Destruction, Flow, and Fulfillment

Today is one of those days where I finally have an opportunity to rest and regroup.  I love those days.  I don't get many of them.

I am sure all of you have noticed how life seems to speed up.  We are all in this boat together. It does not matter how much money you have or how good of a person you are.  We are in an amazing time and each of us agreed to be here to assist this planet's emergence into a new domain.  It is very exciting if you look at it that way.

According to the Mayan calendar we are in the time of Cauac, which means the quickening. This period will continue to speed up until 2010.  At that time we go into the period of Ahau.  Ahau is a time when consciousness will rapidly change and move forward in ways that are new to this human experience.

This time of Cauac is designed to accelerate things to the point where each of us will finally awaken out of the numbing stupor that tends to exist in this density.

Take a moment to look at how often you are spaced out and not paying attention to situations all around you.  Do you wonder what happened to your day?  Did you blink and suddenly find yourself older?  Do you still feel as if you are not accomplishing what you thought you were going to get done in this life?

Welcome to life.  And the numbing way it can suck you into a place of routine and density.

The challenge is to commit to getting un-numb.  This can feel like when your foot falls asleep and you finally become aware that you need to change positions.  As you move, blood flows into the foot and it begins to hurt.

As humans, we tend to hate that and want to avoid pain at all costs.  But pain is a process of life that is natural and necessary.  Without it, the joys in life would seem without color or intensity.

Americans have been raised in a theistic approach to life.  What that means is that we have been raised in a place where we have been told that when we retire from this world we go to heaven. Once we are in heaven we do not have anything to do  with this world.  We have no obligations, and we can live happily-ever-after.  We are content and at peace.  We are done and complete.  From this perspective we have an intense desire to be beyond all human pain and suffering.

Fortunately, in our more modern society, there are those who can feel that when they die, they might want to help those that they love.  Whether they believe in becoming a guide or angel to others, they want to have some connection to help and assist others.

This begins a nontheistic approach to life that opens new and exciting doors to other places and approaches to seeing life and death.  In a nontheistic way of seeing the world, we look at the possibility that even if we attain a state of liberation or openness, we still have debts, because the rest of the world is still suffering.  We desire to come back.  We cannot hang out in bliss while others are in need of help.  This is a kind of karmic debt.  But this debt is because of his/her great intense compassion for others.  It is a pull to serve those less fortunate.

But to have that kind of compassionate impact you must be willing to become awake and not numb to the constant chaos that is the habitual normal way of life.  When you decide to become not numb, you will tend to notice an intense feeling of panic beginning to rise up within your soul.  It is through panic that you begin to ask questions and want the answers to those questions.  Sudden panic creates an enormous sense of fresh air and a quality of openness.  It is that openness and vulnerability that is so terrifying.  Panic allows you to overcome your sense of smugness and self-satisfaction and it sharpens your clarity enormously.  But your old patterns of protection evaporate, leaving you feeling exposed and naked to the full force of the suffering on this planet.

From recognizing the panic that is constantly arising, you then need to observe that life is a constant dance of three principals; destruction, flow, and fulfillment.  These principals are constantly at work in your life even if you are too numb to notice.  These principals are the reasons that most of us want to run away to our happily-ever-after realities in which we want to escape the constant burning suffering that is all around.

It is a great challenge to learn to stay grounded when you are feeling panic and desire to run away from the reality that is confronting you at any moment.  It is about learning to surrender to groundlessness.

In the destruction phase you have no hope of being able to manipulate the circumstances to stay in your old illusion.  As soon as you allow your old reality to become ash, then you find a flow of energy that was not there before.  Then you will find a new form of fulfillment in which your eyes are opened to the miracle of the real moment in which it is perfect and complete.

Realizing that within you is a constant thread of openness that you could experience your entire life through, can be transformative.  In openness you begin to feel the energy that is life constantly expanding.  This gives the feeing of decentralizing your energy.  That causes expansiveness, which is very enlivening and energizing.  But that energy comes from the acceptance in the push and pull of duality.  That push and pull creates an electric charge that is what this world runs on.

Nature is dualistic  But there is also a place in which it is just the way it is and there really is no problem.  It is just the function of nature.  We should not be embarrassed by or see that we are separate from the natural universal flow.  When we begin to have a direct relationship with the world, we no longer need to make or define the world as a part of us.  Then the question of separation does not come up at all.  To see this world without a dualistic barrier means that we are not one but we are zero.

Letting go of the ego's "I" perspective and beginning to see that we do not actually exist and that we are zero allows the mind to open.  From this point of view energy or life is very simple. Energy is separate from you.  Therefore, energy is part of you.  Without you separateness cannot exist.  You have form, therefore you do not have form.  You cannot have form if you do not have formlessness.

We exist but this domain is a creation of our own mind arising from a need to experience separation and duality for some reason of growth and expansion.  In this way you learn to relate directly with the energy that is life.  We then must take a more direct and straightforward approach.  Things are not outside of you, they are you, and they are not you, all at the same time.  These Buddhist riddles force the mind to open and conceive of a world different from what our life has taught us.  Our mind has created this illusion in order to numb us out from the truth that is always present in life.  When you expand into your natural openness, life becomes alive, fresh, and vibrant once again.