Being Your Natural Rather Than Normal Self

I just finished working on the Catalyst article for May 2009 and I was relieved to see that there will be a break from all the stress that has been happening for the past many months. I do the articles well in advance because of publishing deadlines as I am often traveling between here and California for my work.

I will publish that article as we get closer to the month of May.

I know for myself that I am feeling somewhat more relaxed regardless of external circumstances in the world. This is a time of intense transformation for myself and others. I am so psychically connected to the pulse of the planet that each convulsion that is globally happening, I also feel within. These external patterns mirror the inner planes that I am tracking and attempting to grow.

Now I think that this happens for everyone, not just me. But as a psychic I feel that I attempt to be more consciously aware of those patterns and trends that affect us all. I try to put words to the energetic shifts that I feel and sometimes I feel as if I do that fairly well and sometimes it seems difficult to put into words the complex patterns that I experience.

I notice that each psychic, mystic, or healer is often attuned to a particular frequency and that is what they tend to notice or translate. I think sometimes it would be impossible to do all the different patterns and frequencies at once, as that would be more vast than anyone could cope with energetically. But I do believe that we experience those energies in either fleeting moments of emotion or as a more complex pattern that we are focusing on and attempting to unwind.

We are all one really. We are not separate. The more we become conscious and interconnected globally, the more we are going to notice that truth.

I can feel the aspect of my deepest self coming closer to the surface of my reality. It feels as if the part of me that is Suzanne (the psychic) is being driven and instructed by my deepest self. And that the connection between them is beginning to flip. That means that my core essence is now jumping into the lead of my awareness. I notice that I begin to say things to clients that my "Suzanne" brain says, "Wow, that is amazing. I hope we can remember that later." (Which I am never capable of remembering later.) But it does not matter because my higher self is totally not attached to being anything but in the moment.

That is actually a great relief. I am discovering that my feminine side is learning how to just be true to what is in the moment. I recognize that feeling is always perfect and I am also willing to let it go in such a way that the next moment can also be totally fresh and spontaneous.

One of the things that I feel compelled to do is to open the feminine energy back up on the planet. I find in my work that I want to help women to accept their beauty and light in such a way that they remember and begin to return to the natural place of feminine light and love.

That is one of the reasons I am so excited about this latest Relationships workshop on April 18-19th. I feel relationships are critical for the evolution of this planet. Learning how to love and understand the differences and similarities between us is a crucial step in learning how to understand and accept each other culturally.

As we have entered into the Aquarian Age, this signifies that the feminine energy is attempting to come back into appropriate balance with the masculine on this planet. One is not better than the other. They are all essential to the continuation of life and consciousness on this planet.

But feminine energy is constant change. That makes it difficult for everyone to deal with. But this planet is feminine by nature. It is always in a state of constant change. I know we want to be able to corral the chaos of life with our masculine sides and for brief moments we seem to be able to do that. But the earth itself is more powerful than any of our small individual minds and egos. It is humbling when you recognize that and learn to allow the flow of life to teach you what you need to know in the appropriate time.

Something so much vaster than you is directing you and your life. You may not be noticing that but with a slight shift in awareness you could begin to see that your higher self is perfectly aware of how much you can move or not move in this moment. Know that you higher self is always with you. Know that you can begin to let go of your personality and ego and find the organic way that you could be living your life with less effort and strain. You could become completely content to be in the present moment and live as consciously awake as your personality can handle moment-by-moment.

Learning to give your greatest gift

Well, the stock market is up but I would not count my chickens before they are hatched. The news came out with the fact that they think the recession will be over by the end of the year but astrologically from the fall of 09 through the fall of 10 is actually the low point.

Now anyone who knows me, knows that I am the eternal optimist. But this astrological pattern has not been in our realm of influence for about 80 years. I am a person who likes to observe patterns of behavior and consciousness. We are all human and all of us can get lulled into patterns of complacency that must energetically be unwound. This is one of those moments.

I personally think that Obama is going to make some wonderful shifts but those huge changes will take a couple of years to implement. I know we live in a society that is used to getting everything we want right now. But major shifts of culture, money, economy, and personal patterns of spending money, take time to adjust. I do not think it has to be gloom and doom unless you decide to do excessive things that are going to put you in the hole financially. If everyone cuts back on the spending and learns to eat at home and take lunches to work, we will all make it through this pattern pretty effectively.

I am looking at all the monumental changes that we are all going to see over the next few years with wonder and excitement. We can create a world of abundance and respect for our earth and each other. However, the way the money patterns have been running governments and banks is going to have to change.

Some may not like it.

Many will resist shifting the personal patterns that they need to change. But ultimately the trends and patterns have a life of their own. I prefer to walk consciously through the doorways being presented than be dragged kicking and screaming through them.

Change can be intense. If you look historically at humanity we have made huge blunders and terrible things have happened but then the power of the human spirit will rise up and create amazing trends of expansion and growth. It is just the way it is. It has always been this way.

You are alive on one of the most amazing times this planet has ever seen. You are here to help make the shift of consciousness into a new domain of peace, prosperity, and technological growth that will free up all of humanity. This is an exciting time to be alive.

So what is your personal contribution? What does your spirit feel compelled to accomplish during your time here? What do you need to express and share before it is your time to exit this existence?

For each of you that answer will be very different. And only you will be able to follow your own soul's breadcrumb trail to wholeness. We each will find others who will assist us along the way. There are some that share through inspiration, by their example, or by those who believe in us and want to give us tools or assistance along the way.

I am always so grateful when those people show up in my life.

The other day someone said to me that I was doing a tremendous amount of work for a group that I work with. That person thought that I was overdoing it. But in my life I have been helped out at the most crucial moments. When I did not know which way to go, someone always magically appeared and had the skill that I needed to learn. Those wonderful people were so patient and helpful to me that I feel compelled to "Pay it forward" so to speak.

How can you do the same? You have skills and insights that might be tremendously helpful to others. When you share your knowledge with others the wisdom is passed forward and human growth and potential is improved. Wisdom and knowledge is not something that you should keep to yourself. It is something to be shared and expressed in such a way that it has a life of its own and moves outward in circles of support and love.

The only way I know to do that is through stepping out of what I need in the moment and feeling into someone else's heart. What I want to give may not be what someone actually needs in the moment. If I only give what I want to give, that is an indication that I am still operating from ego. When I step out of what I think is my gift and feel into what someone needs in the moment and give to them from the place of their deepest yearning, something magical begins to happen.

The other person feels heard, respected, understood, and loved. They then receive the energy and hope that they need to continue their quest to express their greatest gift rather than be the perpetuator of my egos need to have them do it my way or to bolster what I need to be true in that moment.

It frees them up to become their greatest self. That is what is really wonderful. No one wants to be a copy cat of another. If you are in that place you just have not yet learned how to have enough confidence in your uniqueness to express it effectively in the world. But it will happen. Everyone has, at some time, found a person, belief system, religion, or perspective that came close enough to your truth that you might have gotten caught up in it for a moment. You wanted to be like that person and suddenly began dressing like them or imitating them. This could also be a belief system where you wanted to belong and began repeating the belief system as if it is your truth. But understanding knowledge and the full embodiment of experiencing truth for yourself is a very different affair.

Take the time to risk finding what is your truth. You have something unique that wants to find a way to express itself. That will be a long and arduous trek. But it will be full of adventure, love, and trust. It will be a life full of experiences that become the expression, story, and myth that is your life.

Give it a shot. You have nothing to loose and everything to find. Nothing is more sacred that the exploration into the self.

Poem - The Rotations for the Shift of Heaven

How many rotations have I turned? How many civilizations have been burned?
How many skies have washed my eyes? How many breaths have I sighed?
How many of you have felt the strain of expanding love in this domain?
I have walked with you among the trees. Hidden in caves and watched the leaves.
I have trusted the depth to which you clung. I have witnessed bravery that has never been sung.
I have felt the struggles that have wracked your mind. I have attempted to strengthen your hearts with mine.
Where do you end and I begin? It seems a circle without an end.
Where do you rest and find the peace? That seems to rob you of your sleep.
Where does our love go when we end? I am the witness of this constant trend.
We came to feel to our hearts content. We found ourselves twisted and bent.
We writhed and moaned in love’s clutching grasp. We continued to try even when our voice became a gasp.
We are here and this is our home. We made it so when we became alone.
You have been so brave and strong that stories have been told forever and long.
You are cast from such strong light that you have survived even the darkest of nights.
You are my friends, my comrades in my arms. We have held a banner of possibility for so long.
Where does this go? Is there a point to all of this? When you sleep at night do you feel the angels kiss?
Where is the hope of creations end? It does not stop but comes around again.
Where is the sound of the angel’s applause? It floats just beyond your egos calls.
You are turning the tide. Can’t you feel the shift, of the tear in the fabric of heaven’s rift?
You came to find something for yourself. But have ended up give back tremendous wealth.
You open a door to the expansion of beliefs. You have staged a coop with a lovers leap.
I struggle to find a balance within. That allows my spirit to soar again.
I know in your hearts you are finding your way free. There are things in the darkness that you will finally see.
I trust in a force that is much greater than myself to find the pathway that is hidden with stealth.
It is critical for us to find a way to relax. It opens a pathway in which we no longer feel so taxed.
It is the moment when change takes a monumental leap beyond the density that has kept us asleep.
It is a time that is not about self. It is a place where we must ask for help.
None of us can do it alone. But together we can take something spectacular home.
None of us have all the pieces in place. But together we have something unique to embrace.
None of us could not see the love that flies so high in this sky above.
You need not awaken for me to connect your energy in, to the expansion of light that is about to begin.
You need not know why you are here. You need not remember that you are so dear.
You will be taken very deep in my soul and allowed to awaken when you naturally unfold.
I take your hand regardless if you do not take mine. I know that we are connected and entwined.
I cannot stop what has begun to unfurl. I know your oysters all hold pearls.
I will not crack you open to make sure it is true. I know when you are ready you will begin to see through.
Through the pain and anguish you feel. Through the bitterness that heals.
Through the suffering that rakes the hearts to expose the tenderness that imparts.
Through the wisdom that was learned. Into the place of acceptance it turns.
With your love I will decree that everyone will also fly free.
With your depth of yearning and love everyone will reconnect above.
With your determination and trust we will find the most hidden of us.
You are safe. You are light. You are priceless and you are bright.
You are braver than you could ever know. You are the love that sets heaven aglow.
You are already the stuff that legends make. You are the soul’s that allow heaven to awake.

SEX, LOVE, INTIMACY, AND RELATIONSHIPS WORKSHOP

I will be teaching a Sex, Love, Intimacy, and Relationships workshop on April 18-19, 2009 in Salt Lake City.

As a psychic, you can image how many people come in with questions about love and relationships.

In being human, love is primal need and experience that each of us want to feel. But we can only feel to the depth in which we feel safe.

Yet love is also a huge conflict in our life. It is one of the great mysteries that though love we get to experience some of our greatest joys in life. But is also the source of our deepest fears, biggest wounds, most profound yearnings, and greatest growth.

Everyone wants to feel loved and know how to give love.

Intimate relationships require us love our self but to also grow and learn how to love and open others. Learning to let others in and learning how to share your deepest self is tremendously challenging. More stories, music, poems, paintings, sculpture, and art have been created to express the passion and depth that we feel when we are in love.

But all forms of art take practice to master. Learning to master the art of intimacy is no different. It requires that you have some form or structure in which you feel safe to begin the journey. Then it requires you to learn how to feel into each other’s hearts and deepest yearnings.

This is no small feat. Love is a constantly changing landscape that is never completely mastered and always calls us to reach deeper within to touch and learn to love parts, reflections, and aspects that we see in each other.

We are beings of light and spirit but we are also beings of passion and life force. The conflicts in life are often about the extreme juxtaposition between those two sides. We want to be pure beings of light and love but then we have to deal with this other side, passion and sex. These are two aspects of life force that seem to get suppressed and pushed to the side because of our mind's constant judgment and chatter. But life force can only be suppressed for so long before it will rear its head. Sometimes when you least expect it.

I believe that it be better to learn how to navigate love with passion. Being human means that we are beings of spirit and body together. It would be so much better to learn how to not be in conflict with two essential sides of our nature. It is amazing how much energy is freed up when you are not using all your power to keep the passionate parts of yourself suppressed. You can learn how to be vitally alive in passion, as well as, appropriate and conscious with those energies.

Everything on this planet moves in a sexual way. We exist in a realm of desire. But we also feel the spiritual presence of pure love and light. Humanity has been trying to balance these two sides of life. But passion is often insistent and pushy. Passion reacts and overrides the higher functioning brain at times. Causing upset and stress.

In the workshop, I combined many tools that I have learned as a Kundalini Yoga teacher. In this tradition there are some beautiful techniques from White Tantric Yoga that are wonderful in learning to open couples to see deeply into each other. I also integrate knowledge that I learned from a teacher, Tim Heath, many years ago. He was wonderful at teaching how to find the fullest expression of words in your body by exploring them tactically in ways that open you to the amazing depth of feeling that each of us carries within. He knew that we all want to feel full and alive in love but often our childhood traumas and experiences have caused us to block the full expression of the deeper and darker emotions within us. I have also loved the philosophy and typologies of a wonderful teacher and author, David Deida. He is probably the most gifted person in this century that I have met on understanding the masculine and feminine. I attempt to integrate some of his amazing perspective into the workshop by sharing my experiences of working in his tradition. He shares information that gives safe pathways into the expression of the darker emotions that are often found in sexuality. He gives a perspective that allows all forms of passion to be expressed as love when each person is truly open. Then sex becomes a healthy play into the inner archetypes that you have not known how to integrate and work with.

I am teaching this workshop for those wishing to uncover the deeper aspects of love and intimacy in their relationships. This workshop is an attempt to try to share some of the many amazing experiences I have had in my life related to relationships, sex, and love.

In this workshop we will discuss the new paradigms for relationships in the 21st century. We will uncover the true masculine and feminine aspects within each person. We will explore ways to rekindle the passion back into your love life. This workshop is fun, experiential, informative, and profoundly insightful into the patterns that are manifesting in your relationship.

Just so no one panics. There is no nudity, sex, or exchanging of any bodily fluids in this workshop. This is not a workshop that teaches sexual techniques. It is a workshop to show the yoga's of energy that manifest between the masculine and feminine. We will be energetically engaging the patterns of love and relationship through exercises and breathing techniques between you and your partner. You will learn how to feel deeply into each other's hearts and learn how to open each other to the places that you do not know you have needed to be filled.

Cost of the class is $200.00 per person for the entire weekend or $350.00 per couple.

The dates for the workshop are April 18-19, 2009. I hope you will register for this workshop. It is one of my favorites to teach. Each person that has taken it has found his or her relationship was profoundly shifted and opened in the process of the weekend.

Workshop starts at 10 am both days and ends at 6 pm.

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of April

This month there is a lot going on from many angles and perspectives. Amidst all the extreme opinions and positions of who is more wrong, responsible, or guilty, there is a fundamental question each of us need to ask ourselves. Are you willing to get off of the position of trying to find fault and contribute in what ever way is right for you to help all of us, as Americans, to create monumental change over the next few years?

That is really the bottom line.

None of this is going to move quickly if everyone is still trying to assign blame about the past. We need change and even if everyone goes into agreement about what that might look like we have years of hard work ahead of us. All of us. This situation did not get created quickly and it will not be resolved quickly. Negative attacks and words do not help us come up with solutions. We need everyone’s ideas and thoughts. What we do not need is undermining communications that pull us all into hopelessness.

What I have learned about being alive is that the majority of the time people are doing the very best they can under the circumstances. Now, everyone can get manipulated into situations that end up not serving the greater good, but at the time it can seem like a reasonable thing to do.

So, as Americans let’s pull together and find solutions to the problems now. The old way is really not going to work regardless. Change is happening and you can either assist in finding the smoothest pathway to change or resist like crazy and want the pattern of the past to continue.

But change is a constant in the universe. All life needs to learn how to adapt to shifting circumstances. If you are unwilling to change, you begin to die. You can tenaciously hold on to the past, refuse to budge, and make yourself depressed and miserable to be around. But if you are willing to try, open, and expand into something new, you will get energy, renewed enthusiasm, and excitement.

Change is always difficult. But if you look at it as an opportunity to find new ways to expand and share love and consciousness, it is not so bad.

In life, the manifestation of new dreams is always fraught with those who want to see any changes fail. Every great idea that has been worth anything began in the fires of huge resistance and problems. But every dream is an attempt to bring life into better balance and more conscious awareness. Democracy began this way. The Internet began this way. But there were always those who believed in the possibility of making things better for everyone. And they would not let the dream go.

So ask yourself these questions. What would be your dream? What do you want America to look like in 10 years? Are you willing to sacrifice some now for the well-being of your children later?

This is a month that everyone needs to find how to trust. Not the government. Not the economy, but deep within yourself. You need to trust that you know you can find a way through. With that each of us also is going to need to find clear strategies that will work in this new economic situation and pattern.

Whenever anyone has a dream it is the nature of life to resist and to test that dream. That is good. But now we need to find solutions quickly. Many people are suffering, old and young, rich and poor. Everyone is taking a hit.

The cards do indicate that there will be successful handling of fluctuating fortunes. There will be a need to adjust to unforeseen difficulties. There will be unforeseen obstacles that will require a re-evaluation of plans. There will also be the need to launch new projects with limited funds at the beginning.

This is a time when poor planning will lead to humiliation. So in your personal life, check and re-check the numbers before you jump into anything. We are in an erratic phase. If you are unable to adapt you will find yourself on the short end of the stick during this time. So stay open. Trust your intuition. Do not hide your head in the sand. Make the necessary changes before those changes are forced upon you.

Dreams can come true but dreams take time. There is a flow in change that is findable and fun if you just let go of what has been in the past and look forward to an improved future. Just think. You are alive during an amazing time and you can contribute to the bettering of all humanity through your willingness to assist in the shift that needs to happen. What you get to decide is if you are going to willing walk into this new phase or be dragged kicking and screaming the whole way.