Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Holding earth, holding spirit, freeing the light

What if you let go of every bit of control and every urge that you have, right down to the most infinitesimal urge to control anything, anywhere, including anything that may be happening with you at this moment? If you were able to give up control absolutely, totally, and completely, then you would be a spiritually free being.

This Moment Now
Freeing the spirit encaged in matter. Freeing the light that pierces the darkness.
Discover the patterns that ensnare your mind. Unwinding the thoughts that trap you in misery.
What is this thing that you cherish so much, this control? Why does it linger when freedom beacons you to become one with your eternal self?
Suspend the past. Let it die and fall into the well of experience where it can ferment into the sweet wine of wisdom.
Walk past the tempters of the future who entice you off the present moment with illusions of irrelevance.
Right now, you can be free. Right now, you are complete. Right now, there is nothing but endless love for you. Take the outstretched hand of the present and let it lift you higher than any memory or longing.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Shania Twain – From this Moment

Holding Hands you others and the Divine


The spaces between your fingers were created so that another’s could fill them in.
~Perceptive Artista~

Our bodies are designed to hold each other. Our hands are designed to touch and give comfort. The spaces between us are designed to remind us that even though we might not see ourselves as connected to others we feel that connection regardless. Something invisible pulls us together or repels us apart. In reality there is no space there is only varieties of density of energy. Bodies have a density and give off energy. Air seems thinner but it also has a density and holds and transmits energy. Nature abhors a void. Nature/life will fill in every crook and cranny it can find, even in some of the most inhospitable places. Let your love fill in the places where you feel lost. Let love fill in the emptiness. Let love pull you towards another. Let love inspire you forward.
~Suzanne Wagner~


Blog for 4/23/14 Quote, Numerology for the Day, Personal Blog

Numerology for 4/23/14
Today is the number 7 and this number is all about boundaries. Since everyone did such a great job taking a look at the color of their energy through their inner eye yesterday, now we are going to try to enhance that energy and color. Because the number 7 is all about finding ways to strengthening you aura so it can protect you from misfortunes and assist in the integration of your mental, physical, and spiritual bodies. Your aura is connected to the electromagnetic field that surrounds all life. It is also similar to the atmosphere that surrounds our world in an envelope of protection. When that atmosphere combines with the electromagnetic field and then together they integrate with gravity, dangerous solar waves, space debris, and meteors just bounce off these 3 layers of protection. You have the same system within your body. Your aura (mental body) can connect to your physical energy, and then the two of them can connect to your spiritual body and when those work in sync, you are shielded and protected from a lot of chaotic energy that is constantly surrounding you. But if you think that your spiritual body is supposed to be perfect and do all the work and you do not acknowledge the physical body then that disconnect creates breaks in your energy field and you feel hit by negative patterns. Same is true is you believe that your mental body is the best and brightest and you put all your faith in your mind, your thinking, your powers of observation, etc, then you may not believe that your spirit could protect you in a crisis. Which is can and will gladly do when necessary. Each layer of energy has its positives and ways that it moves organically. It is critical to learn ways to honor all, pay attention and value each, notice what they need, and become consistent in the weaving of these energies. Then you will feel as if you could weather a storm and not feel disconnected to the moment. If you are spacing out in stressful moments it is simply an indicator that you have holes in your auric web and it is time to find how to reconnect and empower your energy bodies to do what they naturally know how to do. We will discuss this more in the blog today.
Suzanne Wagner~

If you come to a place of total helplessness, total powerlessness, don't resist, just observe... You might find something that up until then you have been missing.
~ Mooji~

Mooji’s quote is wonderful because it offers up the constant solution to situations that seem beyond your control. Accept the feeling in the moment. Recognize that it is just a moment. Allow no resistance to the situation and calmly observe what is happening. When you react to things you are giving your energy away to others and you are fracturing your aura. Fear makes your energy body spike and leap. But that creates little holes or big holes depending on how much you allow a pattern to continue.

What can you do to support the 3 energy bodies to weave and merge into a solid protection and yet make it permeable so that love can also enter? First you have to learn to listen to your body and what it needs moment by moment. Sometimes that is exercise, sometimes that is supplements, sometimes it is homeopathics, etc. There are so many ways that the body needs your awareness and support to be able to keep you grounded and stable in the world. If you cannot learn how to take care of your needs you cannot have substance in the real world. Without substance others will not pay much attention to you. Your life force will not seem strong enough to make them respect you. Next you need to learn how much your mind controls your reality. Perception is everything and minds can be trained. You have trained your right now to notice and respond to certain situations. Do you like how you have trained your mind? If not you have to learn communication skills with yourself to inspire and motivate you into a new place. Finally we come to your spiritual body. Without hope and faith in something beyond your limited experience of reality, you will wither and die. Knowing that you are part of a greater whole is deeply gratifying and soulfully peaceful. Feeling into your spirit and what your highest self feels compelled to do will give you a map for your life. If you do not know your gifts or that you make a difference in the world, life will feel hard and full of suffering. Take care of this magical weaving that you are. Allow yourself to discover how when you connect and honor the three bodies that you are more protected, stronger, and more able to withstand intense moments with grace.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Sunday, April 13, 2014


Lets talk about the Astrology for April again. I know that in my Intuitive Patterns for the month of April I touched on this energy surrounding everyone as we come into an exact square between Uranus, Pluto, Jupiter, and Mars. This month is a month of breakthrough or breakdown. There is no way you are not noticing the intensity from others and how the volatility index has reached a record high in it’s aggressive tendencies.

I felt the need to talk about it again because the last two weeks of April will be the most intense. You will be on a global white-knuckle cosmic roller coaster ride, so get ready!

When you get 4 big planets in the 4 Cardinal signs (Aries, Libra, Cancer, and Capricorn), and they all come into the same degree in the sky, let’s just say it will create clashes that create turning points in your life. It could feel like there is one crisis after another and you will have to make instant decisions in the most sensitive areas of your life. So, try to ride the waves and make the most constructive decisions you can. Remember the intent with this energy is to learn to streamline and be able to relate to others in a more authentic way.

I want to break the drama down to some bullet points

April 15th. Total lunar eclipse with the Sun in Aries and the Moon will be in Libra. A full moon always brings illumination and in this case it will bring insights into relationships (Libra) as well as, your drive and identity (Aries). You will be releasing something that is from your past and you might notice changes in your memory but this is designed to break you into a new beginning.

April 20th. Jupiter in Cancer forms an exact square. This will create a type of inner tension and turmoil that will force us to make a turning point in our life. The game will be to balance our need to feel safe (Cancer) with our need to pioneer into the unknown (Aries).

Because Pluto is going to sit exactly opposite Cancer this can also create conflicts in our work and business environments also.

April 21st. Uranus in Aries squares off with Pluto in Capricorn. This configuration will bring up the question, “How do I express my own individuality and identity in a soul centers way that benefits all?”
April 22nd. Mars in Libra squares with Jupiter in Cancer. Now the question becomes, “How can I preserve my strength and identity and balance my own personal needs with the importance of nurturing others as well?”

April 23rd.  Mars in Libra opposite Uranus in Aries. How can we balance the need for diplomatic actions, justice and create fair dealings with ourselves and others with the need to express our personal genius in an individual way?

And Mars in Libra squaring Pluto in Capricorn. What change or what end do I need in relationships or regarding choices in institutions, countries, or businesses? And how can I do this in the most beautiful way?

April 29th. Solar eclipse in Taurus. This will bring you a new beginning and it is best to look at ways to create comfort, abundance, and money.

Clear your calendar as much as possible so you can adjust to ongoing changes and volatile energies. Be prepared for plans to go awry and for anything in your life that has outlived its usefulness to fail in some way or go off the rails so you can release it and move on.

Avoid launching anything new. We're all in a major phase of breakdown and transformation, so this time is best used to flow with such energies to clear out our lives (and our homes, closets, desks, and other areas) so we're ready for the new in May.

Be alert to other people's energies and challenges. Given the nature of this month's energies and the relentless pressures they will bring, many people will feel stress and may respond poorly or inappropriately at times. Withdraw when necessary but also carry a spirit of tolerance and unconditional love for all your fellow humans and other creatures. As much as possible, take good care of yourself with extra rest, reduced demands (especially socially), and especially nourishing meals on a regular schedule.


There are moments when you feel as if you are in a barren desolate wasteland in search of water and safety. You want to collapse and stop but you know that to do that would be a terrible idea. The month of May will feel like this.
You are shifting and everything is in disarray from the wild ride of the end of April and the Grand Cardinal Cross with the eclipses. You want to find what is home and safety to you but it feels far away. April put you through a type of metaphorical death. To keep going when you want to stop seems pointless but you are not dead yet and some part of you keeps saying, “Keep going!” So that is what you are going to do. All you can seem to manage is to navigate this moment; then the next and then the next. There is a deep desire to try to make sense out of the changes, the incompletions in your life, and the deep feelings that are surfacing. You feel as if there is a wolf at the door and if you make one wrong move… your journey will prove pointless.
I wish that we could transform without being challenged. I wish life would stay nice and consistent. And yet we know that life does not work that way. May is a month of constant adjustments and continued blockages. There is nothing to do but deal with what is right in front of you.
Projections from others abound because you are not the only one feeling the pinch. Each of us will feel as if we are facing an insurmountable challenge and upon reflection we may just think that we have “missed the boat”.
Do not worry. Sometimes we make choices and the outcome is not what we intended. In life the only game is to take risks and change. Sometimes those changes were to get you out of restrictive circumstances. The universe will offer a temptation to get you to move but often in the end you do not get the “goodie” that you thought you were going for.
Remember the song, Me and Bobbie McG, by Janis Joplin. In it was the refrain, “Freedom, just another word for, nothing left to loose.” In May we want freedom. We want to find a place of balance where we can just be ourself. But family, work, children, drama, upsets, world issues, global crises, money, etc. just keep getting in the way.

You might feel right now like you want to say, “To Heck with it all.” But you know that does not work either. If you did, in the end you would resent yourself and that would be worse. In this moment you have to look at the wounding that is up from your life. It is time to stop chasing some utopian feeling and stand your ground, take responsibility, deal with the situation, and learn some new ways to cope emotionally.

I know this is easier said than done but you can feel how this “thing” is bugging you. Turn around, face the fear, find another answer, grow up and discover something about yourself. There is no reason to not try. It feels strained enough right now. A new option might be very refreshing. After all, you have nothing left to loose after the intensity of the last two weeks of April.

Monday, April 07, 2014

Blog for 4/8/14 - Quote, Numerology, Personal Note

Numerology for 4/8/14
Today is the number 10. Choose a direction and take action. The energy is there for a shift if you are willing to jump. I know the last few weeks have been enough to try the most stout and determined of souls but today is a day where progress can be made if you are courageous enough to let go of the hurt and admit that those choices might not have been the best. You do not have to live with misery. You might need to make a command decision and leap again. I know you are tired but staying in a bad choice just because you spent money and you are now there is not a good enough reason. Happiness can be fleeting. When you find it, hold on to that feeling. Right now you are not happy. Your reasoning seemed sound and that last choice was about attempting to complete karma. You had your heart into it and your intent was wonderful. Yet, we cannot make others shift and open, we can only find what opens us to be happy in the small and simple ways that are fulfilling. You are not going to get the outcome you want. Now you know. So let’s go. It is time to move on to the next situation and journey.
~Suzanne Wagner~

“There are beautiful wild forces within us. Let them turn the mills inside and fill sacks that feed even heaven.”
–St. Francis of Assisi from "Love Poems from God: Twelve Sacred Voices from the East and West," edited by Daniel Ladinsky (Penguin Group, New York, 2002)~


It is our wildness that is the fuel for the future. It is our wildness that roars us into awakening. It is our wildness that challenges the status quo of our life and says, “No, more!” It is the part of ourself that does not accept limitation or the word “impossible”. You have a choice in each moment to be a sheep and stay in groups for safety or you can become the wolf who makes her own trail and pathway in life. In the 1980’s there was the great book, “The Women Who Run With The Wolves”. The title struck a cord in so many women because in each woman is a wild thing that wants to run. We are torn between our motherly domestic side and the wild and untamed parts of ourself that want to find our own way in the jungle of life. There is a calling right now, that calling is for the women to tap back into that wild part and listen to the wisdom that it carries. Are you willing to hear the raw feedback from your own primal wild parts? They carry tremendous gifts of energy, fortitude, power, and awareness. Close your eyes, and say hello to one of the wild parts that decide to show themselves to you. Then learn the art of patience and listening. Follow the words that inspire your passion. Let that passion dance at the edge of your lips. Let that passion flicker out your eyes and into the world. Then life will become more alive and you will feel more congruent.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Sunday, April 06, 2014


Ladies, come join us for an adventurous weekend of sharing, movement, intuition, expansion, transformation, and fun.

In this weekend event we will be giving workshops on how to:
* Step into your Divine Feminine.
* Connect to your Passion through Dance.
* Connect to your Angels.
* Activate your Inner Healer.
* Establish Healthy Beliefs and Release Negative Emotions.
* Connect to Source - Activating the Body of Light.
* Healthy Embodiment of the Dark Goddess.
* Numerology Made Simple
* Women's Group Discussion Panel.
* Zumba, Yoga, Body Balancing Consultations.
* Redefining Relationships
* Past Life Regression
* Early Bird Special $150. Regular Price $200.

Get Tickets at Eventbrite  

Walden School of Liberal Arts 4230 N. University Ave, Provo, UT 84604

Dates are: May 31-June 1, 2014
Times: 10 am to 6 pm both days

Speakers: Deanne Ashton, Jackie Brinker- hoff, Kysta Brinkley, Crystal Doty, Heather Gardner, Jayme Giordano, Pam Robinson, Holly Semanoff, LaNae Staker, Jennifer Stanchfield, and Suzanne Wagner.

For More Information call:
Jackie Brinkerhoff at (801) 318-4500
Tonya Neilson (801) 330-3301
Suzanne Wagner  (707) 354-1019

For More Information: Click Here

Register before May 1, 2014 and get $50 off the regular price of $200 for the weekend. This is an amazing deal to get an entire weekend event with such variety and choice for only $150. You will be able to select the events that are of most interest to you. So register now and join us for the First BiAnnual Wild Women Symposium!

Friday, April 04, 2014

Some Women are not meant to be Tamed


(Some) women aren't meant to be tamed..
They just need to run Free until they find someone just as Wild to run with them..
~Candace Bushnell~

I was clearly not designed to be tamed. I am sure there are many other women out there that feel the same. I love to resist. I love to wrestle either verbally, mentally, or physically. I love to be unpredictable. I love to tease and taunt. Banter is bliss and I am willfully wild. If you want me you I believed that you had to prove your worth. Where that is wonderful is that it makes men and those that love you step up if you do it in the right way. You do not want to put others down. You want to support them in stretching out of their box. Never let another completely possess you. Only you should choose who and how your gifts are given to others. Just because someone can see your light does not mean they know how to handle it. That is why you have to be in the drivers seat in each moment to decide how much of your essence anyone can handle effectively. If you give them too much you can overwhelm them and that might shut them down. Which is not fair and not fun. You are not stepping into you power to frighten others but to open them to the infinite possibilities that they are. But you will be amazed at when you open and show that there is permission to be wild in a safe, fun, and constructive way how fast others will want to follow. Your congruent wildness is the permission that others are seeking to express their deepest and wild self. Show them the possibilities, open the doorway, and let them find their unique wild expression.
~Suzanne Wagner~

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Numerology and Blog for 4/5/14

Numerology for 4/5/14
Today is the number 7. Today feel into the vastness of spirit. The number 7 is the number of mystics, poets, and those intuitives that love to use maps and patterns to understand the unknowable. When you are in the flow with the number 7 you will feel as if life is moving according to the plan that you have set for yourself. You will feel steady, dignified and in alignment with the natural order of things. But when you move the energy against the 7 you will feel skeptical, torn between your right and left-brain, stubborn, and cynical. The energy astrologically at the moment is quite intense and April will prove to be one of those months that we will want to grasp at straws or any plans that might explain the insanity. Try to let this day and the number 7 make you look at life in a more philosophical way. Let today strengthen your resolve and allow you to look deeper within for the answers you seek. Choose to be less critical and less of a perfectionist. Many are struggling right now, not just you. Practice looking at the maps and patterns of others and perhaps that will take you out of your own drama for a minute. Let your issues go and peer into the feelings of others. You might just find an answer for yourself when you let go of endlessly trying to understand. Even the most brilliant mind needs to escape and take a break. Step out of your reality and when you decide to serve another you will be amazed at what you might find for yourself.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Giving up hope is encouragement to stick with ourselves, to return to the bare bones no matter what’s going on. If we totally experience hopelessness, then we give up all alternatives to the present moment, and we can have a joyful, honest, direct relationship with our lives.
~Pema Chodron~


I love how Pema’s mind works. She never ceases to make me look deeper than my previous understanding. There is a place where giving up hope transforms into a place of acceptance and surrender. When you stop looking for others in your life to give you what you want and when life itself is disappointing and not bringing what you believe is promised you, then you have to drop into a much deeper understanding of self. Hopelessness has given me some of the greatest moments in my life. Striving stops, fear ends, trying to prove something suddenly seems pointless, and you fall deep into the now. It is very powerful when everything else slips away and all that remains is this moment. There is a refreshing honesty in that place. There is you and only you. Everything becomes an illusion of your own mind and you recognize that you have become addicted to your own character that you are playing in your own movie. In that moment you can step out of the movie and become whole.
~Suzanne Wagner~

Blog for Wild Women Light 4/5/14

"The soul always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind."
~Caroline Myss~

In my twenties, I was being a ballet dancer and I was deep into my meditation and spiritual practice. I was determined to quiet the mind and find the pathway to enlightenment. At that young age it seemed so simple and uncomplicated to do that. I have to laugh at my naiveté now. But I was managing to learn some mental discipline and control over thoughts. One meditation I asked the angels, “If I could do one simple thing to help me awaken, what would that be?” They answered, “Eat one apple each morning.”
I thought that sounded crazy. Why would an angel tell me such a ridiculous thing? I must have been making it up and I was not as clear as I thought.
It was only many years later that I discovered that apples, clean out your intestines, balance your blood sugar, stabilize hypoglycemia, and clean out a lot of body systems. All of which I needed the whole time. It is sometimes the simple things that we reject. If an angel was trying to help and was trying so hard to keep it simple and uncomplicated, I have to congratulate my angel in doing a fabulous job. But my mind wanted it to be more complicated. Minds love to complicate things. Reality is often much more simple. As you get older you need less and less. Not because of anything but the realization that most acquiring is all about ego. When it gets down to the basics we do not need much to live and be happy. Commercials and advertising feed into that ego place of having power through things. But true power comes from knowing when to keep it simple, to not over think things, and to find happiness in all moments.
~Suzanne Wagner~

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