Personal Story from Feb 20th, 2011

Wow! What a wild ride February has been for me personally. I do not know about everyone but the consensus has been that many of you are also feeling this tremendous transformation that is happening. When we get more than one outer planet (Jupiter through Pluto) shifting signs, you experience regime changes. Well, that is happening in a large way and the feeling is one of a total and unexpected turn of events.

Now this is obvious in the global sense as the Middle East is opening to a new independent perspective that is allowing for the people to have a voice and a choice. But this is also happening personally.

What I have noticed is a tremendous need to let go of how my mind wants to have the only correct way of seeing something. Internally I know that there are many ways to see something but when I get triggered, my ego wants to jump in and be right in its perspective. The conclusion I have come to is that I cannot possibly have all the answers or ways of seeing something.

I have learned a little trick. When I disagree with someone else’s perspective, I let go of my position and try on theirs.

I have learned that I cannot possibly become aware of all my shadow aspects that are throwing wrenches into the neat little habits and patterns of my life. I cannot possibly be aware of disowned parts that want to get their needs met.

And this process is perfect. I am not a bad person if I admit that I might have parts that I am unaware of that are making choices that hurt others unconsciously.

I have been dealing with a particular situation and I had this amazing metaphor show up to make it even clearer.

Where I am in northern California is deep in the redwoods. I have a wood-burning stove that requires me to bring wood into the house. It is a messy affair at times and I was attempting to shake off the bits to not carry them into the house. As I moved a particular piece of wood I did not realize that a bat was hiding in the woodbins on a particular piece of wood. I shook the piece of wood but the bat hung onto the underside of the wood. Then I dropped the wood into the wheelbarrow. I suddenly hear this sound. A high-pitched squeal. To my horror, I had partially crushed a small bat. It was crying in agony.

I freaked out!

I could not stop crying. I collapsed in the realization that I had probably killed this small creature.

Suddenly I was the bat. Bats (to me) are the reflection of the ego death and destruction of my old way. Here I was clinging desperately onto one safe place, which has suddenly become a death trap. And someone’s unconscious behavior has killed me.

I could feel how, I did not mean to hurt the bat. I often do not mean to hurt others. But in my unconsciousness, at times I cause others suffering.

How do you become so conscious and aware of everything in each moment? It is probably impossible (but a worthwhile goal) to become aware of the subtle energetic patterns of all of life and the interconnectedness and the impact we have on everyone and everything around us.

We are a global family. We all experience the same emotions. Life is the eternal quest for internal balance and harmony. Without inner peace we cannot possible find ways to manifest outer peace. Without the capacity to step out of our ego’s need to be right, how can we understand another person’s perspective? Without understanding another’s perspective how can we hope to have global peace?

This month, begin within your own small sphere of reality. Step out of what you know and look with fresh eyes at another person’s world and experience. You might just find something that you like. You might find a lost part of yourself that gives you more insight into your own quest for wholeness. All you have to loose is your need to be right.