Why does the universe keep giving me purple when I want scarlet red?

Here I am again, navigating the patterns of Northern California. I am presently in Walnut Creek working on ways to flow and integrate with this energy shift that is my life. I am so grateful that I have so many loving and supportive clients and friends in my life. I am even more grateful that I seem to finally have time to connect on a much deeper level with those friends and clients. It is wonderful to feel a very different flow of timing and life right now.

The theme has been one of slowing down and allowing myself to find a more organic space from which to manifest my life. I am so blessed with safety and support during this time and I send out the wish and prayer that everyone who reads this will also experience the same when they come to doorways of transformation in their life.

I know that the universe protects and supports us when we make big shifts but it is scary to test that theory at times.

Presently we are navigating a Neptune retrograde (which will last until November) that is causing many to feel lost and confused as to what the next place and pattern is in their life. It is like you are in a fog bank and you cannot see where you are going. Yet, you know you are going someplace. You know you are taking steps every day. You know that those steps will lead you somewhere eventually. And yet you do not know where your spirit is leading you.

It is in these moments that I fall back into faith with myself. It is not really about having faith in others. It is about believing in the fact that every moment of your life creates meaning and colors your tapestry with potential and beauty. Some days you do not know why everything just turned purple. You may not even like purple in that moment. But purple is what you have. So where do you put the purple? What are you to do with this sudden influx of a new energy that you were not expecting?

That is where the art of life comes into play.

It is about accepting what is. Accept what is offered. Do not question it. Just allow it to be. What becomes difficult is when you (metaphorically) want scarlet red but you keep getting purple.

That is when the frustration comes in. I ask myself the question, "Why do those people not give me what I am asking for? Why won't they give me scarlet red? They know I want it so badly but are they dense and do not see or are they purposely not giving it to me to irritate me?"

In reality it is simple. The universe gives you what you need not what you want. And it gives you what you need to grow and move past your karma. Life is not about making you comfortable. It is about making you uncomfortable enough to notice unresolved issues and patterns that still block your complete and total awareness in this life.

So again, I step into gratitude as to what I have because it is obviously what I can handle and what I need in order to move into other realms of existence.

I ask myself the question do I want to be content or do I want to be whole?

Personally, I go for wholeness. But that choice can make my life a constantly changing equation of magic, metaphors, and mayhem. And I would not have it any other way.

So it is also important to know what you signed up for in this life. There are no wrong choices. There are only your personal preferences and lessons that you came in to experience.

Love yourself. Love your life. Love your family. Love the drama. Love the intensity. Love the emotions that crop up. And live a full life.