Knight of Swords, The Fool, Wealth
Healing Earth Tarot: Seven of Feathers, Three of Shields, Woman of Shields
Words of Truth: Words of Truth, Peace, Self Love

May is a month of change. Each of us is being called to step into a more mature place in our life where we take responsibility for our choices and actions. None of us can afford any longer to be caught up in a knee jerk reaction to external situations. It is time to observe, calculate, and make choices that are clear and concise for what we intend to create in the future.

Yes, there is shadow everywhere and that shadow is pecking at us to wake us out of our slumber and into a place of responsible action. There is a calling in the astrology and cards for us to look for the truth and to speak the truth from a place of peace and respect for others and all of life.

How do we find that inner rebel that is willing to break out of the chains of our old conditioning and move from a place of power, wisdom, and action? How do we temper our sadness with justice and become centered in a reality where we can all work together?

The answer is to find the rhythm that is under the surface of the chaos and upset. There is a place where when you are not caught in the tumultuousness of life that you can find the organic space and time to flow with the new trends and consciousness that is attempting to evolve you past the places of upset and into the possibility of new solutions. Those solutions are there once you choose to let go of the patterns of the past that you cling to as a life raft of familiarity.

But safety is never real and believing that you are safe if you go backwards is a potentially harmful illusion. We are in a place where we need new ideas and new solutions to the situations that are coming to a critical mass point in the world. So many of them are piling up that there is a feeling of helplessness and despondency. It seems that there is too much so there cannot be solutions that will work. But that is a lie that the mind and ego tells you to make you fall into despair and hopelessness. And yes, the solution is not one that you can recognize when you look through the eyes of the past.
It is only with the eyes of the future that you can see beyond the old world’s limitations and come up with balanced and honest new ways that will have to be worked at and ironed out to find solutions to problems that our world has not witnessed or experienced up to this point.

Fearful minds fall into patterns of the past. Calm minds seek answers while sitting in the silence and solitude of non-dual consciousness. Patterns created from fear and from that past only recreate history that we were supposed to learn something from so that we will do something different in the future. Humanity is notorious for going back again and again, and doing what did not work then yet somehow they think it will work now. Our memory is limited in registering the suffering of our ancestors. It is our job now to remember the past in an honest fashion and believe in the tools and fresh eyes of a new generation who want to take us beyond the known and into the potential that is human existence if we can just get beyond our judgment, fear, and need to be right and superior to others. Together we can find the doorways. More and more our world is becoming a global system rather than individual countries. It is time to take that to a new level by finding the pathways to peace and prosperity together.

~Suzanne Wagner~

Astrological Update and Personal Note

Personal Note From Suzanne

Well with everything going retrograde know that shit is going to fly for quite a few people. Tension is high and there are moments when you will just want to lose it and scream. Now I know that in reality that is not the best idea but the tendency is strong, so even if you control your temper know that not everyone else is going to be able to do that the same as you. 

So much is retrograde. Pluto is retrograde till 26th of Sept in the serious sign of Capricorn. So when Pluto goes retrograde, it forces you to focus on your own personal shadow sides -- specifically, the unpleasant parts of your personalities that you may not really like. Two big themes that Pluto likes to highlight are power and desire. With Pluto retrograde, you will have to get honest with yourself about how much you are motivated by a need for recognition, money and authority and choices and decisions about how you are going to progress forward with your life is up in a big way. You have to look at what really is motivating you, money or helping others. I personally choose the latter. 

At the same time, Pluto Retrograde will make you confront the darker sides of what you want; for example, are you working hard to get in shape because you are truly concerned about your health, or are you spurred by a desire for revenge on an ex who didn't appreciate you?

With Pluto retrograde for five months, this period of personal reckoning allows you to do a lot of purging, too. Once you see traits in yourself that you dislike, you can work to improve them. You can also revisit old hurts and hang-ups as Pluto sheds light on the darker corners of your experiences. In this way you get to grow, which highlights Pluto's key role in your life: transformation.

Saturn is retrograde till the 13th of August in Sagittarius forcing us to address what we believe and what we are willing to work towards. The old reality is being broken down by the Neptune in Pisces so there is a lot of water (emotion) melting away the structures of your life that have gotten you to this point. It is time for some new structures and that means that you are going to have to rebuild just as if a hurricane tore down your old house. Everything is going to feel like a mess and you are going to have let it all go and rebuild from the ground floor up. And whatever you do, create something very different. Let the past be the past and build a new dream rather that recreate your old world. 

Neptune is retrograde from the 13th of June until the November 20th. When Neptune turns retrograde, your feelings are more astute at picking up and perceiving the illusive. It is easier to ascertain information about issues that have eluded you while Neptune was direct. It is essential that you do something about the problems that you picked up on while Neptune is retrograde because they can worsen when Neptune goes direct. I personally have noticed that, if you do not work on an internal level while Neptune is retrograde, you will be plagued by feelings of disillusion and vague dissatisfaction.

As one's perceptions become more acute, it is important to listen more and listen to the "inner voice," so that you can see more of what is going on around you. It is essential that you talk about what you are feeling, sensing or absorbing because Neptune retrograde can produce a type of psychic overload for very sensitive people. Heightened sensitivity can be both an asset and a liability.

It is important that you avoid drugs, chemicals and stimulants while Neptune is retrograde. Protect yourself by refraining from associating with addictive personalities, psychic attractions, and overwhelming people who drain your energies. Wearing black tourmaline can funnel off negative energy and psychic attack. If you feel a little paranoid during the retrograde period, it may be that you are picking up too much from your external environment.

Uranus is retrograde from the 28th of July till the 29th of December. Uranus tends to be more potent and more Uranian when retrograde. When Uranus is direct in the natal chart, intuitive and inventive impulses flow on a regular basis but, when it is retrograde, this energy builds to a certain level and then it explodes forth as some big experience.
In this building-up process, Uranus tends to be more potent and more willfully dogmatic. Uranus' retrograde motion tends to stimulate deep psychological investigation and analysis. Its research, however, seeks answers that satisfies the mind and explains "Why?". Expect people to make mountains out of molehills in their quest to know WHY!

Obviously, this is an excellent time for mental studies that explore human behavior and psychology. It favors activities that require bursts of inventive and intuitive energy. It favors psychological counseling connected with freedom urges and disconnected patterns of relating.

Mercury is retrograde from April 28-May 22, causing more mass communication challenges and the feeling that your voice is not being heard. Expect problems and challenges with the computers and remember to back up your systems.

And finally Mars is retrograde from April 17th to June 29th. This creates a drag in the energy and a feeling of a stalling effect in your world. Mars is the planet of energy, gumption and drive, so expect all of that to be a bit out of whack. Try to not create deadlines that you probably cannot keep. 

Remember to take care of yourself. It is going to be a long and busy spring/summer.

Numerology/Astrology for 4/21/16 - Plus Personal Blog

Numerology/Astrology for 4/21/16
4/21/16 is the number 7. The number 7 reminds you that you are always connected to the collective consciousness. There is a deep desire to connect to your spiritual awareness, inner wisdom and psychic abilities. Thoughtfulness is the word of the day and it is a wonderful moment to do some sort of ritual to find the places of inner strength, peace, and individualism. It might be time to learn some technical skills and discover the mental clarity of discernment, determination, and knowledge. The Moon is in Libra much of the day, until 8:19 PM EDT, and there is continued focus on bringing more harmony to your life. One-to-one relationships are the focus. Negotiations and the coming to agreements may take center stage. The Moon enters Scorpio at 8:19 PM, and you are less interested in finding the middle road and more interested in discovering deeper truths. The Moon is heading towards Full, with a Full Moon in Scorpio occurring shortly into the day tomorrow. Emotions tend to heighten and new insights or discoveries are likely, particularly in your relationships. Pay attention to your money and the matters of power and attachment.
~Suzanne Wagner~

What you see for yourself, what you say to yourself, how you feel about yourself, and what actions you do for yourself will determine your destiny.
~John DeMartini~


One of the great things that I learned early was about taking care of myself with consistent massage, acupuncture, yoga, exercise, herbs, and vitamins. I am always amazed when people say that they do not feel well but they do not do things to take care of themselves. In our busy lives everyone needs moments to relax, heal, regenerate, and find peace. I found if left to my own devices I would keep running around like a chicken with her head cut off but when I went to get a massage, I stopped. When I went to the acupuncturist, I stopped. And it did not take a long time of stopping to get the benefit from it. Calculated pauses were just enough to give the body what it needed to recharge and find its center again. Eating properly was again, a problem in our busy world so I learned that supplements and vitamins really helped when you were in a rush. I learned this early from a wonderful endocrinologist when I was about 22 in Utah. I had just moved to Utah from Berlin and that was a long story of stress that I will not go into here, but suffice it to say that I walked into another stress pattern in Utah and my health had been compromised from the last year of working in Berlin so I was not 100% which is never what you want to feel when you walk into a new job and a new company. I just did not feel great so I went to the doctor. After running a lot of tests he said to me, “Everything on your blood work looks good so why don’t you tell me what is going on?” Up until that moment I did not know that anything was wrong. But when he said it that way, I burst into tears and spilled out all the stress that had happened in the last year to get to Utah. He kindly said to me, “You are suffering from stress!” I looked at him and said, “I can’t possibly be suffering from stress I am only 22 years old!” At which point he laughed and said that stress had nothing to do with age. And he was right. I was a total stress case and I was stretched to the limit inside and outside. It was in that moment that I realized that I had to let things go and recognize that I needed to really give my body what it needed to stay flexible under these circumstances. Life will always throw more at you, how you respond to it is what you need to learn as a pattern of grace and ease.
~Suzanne Wagner~