Personal Notes About May 2012

We are all feeling as if things are finally moving and because of that there seems to be a momentary collective sigh of relief. That is partially because the sun finally went into Taurus which makes things feel much more grounded. Which after all the crazy energy of the last 4 months does feel a bit better. However that relief might be short lived because of May’s solar eclipse on May 20 (to be followed by a lunar eclipse on June 4). 

So as much as I would like to say that we are in the clear I would have to speculate this is the calm before the storm. We have eclipses all the time so that in of itself it not such a big deal. What is so huge is the fact that we have being bombarded repeatedly with astrological intensity the likes of which most of us have never seen. It began the fall of 2008 when we hit that downturn and it has been ruthless ever since. 

When that Grand Cardinal Cross energy, the outer planets all changing signs in the last 4-5 years (which causes regime changes), and big planets retrograding all within a short period of time combines with the eclipses it creates a form of exhausted breakdown. 

Right now when we don’t know whether we are coming or going. It becomes difficult to see clearly because the waters keep getting stirred up and muddied. The retrogrades keep backing up over the challenging areas and patterns of 2011 and I think that we can all admit that 2011 was not our favorite year.

People are feeling financially pinched in ways that seem beyond the beyond. What I hear is that everyone has cut back tremendously. Yet, somehow there is less and less money. Everyone feels as if they are doing everything in their power to work, make money, shift their circumstances, and make changes to improve their situation. But nothing is moving fast and nothing seems to move in a way that creates outcomes that give much or long term relief. 

My personal opinion is that these times are meant for us to come together and help each other. 

Clearly we cannot do it alone. We cannot live in the illusion of cocky independence any more. We need help. We need each other. We need support. And I believe that we are finding it. We are all in a new place of compassion and understanding. 

I hear people opening up and sharing in a very real way. I hear them say, “God, I know what you mean! I have been experiencing that same thing.”

Practicing gratitude with loved ones and learning to appreciate those who stick by you in difficult times is the way to go. I have found it very interesting at who is standing in my corner at the end of a difficult day. It has made me see people in my life with new awareness and admiration. 

I bring your awareness to that because when we are feeling not the best we sometimes forget to step out of our reality and take a look at how others are trying (in their own way) to be helpful and authentic.

Know that people are on the edge and the snap point is very close to the surface. Attempt to be understanding and remember to not react when someone’s energy comes at you in inappropriate ways. 

Look out with the eyes of compassion and feel into the heart of the person reacting. Feel how they are overwhelmed and releasing energy that has built up over months or years. Be a mirror. Acknowledge their suffering and let the energy flow over them like water off a ducks back. Choose to not feel damaged or wounded by their behavior. Let it pass like a storm blowing through. 

In that way you help them discharge the negative energy. Probably 90% of their reaction has nothing to do with you anyway. So do not take it on by reacting and getting your feathers ruffled. What is the point? You have enough going on for yourself right now anyway. We cannot fix everything but we can reflect light and love back to others to the best of our ability. 

We are all one human family. We all have moments of overwhelm and collapse. We have been where they are. We might be there with them right now, so let it go. Everyone is doing the best they know how. Some have more skill than others. We all have levels in which we have evolved and levels in which we are still working. These astrological moments are meant to make us stretch and realized that we do not have everything figured out perfectly. We are being broken out of our illusions, delusions, and distortions. It has been a rude awakening. But we are still here and we are surviving. Pat yourself on the back and realize that you are more awake, more aware, and more accepting than ever before.

You need this moment at the beginning of May to breathe because June is going to be filled with retrogrades and squares that will try governments, countries, Politian’s, financial institutions, and us personally. 

Practice compassion. Compassion comes when you allow life force energy to run up from the chaos of your life without judgment and eventually touch your heart. When passion is loved by the heart, it becomes compassion. 

Chaos is the rule of this year. It is a great time to practice loving the drama, loving the uncertainty, loving yourself regardless of if you get the outcome you are going for. We are united with others in this challenging time. We are here to grow in ways that we did not think we needed. It can be a beautiful thing if you allow your hearts compassion to guide you.