The Fondest of Farewells

As the days of winter creep coldly upon us. I am looking backwards with the fondest of memories as I prepare to move my life to California. I hope that each of you will stay connected in what ever way is appropriate for each of you. I am so excited to be making this shift with no idea of how it is going to look or unfold.

Sometimes you have to completely shed a skin and discover the wonders that you are becoming regardless of fears or what your mind tells you are limitations and potential problems.

I finally had a chance to see the movie, “Eat, Pray, Love”, with Julie Roberts. I could so relate to the place of the character in that movie. I am doing my own limited version of that movie. I do not know where the universe is taking me but what I do know is that I have wanted to experience a different reality than what I have so beautifully created in Salt Lake City.

It seems so strange to pour so much of my life, light, and energy into this magnificent state and the beautiful people I have met here, only to find myself called to something else.

When I bought my house in 1993 over by Liberty Park, I bought it with the intention that I was probably going to be an old woman in this house. I carefully planned to be within walking distance of the grocery store, near my favorite coffee house at the corner of 9^th and 9^th, within walking distance of the park to play tennis and run, etc. I had it all figured out.

Funny, now when I think about it. No matter how much control we think we have over our life, it is amazing to watch the angels, guides, and higher self steer the course of our life in directions that we would have never perceived.

Often people say that they want to know “Everything”. I have known for many years that the guides and angels will not tell you everything because your ego will fight and attempt to block the magic that your soul needs to evolve and grow beyond its’ conditioning.

Such is this moment in time for me.

I am grateful for the growth and acceptance I have learned in knowing to just trust the flow and allow myself to go. When the energy takes you, of course. If you are not clear, you are either not ready, not willing, or not able to see beyond the lessons being presented. Once those lessons have been learned and once you have touched those that you agreed to love, support, and connect with, then the wheel of life turns again.

At this moment in time, not knowing is exciting. Not knowing is allowing for a new level of freedom to return. It allows me to make things very simple once again.

Whenever you begin something new, you automatically connect to the part of your brain when you were an infant and life was simple but magical. You never knew what was around the corner and each moment was a precious miracle of new people, places, and experiences. I feel that sweet innocence within me still totally alive and ready to play. I feel younger. I feel acceptance. I feel divinely supported along this journey.

Then my adult brain will attempt to jump into the peace and bliss with thoughts such as, “What do you think you are doing? Are you out of your mind? You have a perfectly lovely life in Utah. Why do you feel the need to make things more complicated than they are?”

And the answer comes to me simply and innocently, “I want to try something new. I have learned this pattern and this place so well. I know how to do this game. I have enjoyed it immensely but now I want to make my life less complicated and more authentic. I do not know what that totally means but I want to find out. I created this particular pattern but now I want to allow the universe to show me what it has in store for me. I want to learn to surrender and not worry about what life has in store. I want to trust my divine nature to find the way. I know and believe in myself enough now to go.”

I sit in blissful silence, as my ego and adult brain have no comeback for that place within that knows and is connected to something beyond itself.

That is the gift of consciousness. The ability to experience yourself in any creation you choose and just as clearly know that you are more than what you have chosen to create. These creations are all masks that we have chosen to wear for a period of time. And in a flash the mask is no longer needed and it is removed to reveal the splendor of the soul that is the master puppeteer that has been dancing you the whole time.

We are all playing a role of our creation and co-creation with those in our life that we have chosen to listen to and move towards their advice and experience. The co-creation is important as you learn to navigate the complex patterns of this dimension. Then comes the moment when you step out of the role and choose to become the conscious director of your life’s play. It is a powerful step into the clear recognition of divinity within self and therefore the divinity within everyone.

I look at each person now in amazement and wonder at the puppeteer dancing each person into the dramas and characters that it has chosen to have the experience through. The lenses of perception are vast and infinitely beautiful. Each one is valid and valued. There is no right an wrong way to have experiences. Each level of play has its own set of rules to learn and talismans to gather up. Each level has a beginning of play and an end point. Then it is on to the next level when your skills have been mastered to the present level. Only then can move to the next level and not panic as the energy and intensity increases with the shifted level of play.

So, I hope that you all have a lovely dance with your master puppeteer within and that my writing can inspire you to break into a place of confident, competent, consciousness.

I am just a phone call away if any of you desire a sounding board along your journey or a piece of intuitive advice. My new phone number in California is (707) 354-1019. And you can still schedule yourself online with my online scheduler. I would love to hear your stories and experiences.