Suzanne Wagner

Ralfee Finn's Weekly Astrological Report for Jan 25-31, 2012

2012-01-25T09:07:00.000-08:00

This is Ralfee's cute picture. Such a nice and loving Leo. Hope you enjoy her insights. Below is Ralfee Finns Weekly Predictions.

The Retro-Zone: Part 2

Nothing moves quickly this week, so put aside expectations of immediate results and instead spend some time adjusting your personal pace to a slower, more deliberate and sometimes hesitant beat. Mars, the planet that symbolizes motion, is seemingly moving behind, instead of ahead, and it’s the first of several planets to place us in the 2012 Retro-Zone. When astrologers say a planet is “retrograde” they mean that it appears to be moving backwards in the sky relative to Earth’s orbital position around the Sun. And although we know retrograde motion is an illusion, the effects often feel all too real. Any planetary retrograde phase is about review, reflection, and reconsideration, and because Mars symbolizes action, many of us will be revisiting a wide variety of previous choices. Unfortunately, neither retrospection nor introspection is a Martian strong suit so don’t be surprised if you’re resistant to examining past decisions. The biggest problem is like to be frustration, yours and others’, as daily life turns into an obstacle course of second-guessing and changing plans. Be sure to set your personal compass on “patience” – we’re all going to need plenty of it to handle the Martian fall out.

Mars Retrograde began on January 23 and continues through April 14. (It actually goes direct close to midnight on April 13.) Approximately every two-plus-years, Mars goes retrograde for approximately two or three months. Mars symbolizes muscle in all its forms, physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual. For some, that translates into athletics and competition; for others, it’s about heart; for even more, the presence of Mars is experienced as ambition and the need to succeed. From a spiritual perspective, Mars signifies self-actualization, and is best understood as the arms and legs of the ego. Mars is the principle that allows us to differentiate from others and to individuate. It takes Mars 687 Earth days to orbit around the Sun. Add in the time of its retrograde phase, and every two or so years each of us experiences a Mars Return, when it returns to the position it occupied at our moment of birth. The first Mars Return occurs when we’re two years old; it’s the astrological explanation for the terrible twos, when we start saying “no.” And what we mean by that “no” is “I am not you.”

During the next several months of Mars Retrograde, we’re likely to hear a lot of “no’s,” particularly in the political arena, as more and more people regress to the terrible two’s and tantrums replace statements of policy. But Mars Retrograde is also just as likely to inspire mature resistance, and its power is best demonstrated by the ability to take a stand. Given the multitude of injustices in the world that require a strong united “no”, the next few months of Mars Retrograde could inspire an abundance of protests and demonstrations.

As the coming weeks unfold, merging your personal stride with the retrograde rhythm will take skill. And there’s no need to hurry; we’re only in the first week of a many month/many planet retrograde expedition, a celestial trek that’s likely to require almost constant tweaking to find the right attitude, inside and out.

Julia Tindall's Amazing Yoga Retreat in Yelpa

2012-01-23T10:06:00.001-08:00

Yoga in Yelapa
(4^th annual)

March 10-17th 2012

With Julia Tindall

Come discover one of Mexico’s hidden treasures…a bay that looks like Tahiti, with no cars, no roads….waterfalls, rivers and tropical jungle abound. Great swimming, some snorkeling, and lots and lots of charm! Plus great value…and non-yogis welcome too!

Tour features:

v 2 or 3 sessions a day with Julia. Morning hatha yoga, afternoon hatha/jnana/partner mix; evening meditations or dance.

v Fully-catered food 3 meals a day

v Lodging in cute huts overlooking the bay

v Optional day trips to Marieta islands for snorkeling, waterfall hikes, horseback riding, kayaking, upriver hikes, parasailing.

v Hotel offers a pool, massages and spa treatments! http://www.hotel-lagunita.com

Cost: $1395 twin room shared. Single room $1650. Deluxe couples room $1495 pp.

Includes all food, lodging and classes. Does NOT include transport.

To reserve: Send a non-refundable deposit of $250 to

Julia Tindall PO Box 60101 Sac CA 95860. Balance requested by Feb 1^st.

Getting there: You will need to arrange your own flight to Puerto Vallarta. Its only 3 hours from SFO and last I looked prices were about $450. You need to arrive Friday night for a night out in PV first then Saturday morning we take a boat out to Yelapa from the pier. All details will be sent to you upon registration.

www.juliatindall.com e-mail: juliatindall1@gmail.com 415-377-1434

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Personal Note from Suzanne 1/22/12

2012-01-22T14:48:00.000-08:00

I am writing this on Sunday Jan 22nd, 2012 right before Mars goes retrograde in Virgo on the 23rd. I have been writing a lot of things in anticipation of the slow down that this Mars retrograde is going to create. I thought while I had the energy moving I better run with it.

So I have managed to do the Catalyst articles from February through April, write some blogs, and get the newsletters out the door for the next 3 months. I have also paid some bills ahead and I am still working on the tax stuff for tax time in April.

I love astrology because if I know that something is going to be happening during a more challenging time then I try to be one step ahead of the planets or in the case, one step ahead of the taxes. I know that I better stay on top of it otherwise I will be trying to do everything at the last minute and will must make me angry and frustrated at myself.

That is never a good idea.

My reminder to everyone is to keep a cool head. Make a plan and stick to it. Know that you will run into obstacles under these 6 retrogrades over the next 6 months. It would be wise to anticipate some drama and focus on maintaining a positive attitude. You might feel as if you have to fake it until you make it. That is okay.

Let talk about Mars in Virgo. Virgo is the sign of body, siblings, health, and attention to details. Mars is the planet of energy, conflict, power, and determination. Together they create an interesting pattern when they go retrograde.

For each person it will be different but the places to pay attention to are: conflicts with siblings, bosses, family, health, and work (and therefore money).

For the next four months it would be wise to stop and think before you speak or react. Many people will feel on edge and the slightest upset can tip the balance to the negative.

I am noticing so many people who I have know for over 10 years are emotionally at places that I have never seen them. Many people are feeling intense energetic patterns that they have never felt before. My friends and clients are all speaking to me about how they feel so reactive emotionally. The feedback is that people feel up one minute and down the next.

I include myself in that larger group.

I have also felt challenged to navigate the chaotic chatter and emotional melodrama that my mind and heart seems be manifesting. My reminder to everyone is that you are not alone. These waves of energy that are hitting us are unusual and global.

In such situations it is important to remind yourself that you are feeling things but you are also feeling everyone and everything around you at the same time. That can get confusing as to what is really your emotion and what is the world’s temperament and energetic flow.

We are all one and that connection seems to be strengthening between all of us. Personally I think that is very cool. At least, when I am not getting psychically overwhelmed with the intensity of the global condition.

The swings of emotion are wide and varied. I think this is in anticipation of the Neptune going into Pisces on Feb 3 and 4, 2012. I am trying to flow with it and pretending that I am a part of the ocean and the tidal pulls of the moon are full and deep right now.

We are learning how to become so much more aware of our world. We are stretching in ways that are challenging us to use more of our brain and energy. This is the largest growth edge I have seen in my lifetime, as it seems to be affecting everyone in his or her own personal and unique ways.

I do trust that each individual has within them their own internal map to navigate this moment. If they just go within they will find the answers they seek.

I write these articles not under the belief that I can masterfully guide all of you on your unique and personal journey at this time but to attempt to place signs and markers along the roads you are traveling to help you not feel afraid and lost.

I find that when I understand things from a wider overview perspective then I step out of the narrow perception of just my small self and issues. When I allow myself to expand and see things from an overview then I begin to understand that something greater is happening. It is not always just about me. When I step out of a narrow perspective, I see that problems and challenges in my life are not "God" trying to make me miserable but the divine expanding everyone simultaneously to create a major shift in awareness.

I see the wonder and miracle that it is to be alive on the planet at this time. I see this moment as an incredible gift to be a witness at such an awakening of consciousness. Then I want to participant in the way that the universe designed for me to assist.

The job is just for me to become aware of what the universe needs from me moment to moment. I do not always need to know. I just need to be open to the flow that is happening all around. I just need to trust my heart and connect to others when I feel pulled or compelled to help.

Somehow that feels so much simpler than to feel that I need to know everything in every moment.

I thank all of you for reading my musings and allowing me to give my gifts in simple and humble ways.

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of February 2012

2012-01-21T13:55:00.000-08:00

We have finally made it to the amazing coming of Neptune in Pisces on Feb 3-4, 2012. All the Pisces should be breathing a collective sigh of relief for the first time in a very long time. For the next 13 years the watery, boundry-less expansion of love and consciousness becomes the norm and pattern that the universe is attempting to get us to understand how to expand in the ways of perceiving and connecting with others.

I think it was perfect that I picked the Whale in the Medicine Cards for this month. I have been using the whale metaphor in trying to explain the energetic and emotional overload that so many have been feeling.

The whale is intimately aware of everything in its domain. Water conducts sound better than air and because of that anything that lives in the ocean is constantly bombarded with a cacophony of noises and information. The water signs should navigate this pattern better than perhaps some of the other signs but we will all learn and adapt as we go along. So many of us are feeling an emotional intensity and overwhelm that is vastly different than in previous times.

The crux of the matter is that we are all going to expand emotionally and spiritually. We are going to learn more about compassion and acceptance than ever before. This is a wonderful positive influence that Neptune in Pisces brings. I find that spiritual lessons are sometimes more challenging than say, making money. I think it is because of the esoteric principals that need to be learned, understood, and then finally merged with inside. This creates stages of mental development, emotional integration, and finally physical enlightened perspective.

I find that everyone seems to be searching for some type of clarity. Many feel lost and uncertain as to which way to go in their life. Chaos is the universes first wave to change. Without chaos internally, externally, and spiritually we might not move very well. We would be complacent and not need to find innovative thinking or ways to grow.

Well, I doubt any of you would say that you are feeling complacent right now. These astrological energies have felt like an itch that we cannot seem to scratch and the irritation is forcing us to move. Much like mosquitoes make the reindeer constantly be on the move to search for new food. It may feel like a never ending race. But life is about movement and if you do not move you slowly begin to die. So the universe is making this a time to change and leave the old safe grounds of our reality and we are embarking on a new adventure. The good news is that none of us are alone in this pattern. We can be of great support to each other if we just remember to stay compassionately connected and loving.

February should feel as if a bell has sounded and you are breaking out of dysfunctional patterns that have allowed you to be stuck for quite some time. In the silence that follows the shattering of the old reality you will begin to see the new vision that has been forming on the periphery of your reality. That is because an idea is stalking you. And it is an idea whose time has come.

Then comes the next problem. That new perception does not seem to fit into the old identity of self. The question becomes, “Do I stick to the old limiting perspective or do I take the risk and go for my dream?”

The answer should be obvious. Go for the dream. What do you have to loose? We have been all trying to make things work that are outmoded or are no longer functioning in our world. Change is now the necessity. Do you really want to hold on to that old pain and disappointment? Of course not! But none of us can do it alone. We are all going to need others to help and give us feedback. Just remember to pick those who want you to be the best person you can be and not those who want mold you into what they need and want.

Again, use the ocean metaphor. But in this moment be a dolphin. A dolphin can hear a human in distress and from miles away will come to the rescue of a person, just because they are aware of that persons’ situation.

This takes us to the next truth of February, “If you are aware of someone suffering or in distress check to see if it is your soul’s compassionate choice to help”. As we are within a water element we are going to become more and more aware of the slightest sounds and nuances. It may feel overwhelming.

You are not obligated to fix everyone and everything. That would be impossible. But you must feel into each situation in such a way that you connect from the heart and then it is the hearts voice of compassion that will move you in the direction of the truth for you in that moment.

We are all going to be learning strategies to navigate these deep waters. But again, you are not alone. Uranus in Aries is about the expansion of the voice of the individual but those unique and individual voices need to come together, get organized, and make the changes. No one can do it all alone anymore. We are going to need each person’s tools, skills, and wisdom to create this new world that wants to unfold. Don’t be afraid! Just try! Let go of competition and just be your authentic self. Listen to the guidance from the divine but remember that the divine also speaks through those that we trust and those that love us.

Stay open.

Remember you are here to love and let the dreams within lift you up to a shift in realms that you never believed possible.

The Pathway to Peace-Trust, Patience, and the Practice of Love

2012-01-20T21:04:00.000-08:00

2011 into 2012 has been an amazing lesson in the principals of trust, patience, and the practice of love. As this challenging astrology has unfolded I must admit that I pulled out every tool in my toolbox and went in dire search for more. I am so grateful that my life has been an exploration into the technologies of consciousness and awareness. If ever there was a time when I needed tools and techniques to navigate, it was this last two years.

I have learned that the universe does not really make mistakes. If I keep to that principal then I am able to trust that what comes my way is ultimately for my own growth and evolution. But trust is difficult when the illusions in which we have based parts of our reality suddenly dissolve like salt into water.

I believe that the universe throws us curve balls to wake us up and to show us the limitations of our creations. It is easy to trust when things are going smoothly but it is very difficult when situation after situation is in constant flux.

Then the question becomes, “How do I trust when everything is changing so much that I do not know where to stand? When we feel as if we are on unstable ground, where do we step that will allow us to feel safe and secure again? What do we do?”

The answer is to risk. There really is no other choice. Or as Spock would say, “I will make my best guess that I can possibly make.”

We live in a world of perceived absolutes. (Notice the word “perceived” in that sentence.) This is not the only reality. Lets just start with how many people are on the planet and how many minds are focusing on vastly different interests and situations. Those individual minds are interested in certain things and as such will focus a majority of their time and energy into the places and things that are of interest to them. But in doing so they often miss other things that are happening in the vicinity that are right in front of them. Then someone else will notice that thing and then that second person will not be aware of some other amazing aspect of life that another will see. And it goes on and on, endlessly.

I am sure it would be almost impossible at this stage of my evolution to become completely aware of the amazing nuances that are in every moment of life. The vastness of universal mind is infinite.

I believe that universal mind does some wild and wacky things to make us shift our perception every once in a while. And then there are the times, like now, that the universal mind wants to shift everyone all at once. Not in the same way, (How boring would that be?) but in the way that causes a rapid expansion of consciousness that is beneficial to all.

That is what my limited awareness seems to perceive. I have seen so many people who are situationally being forced, coaxed, pushed, and prodded into another way of being. Whether they like it, want to, ask for it, or not.

It is in those moments that the only solace I can find is to believe that there is some grand order that I am not able to understand in that moment.

When can stand in that place, then I find the courage and strength to move and to keep on keeping on.

That then leads me to the place of patience. It is not about having patience with: God, the situation, money, time, the angels, etc. It is about having patience within myself.

Personally I find that the most difficult.

I hold myself to a standard that is ridiculously impossible at times.

I believe we all do.

Why would we hold such a difficult standard to attain? Because we all want to be worthy. For each of us “what we want to be worthy for” is different. For some of us it is about being worthy of Gods love, worthy of intimate love, worthy of great wealth, worthy of fame, worthy of feeling happy, etc.

Why do we not feel worthy?

I find for myself it is about not believing that I can trust myself. I know my mistakes, my failings, and my negative thoughts. If I cannot trust my essence how can I find the place to be patient with myself?

I used to think that patience was a natural outcome once you became enlightened. Now I think that patience is something that you constantly work on and is earned over time.

Within patience there is a trust in the natural order of things. A belief that there is a rhythm and flow to all life. We see it everywhere if we are paying attention. Nature is the great silent instructor. Every animal and plant knows that there is Spring, Summer, Fall, and Winter. There is a consistent order that we would just step back and witness the truth of the moment in which we are in. You never pick the flowers off a fruit tree in the Spring because you would not have fruit in the Summer and Fall. It is logical.

Then why do we think that we can dream a dream and instantly have that dream manifested? Oh, you can try but if that is outside of the natural order then you have to plant the seed and then wait. There is no need to fret or worry. It either will grow or it won’t. If it does not then we need to have more information about how to make that dream grow and fruit.

It is about trusting yourself to be able to figure out something that will eventually work. If I trust myself then I will naturally come to a place of having patience with myself.

If I am in the natural flow of life, there is no need to strive or rush. The natural response is patience.

There is always a need to stay conscious, aware, and to observe to find new more efficient ways. It is human nature to be curious and to want to understand and to know.

That is all wonderful.

In that moment all that is required is for us to understand ourselves, our own natural flow, and the circumstances in which we are placed. The next step is to find solutions to the problems being presented and then know that the universe will always create shifts eventually. But it is never in the tempo of what our mind wants. It all has to be in balance with everything and everyone around us.

Which takes us to the third pattern. The practice of love. The conclusion I have come to is that since everything is not under our control anyway and I have to trust the divine, trust myself to find the answers, learn the rhythm of the natural order, thus becoming more and more patient with the awareness that this moment is perfect and divine, then there is a newfound confidence that everything is flowing as it should. I can relax and find how to just be love.

People think that love is “falling in love”, that it is sudden, electric, spontaneous, exciting, and rare. But love is deeper and vaster than the energy that we experience as “romantic love”. The practice of love should be the basis for our life.

How can we become the walking reflection of loves presence in every moment?

Answer: It takes practice.

Which is why I say the “Practice of love”. Love is easy when it is sudden and spontaneous. But love is challenging when situations and people are being difficult. That is when you are truly practicing to be the embodiment of love. Love stretches you to go beyond your judgments. Love makes you let go of what your minds limited definition of love actually is. Love makes you get out of your comfort zone. Love is the magical ingredient that makes food art.

Love is passionate, persistent, determined. Love breaks you out of your comfort zone. Love is anything but comfortable.

Is your love big enough to embrace every situation as perfect? You do not need to know or understand. You just need to be loves presence.

Too often we think love is about getting our needs met. That is a form of love but love has a depth and breath that can take you beyond the stars if you choose.

As we evolve, we think love is about sharing and compromise. Again this is another mask that love wears. But love has faces that are infinite and diverse. Just look around at anyone in your life. They are all the faces of love. It becomes a discipline of practice to see and witness them all as the face of divine love in this moment.

The moment you recognize that you can see them as love if you choose to, everything changes. The differences go away. It is no longer about the “Me”. It just is. And that is-ness is magical. Separation goes away, differences dissolve, suffering shifts, and acceptance becomes the pathway to peace.

Ralfee Finn's Weekly Astrological Report for Jan 18-24, 2012

2012-01-19T21:57:00.000-08:00

Weekly Frequency

January 18-24, 2012

The Retro-Zone: Part 1

We’re entering the Retro-Zone this week (and if this column came with sound effects, you’d hear the theme from The Twilight Zone or the sci-fi ringtone on the iPhone as you read along). On January 23, Mars begins a review that is the first in a series of planetary retrogrades that will last for nearly eight months. (I heard that “ouch.”) As each of the inner planets — Mars, Mercury, and Venus — makes a retrospective journey, it won’t even be a stretch to think of the coming months as an excursion into alternate dimensions of “sound, sight, and mind,” as The Twilight Zone puts it. And because Mars, Mercury, and Venus drive the mechanics of regular routines, when their backward motion overlaps (as it does this year), daily life resembles a “land of shadow and substance,” where the edges of “things and ideas” meet in the vast terrain of the imagination.

Frustration is the most obvious danger in the Retro-Zone, and even though we are only on the threshold, for the next several days, as Mars starts to slow down in preparation for its “turn-around,” moods are apt to reflect the change of pace. Pay attention: For most of the next eight months, nothing is going to move forward smoothly, a condition that will easily fuel meltdowns at all levels of emotional and psychic intensity. Mars signifies self-assertion, and because anger and rage can be found on the negative side of the assertive spectrum, plenty of people are going to be steaming about a plethora of delays and detours. Patience is the obvious antidote, but finding patience and holding on to it will take extra effort.

Another likely dimension of Mars Retrograde is an exasperating focus on minutiae. Mars goes retrograde in Virgo, the Sign commonly known for its obsession with detail. And certainly during this retrograde we will all be looking at every little feature of every little thing (until we can’t stand to look any longer). Please remember to be kind as you sweat the small stuff; most of us make mistakes, and what transforms those errors into lessons is the ability to groan and then to grow.

But don’t discount Virgo as merely the Sign of the Fussbudgets. Virgo’s deepest current is the recognition of an abiding interconnectedness. Pisces, Virgo’s opposite and complementary Sign, always gets the kudos for its mystical urges, but Virgo is no less mystically inclined. Virgo is the Sign where we recognize the sacred in its particulars; it’s the birthplace of ecology, where the interrelatedness of all forms of life is recognized and honored through service to all living beings. As part of its retrospective, Mars invites each of us to look at how we are connected. For some, that inquiry could translate into the need to establish new, stronger bonds. For others, old ties that no longer serve are likely to be severed.

At the core of Virgo lies the idea of an organic connection that unites all living beings, and as Mars lingers in Virgo for the next five and a half months, many hearts might be moved toward greater awareness of what unites us, as well as an increased desire to be of service to our fellow travelers.

Ralfee Finn's Weekly Astrological Report for Jan 11-17, 2012

2012-01-14T13:44:00.000-08:00

Weekly Frequency By Ralfee Finn, Astrologer

January 11-17, 2012

So many predictions have been made about 2012, and so many of those prognostications seem so dire, I’ve been avoiding adding to the load. I often scan the news to see what’s bubbled to the surface during the transition from one year to the next, and it’s clear from recent headlines that we don’t need astrologers to tell us that we’re entering a pivotal year: 2012 is an election year in the United States, and many, if not most, of our elected officials still seem to be more interested in the power of the sound byte than the actual concerns of their constituents, a condition that tends to translate into false accusations and misinformation blaring so loudly and so constantly it’s easy to mistake the noise of media manipulation for reality. It’s also a condition that we have brought into being by our collective acceptance that sound bytes and staccato bits of information are the way to go – Twitter, anyone?

We also don’t need astrologers to tell us that we are still in the financial soup. The economy may show signs of health, but no one is talking about the credit card debt that still leaves many people gasping for air, the commercial real estate situation, the plight of students, the foreclosure miasma that is still given lip service and has devastated so many lives, or the unemployment disaster that continues to destroy so many lives. Health care is not only still a problem, but has never been so clearly the emblem of a much bigger issue: Many of us have forgotten to care about each other, and the common sense that would allow that concern has fallen out of fashion. Where is the reality TV show that demonstrates the benefits of kindness and makes altruism glamorous? Whenever I see a commercial for The Bachelor or The Bachelorette, I wonder what was it that tipped the scale of value to such an extreme that the perfection of form has so completely supplanted the significance of substance.

From an astrological perspective, there’s no telling what’s going to transpire this year because 2012 is a portal into several years of dynamic change, with Uranus, the planet of surprising plot twists leading the way, and Pluto, the symbol of change at the core, following just a hair’s breadth behind. When these two planetary archetypes unite in any arrangement, we experience profound upheaval. Time may have chosen the protestor as the 2011 person of the year, but last year’s turmoil was merely the tip of the collective iceberg. Yet as history evidences, the upheaval Uranus and Pluto symbolize is not necessarily negative; their interactions signify multidimensional revolutions that focus on issues of personal freedom as well as social justice.

So here are my predictions for 2012: “Social conscience” is its mantra. And while not everyone will be interested in chanting those words, one of this year’s red threads is recognizing where and when personal interests and collective concerns meet. Be aware: This mantra is a call to evolution, and while it’s not a new call, some of us will be feeling its necessity for the first time. Even experienced revolutionaries will need to take an inventory. There’s no longer room for polarization and exclusion. The success of humanity’s next dimensional leap depends on our ability to include the needs of all sentient beings. The only lasting revolution is evolution.

More about Mars Retrograde Jan 23-April 13, 2012

2012-01-08T07:25:00.000-08:00

I thought I might just give a head's up to the Mars retrograde from Jan 23 through April 13th, 2012. Mars has been slowing down in the sky since Nov 18th and that has caused many of us to re-assess situations, people, circumstances, choices, and how we are approaching out life.

When Mars is moving forward we feel strong, energized, direct, full of energy, and willing to take action. When Mars goes in reverse it makes that energy go more internal, personal, and can make us put pressure on ourselves. We sometimes feel unsure and we will tend to not trust our instincts. On the good side Mars retrograde forces us to look at our reactiveness, our anger, our sexuality, and makes us choose new directions for our life. It allows us to take a serious look before we leap, at least in the time of the retrograde. We might feel more tired and need more sleep. We might need to slow down and be more careful. It is time to do a reality check and be very honest with what we are feeling internally.

You might feel less confident. You might be unsure as to what and who you have faith in. Projects might feel as if they hit snags and go more slowly than you want.

Try to not let the delays create anxiety and stress. There are times when things will just take more effort. Go slow. Take one thing at a time. Don't get discouraged. Look within and be patient with yourself and others. Everyone will be feeling this energy so know that your frustration is actually being felt by everyone in different ways. Practice compassion and use this energy to tell yourself the truth about what you want and where you want to go in the future.

We always wish that things would move easily but often it is these moments when life is challenging that we gather our courage and set our focus towards a more authentic expression. Ultimately that is a good thing. When we finally come to terms with the fact that some situation in our life is not enough, then we muster our forces and make changes.

Ralfee Finn's Weekly Astrological Report for Jan 4-10, 2012

2012-01-05T07:04:00.000-08:00

Wow! I love this image. It is of Mars going retrograde in the sky and what it looks like to us. So get ready everyone as it looks like we are all going to get tied up in a knot for a period of time. I love to have a heads up so I can stay calm and not overreact to situations that show up. I love astrology because it reminds me that often situations are not personal. It is just the process. The ups and downs are a natural occurrence of the dance of life. So take some deep breaths and know that we are all in this together to learn to have patience, compassion, and acceptance of the amazing journey that we are all on.

Here is Ralfee's Article. Enjoy!

It’s a “hit-the-ground-running” start to the New Year, and like birds gathering seed before a storm many of us are going to be collecting the threads of a variety of plans and projects. There’s little more than two weeks left before we enter the retro-zone, an approximately seven-month period of seemingly endless retrogrades that will have most of us attending to the details of whatever we forget to take care of now. Even if you manage to jump the gun, you’re still going to need to pace yourself for the next couple of weeks. There’s no use showing up for what promises to be a strenuous period exhausted from the preparations. The good news is that there is plenty of positive planetary support for stamina and strength, as well as a strong spirit of cooperation. If you don’t have anything that needs your attention, ride the current of the next couple of weeks by pitching in where help might be needed. For those anxious about getting everything done, there’s nothing like a helping hand to soothe stress and lessen tension.

The source of strength this week is a Mars/Sun trine, a vital, vigorous configuration that supports ambition, determination, courage, and intentional activity. Even if you are not inclined toward competition, this is the astrological partnership that’s sure to make you want to win. Mars symbolizes action, and is believed to rule the muscular system. The Sun represents our essential vitality, and when the Sun and Mars work together, we experience surges of physical power. Put this dynamism to work by applying it to all those areas in your life that could use a nudge. Especially put your body in motion: Run. Walk. Hike. Stretch. Swim. Just move, and make the most of it, because by the 20th, when Mars prepares for its retrograde phase, very little is going to move easily.

Mars goes retrograde on January 23, in Virgo, at 23 degrees, and stays retrograde until April 13, when it goes direct, also in Virgo, at 3 degrees. Mars thrives on forward movement, and when it seems to be lagging behind, as it does during a retrograde, we experience all sorts of Martian challenges, challenges that range from mildly impatient frustration to absolutely unbearable frustration. (Not kidding.) And because Mars represents the warrior, as the retrograde seems to stall plans and projects, many of us could feel inclined to up the ante by getting angry in all sorts of situations where we feel stuck, blocked, or impeded in our process. But don’t misunderstand. While Mars Retrograde might bring out the devil in some of us, Mars Retrograde is not the devil. And while Mars may not like retracing its past, we can certainly benefit from the review.

During the next several weeks, utilize the positive planetary support of the Sun/Mars trine to stay focused on all the things in your life that are related to movement – cars, trucks, buses, bikes, shoes, skates, skate boards, and schedules of every denomination. Push, but not to the brink of exhaustion. Most importantly, start practicing patience for yourself and your fellow travelers.

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Here is the latest Flyer for my Free Psychic Readings at Mazahar's in Willits. There are specific dates for the events. They are as follows: Jan 19, Feb 2, Feb 16, and March 22, 2012.

I hope this creates a buzz in the community and is fun for everyone.

I will also be teaching a Beginning Channeling Class at my home in Willits on Feb 17-19, 2012. I hope to have some new people to connect with in California. More information will follow later.

Introducing you to Julia Tindall - An Amazing Yoga Teacher and Facilitator

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I wanted to introduce you to my friend Julia Tindall. She is an amazing yoga teacher and personal facilitator in Sacramento, California.

She does some of the most amazing trips all over the world each year to spiritual areas and to places that support consciousness expansion and growth.

If you are yearning in 2012 for a breakthrough personally than see if any of her work feels right for you.

Enjoy 2012!

Suzanne Wagner

Yoga in Yelapa

March 10-17th 2012

With Julia Tindall

Tour features:

v 2 or 3 sessions a day with Julia. Morning hatha yoga, afternoon hatha/jnana/partner mix; evening meditations or dance.

v Fully-catered food 3 meals a day

v Lodging in cute huts overlooking the bay

v Optional day trips to Marieta islands for snorkeling, waterfall hikes, horseback riding, kayaking, upriver hikes, parasailing.

v Hotel offers a pool, massages and spa treatments! http://www.hotel-lagunita.com

Cost: $1395 twin room shared. Single room $1650. Deluxe couples room $1495 pp.

Includes all food, lodging and classes. Does NOT include transport.

To reserve: Send a non-refundable deposit of $250 to

Julia Tindall PO Box 60101 Sac CA 95860. Balance requested by Feb 1^st.

www.juliatindall.com
e-mail: juliatindall1@gmail.com
415-377-1434

Welcoming in 2012!

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Thank goodness we have made it to 2012. I think this is a year of creating a positive intention no matter what the world decides to throw at you. Have compassion for your fellow conscious travelers and try to have a sense of humor that the complex twists and turns that 2012 is going to bring. Remember that growing pains are just that sometimes. A pain. It is how we respond to that pain that makes all the difference.

I remember being a child with a broken ankle that was in a cast. The leg swelled up so much that I was in agony from the pressure behind the cast.

But I was a child and I did not have any emotional baggage around it. It was just pain. I find I can deal with pain, it is the emotional overlay that I put on things and the meaning that my brain wants to give me as to why I am experiencing that pain that is the real problem.

So this year when you experience something that causes any pain, try not to make up a story about why it is happening. Just know that the universe goes up and down and that these are just experiences that we all have. We are all in this journey together and we are all going to respond to the astrological patterns in our own unique way based on what we need to learn and how we need to grow and expand.

Stay in a place of overview, love, and acceptance of everyone in your life and we can turn this world into something magical and wondrous.

Ralfee Finn's Weekly Astrological Forecast for Dec 28, 2011

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This week, complex transitions challenge focus and clarity. Don’t be surprised if you feel on the verge. We’re crossing the threshold from one difficult year into another, and as we leave 2011 behind (I heard that sigh of relief), the uncertainty of what lies ahead in 2012 could feel overwhelming. After all, 2012 is a year whose reputation precedes its reality. (Mayan calendar, anyone?) Most transitions tend to be awkward, but this week promises to be more than a little tricky, especially as end-of-the-year expectations collide with beginning-of-the-year actualities.

As always, one of the best ways through a difficult time is to remember that we are all in this collective soup together, and just making an effort to be nice to our fellow travelers tends to neutralize a lot of unnecessary tension.

“2011 ends on a peevish note, as a Mercury/Mars square pushes minds toward gossip and grumbling over what isn’t “right.” Do your best to avoid finding fault with every little thing, especially if you're only being critical out of boredom or dashed expectations. Unfortunately, a Sun/Pluto conjunction, in Capricorn, tilts interactions toward the need for control, which means even casual conversations could easily morph into arguments that insist on agreement.

2012 begins with a wide Moon/Uranus conjunction, in Aries, forming a square to the Sun/Pluto conjunction. Uranus is nearly out of range of this configuration, but the Moon pulls it close enough for us to feel its effect. This is a telling signature for 2012, a year in which we will experience the first two of seven exact Uranus Pluto squares that will occur over the next three years. The entire bundle – Sun, Moon, Uranus, Pluto – indicates a strong need for independence, personal and collective, a need that’s likely to manifest as a stubborn refusal to back down, no matter what the cost. Pay attention: While there is a compulsive quality to this fanaticism, extreme zeal often provides the necessary impetus to deconstruct an existing paradigm in order to create a new one.

But there is something else about 2012 that is less exciting (and quite annoying). Besides being the year that the world ends (just kidding), 2012 is a year of retrogrades. From January 23 to April 13, Mars will be retrograde in Virgo. The first Mercury Retrograde of 2012 begins on March 12 and lasts through April 4, and yes, it does overlap the Mars Retrograde. But that’s not all. Venus goes retrograde from May 15 through June 27. And as if all that review wasn’t enough, nearly three weeks later, on July 14, Mercury goes retrograde again. (Even the goys are moaning “oy.”)

The first half of 2012 unfolds with a “one step forward, two steps back” shuffle, a rhythm that’s certain to drive many of us to the brink. But it is also a pace that can teach great patience – something we’re going to need plenty of in the coming years. So rather than anticipating nothing but hassles, think of the 2012 retrogrades as a necessary backward glance that will allow thoughtful choices about the future.

Astrological Predictions for 2012

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There is so much more that I would like to say but I started with the Numerology and the Astrology. I will probably be adding some more specific things but I thought it was important to get some information out there now.

Know that there are moments in time when we can take ourselves to the next level of awareness. You have tools and abilities inside you that may not surface until you need them. When energies get challenging know that you are deeper, vaster, and wiser than you know. Trust your inner self to guide you to those skills and allow them to awaken you to the hidden potential within.

Beginning with the Numerology for 2012.

Numerologically, the year 2012 is a 5.

The Path of 5 is a year of grounding, healing, and teaching. It requires us to be stable, practical, and down to earth. We are to keep our feet firmly planted on the ground and learn to deal with the day-to-day issues with grace and acceptance.

The Gift Number for this year is a 3 and the three is about feeling positive, though sometimes the 3 can feel like a roller coaster ride with its wild swings and intense ups and downs. Again, a good time to practice grounding is when the world is swinging to the extreme.

What is it that you have to share or to teach others? How can you do that in a positive way that is grounding and stable for all those you touch? This is the challenge of the 5 and the 3.

We can do it. The 5 gives us determination and drive. The 3 gives us a good attitude and a willingness to find the doorways. If we can work them together we are unstoppable.

Some of the Astrology from 2012 to 2015.

Let’s talk About the Squares between Pluto and Uranus.

We have survived the holidays and we have finally stepped onto the boat of 2012. It feels as if we are all in for a wild ride, so everyone find a place of center and align with the highest self you can muster inside.

Even if you experience bliss and calm during this time you can be guaranteed that others may not. You might be the one attempting to instill reason into very emotional and upset people, employees, family members, and mates. It will take your skills of communication and clarity to navigate some very muddy waters ahead.

The good news is that Neptune is moving into Pisces on Feb 4^th and that should bring truth to the surface for many political situations, as well as personal patterns. Sometimes the truth is a bit shocking, so be forewarned that the waters are going to clear and that will allow us to see with a new clarity and discernment. For some that may feel like a rude awakening. For others it may feel like a relief from all the confusion in 2011.

I personally am looking forward to the lightening of the emotional burdens of 2011. I understand that sometimes we need to be thrown into the pit for us to take a look at the hidden emotional issues that we have buried inside.

2011 was a year to release and open to the realization of all that we had stuffed internally. We needed to do some inner work and find new ways to admit the truth to ourselves about what has worked and what has not worked in our lives. As that awareness unfolded, a tremendous amount of energy also was allowed to flow more naturally.

The result is that now in January 2012, we are feeling more grounded, more energized, and more willing to tackle the issues that are presenting themselves. So even though there is a lot going on, there is an acceptance and a drive to move ahead and forge into the new territories that are presenting themselves. The energy is there because we are not holding ourselves back in the past fears. Those fears came up in 2011 and have been released into a new place of balanced acceptance and trust.

So there is nothing but a new fresh road ahead. That is exciting! It is also a road untraveled. There is an acceptance that we cannot completely see where we are going, but we are going none-the-less. This is now a place where we need to trust our instincts, our skills, our wisdom, and our energy to carry us forward into the unknown.

We are welcoming the new and different into our life for 2012.

Neptune In Pisces – Feb 4, 2012

Lets talk first about the pattern of Neptune moving into Pisces on Feb 4, 2012. Neptune will be in Pisces until 2025, so this is a shift that affects an entire generation. Neptune takes 164 years to make a complete cycle, spending about 13 years in each sign.

Neptune in Pisces will allow a new age of spiritual growth, understanding, and compassion. This is a pattern that will allow people who are great spiritual leaders and teachers to come into this world. In this age we will want to bring harmony and peace and then bring a desire for spiritual understanding and knowledge.

Neptune is also the planet of drugs and pain so I expect there to be great advances in medicine and ways to deal with suffering. With the other aspects I expect to see very practical applications for treatment of existing diseases.

This Neptunian Age will be a time when we will feel and have compassion for social injustices and the huge changes that we are already seeing in the Middle East will continue to unfold.

Neptune is also a planet of confusion and it creates a feeling of swirling/spiraling energy. You may already be experiencing a kind of confusing energy that has been affecting you. You may feel a bit discombobulated or spaced out. It will take all of us time to sort out this energy and learn how to flow with the patterns of fluid Neptune. I expect we will get the hang of it over time. Just know that your patterns of structure and organization my not play out the way they have in the past.

This pattern will soften the intense transits of Pluto Square Uranus from June of 2012 through 2015.

And we are going to need it.

The last time we had Pluto square Uranus was during the 1930’s and the intensity leading up to Hitler and Stalin was no picnic. But this time we do have the mitigating energy of Neptune to soften the forceful push/pull between the controlling, rigid pattern of big government that is Pluto and the freedom-loving desire for change that Uranus brings.

Pluto square Uranus brings turmoil and upheaval. Any planet (like Neptune) that wants to soften that energy is a huge help. This pattern has the potential to bring a newfound awareness while we are breaking down old structures and bringing in the new. You can think of the square as a sharp cutting edge that is painful. Then think of Neptune in Pisces as a balm for those wounds.

Neptune in Pisces gives the feeling of fewer boundaries between all of us. This may create a feeling that we are aching for the whole world, suffering with their suffering. But it will bring a greater awareness and empathy. We may feel a coming together in oneness during times of crisis. We may even discover machines that allow us to see the shimmering energy in matter and to find that there are souls in nature. The expansion of understanding and awareness that Neptune brings is going to be amazing.

The physicist David Bohm said, “All matter is frozen light.” This transit has the potential to blur the lines between realities and allow things that we perceived as solid to dissolve. For some that may be wonderful and for others it may be very disturbing.

Neptune is sometimes seen as the higher octave of Venus. Both planets are about love. Venus rules the feelings that prompt us to be attracted to one thing or another. Neptune’s sense of connection is limitless, much like the oceans, vapors and mists that he rules. His essence permeates the ethers and does so with an unconditionally loving force that surrounds and penetrates absolutely everything. Neptune is unable to divide or separate. Therefore Neptune can unify or dissolve. He can freeze or unfreeze.

The one problem is that Neptune really does not have boundaries. In the black and white world we are presently living in this change can feel very dramatic. Neptune is not accustomed to polarity and may make us feel as if we are wandering around like an alien in a suddenly new world without a guidebook to help us navigate the new territory in which we find ourselves. Neptune’s primary concern is that unity and love are all there is.

We had a taste of Neptune touching Pisces last spring into summer. You might have noticed that we all have become more aware of our illusions, addictions, habits, as well as, our potential creativity that has been inside trying to get out. We are all attempting to become more aware of our addictive behaviors and to view our illusions with objectivity.

So take a look at what the universe is showing you right now. What direction is your soul asking you to move towards? What behaviors or addictions do you need to release in order to move forward?

These are the patterns that Neptune awakens in our awareness.

When the universe opens the doorways and attempts to show us something, sometimes we may not like what we see. It then becomes our responsibility to make choices and alter the events that are becoming problematic so we can create more of what we desire for the next stage of our development.

Neptune wants us to move beyond the tangible, limiting, and physical reality in which we find ourselves. Neptune rules the soul and the illusions of our imagination. This is where tools such as meditation become very important in navigating the watery depths of Neptune. This time will be about discovering our own unconsciousness and making it conscious so we can step into our higher purpose.

As we awaken to our authentic selves (Uranus in Aries), while the society continues to transform (Pluto in Capricorn), Neptune inspires us to look at the direction of our highest selves and our purpose within this reality. This will be a time when the spiritual lessons of your soul will want to be translated into the physical. To do this we are all going to need to dive deep within. This is going to be a long journey, as Neptune will be in Pisces until March 30^th of 2025.

Neptune in Pisces does not come with a clear instruction manual on how to do all of this. Only by diving deep within do we come to understand our higher purpose. Then we have to take that information and learn how to navigate the complex pattern of choices in this human realm to find the best creative expression of that purpose. The only clear door is that you will have to let go of any preconceived ideas of the outcome and find a purity of faith within. Then allow that energy to drive all of us forward to find the best possible outcome for the planet.

Neptune was in Pisces over a century ago and one year into that transit, Spiritualism was born. I expect to see a greater interest and expansion in all the intuitive and metaphysical arts during this particular transit.

During the last transit of Neptune in Pisces we also had the period of Darwinism, where traditional beliefs were turned upside down. I expect there will again be knowledge and information that will be quite controversial, forcing us to look at our world in very different ways.

As Neptune in Pisces rules the movies and music, innovations in all the technologies will be mind blowing. I expect to see cutting edge technologies and riveting films, as well as heart-opening musicians, transform our reality through sights and sounds.

Righting social injustices and bringing awareness to the suffering of others will be an ongoing theme. Gender issues will blur and ethnic issues will dissolve as we finally ask the questions, “Whom do these boundaries serve?”

Neptune rules the oceans, so issues surrounding all aspects of water will be in the forefront of the news.

These are going to be fascinating times, in which we will see the expression of the soul awaken. We will see the dissolving of boundaries in many contexts: sexual, spiritual, fiscal, and political. This will be a time for fighting for justice, supporting others in finding the freedom to be heard. We will find new ways to create union, express spirituality, and the expansion of consciousness through movies and music in wonderful and exciting ways.

And remember that with Neptune in Pisces, nothing is quite as it seems.

So let us go on to the next big situation that everyone in the astrological world is talking about, Pluto Square Uranus.

This is a global square aspect that lasts from June 24^th, 2012, until March 16/17^th, 2015. What makes it even more amazing is that we will experience 7 exact squares between 2012 and 2015. Most of the time meetings between outer planets make 3 exact contacts over about 9 months. But this time Pluto and Uranus will remain in exact square for 3 years.

It is almost an unheard of aspect.

Uranus and Pluto together are ground softeners for change. Pluto erodes while Uranus explodes.

Pluto wants big government and big business to control everything. If Pluto cannot profit in some way from the innovative qualities of Uranus in Aries, then it will try to stop it or block it from coming forth.

Notice the Occupy Wall Street situation.

Uranus wants to say “No!” to everything and anything that will try to limit, control, or degrade. Uranus wants to serve all life through new ideas, inventions, and solutions.

We will probably see the Pluto/Uranus manifest as a war between freedom and control.

No matter what Pluto does, Uranus in Aries is going to usher in an innovative time that will have a profound and lasting impact in all our lives. Its agenda is to upgrade, innovate and aggressively stimulate the impetus towards freedom. Expect to see changes in how society operates.

The Square between these two heavy hitters is one of the most intense aspects because it represents tests and challenges. It causes stress and is highly frustrating, which is interesting because Uranus and Pluto are distinctly non-personal and emotionless by themselves. Yet their effect together is dramatic and deeply felt.

When we add in the fact that we are also in a Grand Cardinal Cross, which has the complete desire to start things anew, mixed with the push and pull from the Square, it will seem as if we are not able to bring about changes fast enough to satisfy everyone. We will strongly want change but feel stymied by the blocked patterns that the Square creates. So try to not get frustrated at governments or yourself as you attempt to make changes. Expect that everything will take more time than you want.

This Square creates such stress that sometimes the only way through is outright revolt and revolutions.

The negative aspects of this Square are:

Popular revolts and rebellions
Corporate, financial, and governmental power struggles
Sudden loss of financial wealth
Unexpected deaths of important individuals
Breakups of long-term friendships and associations
Disturbed individuals becoming more dangerous and violent.

If you are a Cardinal Sign (Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn) you will feel a sense of frustration and a need to re-start your life in the areas of home and career. You will also feel a desire to shift your personal and professional relationships.

I am listing all of this because the period of time from 2008 until now has been a warm up for this grand finale from 2012 through 2015.

Let’s admit it. None of us are the way we were before 2008. We have all made huge shifts and our perspective has radically changed.

That is great. Just know that the flexibility you have learned during that time is going to be needed to make this next leap of faith into a much bigger global arena of consciousness.

The best way to face challenges during such radical times is to expect them in advance. Those who will have the hardest time are those who are resistant to the obvious change and want things to stay the way they were.

My motto is to know before you go. I would rather have a heads up as to the patterns unfolding so I can learn to navigate tumultuous times, and I also can learn to not take it personally. Everyone will go going through their version of change during the next three years. So have compassion for others and lend a helping hand when you can.

It is time to choose change, even if you do not know what it will look like on the other side. If you don’t you will use up a tremendous amount of energy resisting.

Clearly the writing is on the wall. We all have been opened and expanded into a new place and reality. Just allow that to continue.

2012 is about a beginning not an ending. The ending was 2008, in case you didn’t notice. This is a time for the power of the people to be heard. This will cause revolt in different places. Corporations and governments will attempt to consolidate their power even as they collapse under their own debt and weight.

And all the while Neptune is going to dissolve the ground underneath the powers that be. It is going to make for an interesting few years.

I know that I was supposed to do a Prediction for 2012 but this is more like a broader prediction from now till 2015.

Intuitive Patterns for January 2012

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My first response to pulling these cards for the January Catalyst was, “Oh, my! 2012 is going to come in with a bang!”

It seems the eclipses of November and December will get some big things rolling for everyone and the changes will seem dramatic in January.

Yes, I know that everyone is jittery about the 2012 Mayan Calendar predictions and there are many groups out there that are apocalyptic and looking to 2012 to be the end of the world.

Well, I am not one of those people. So just take a deep breath and lets take this a step at a time.

June 24^th, 2012 is the first of seven Uranus/Pluto squares (the last one will be in 2015). This event takes place twice in somewhat irregular 120+ year patterns. The last time this conjunction took place was the 1930’s. If you remember that time, Hitler and Stalin were having an almost hypnotic hold on populations. There were great challenges and people were concerned about the welfare of themselves, their country, and financial issues.

Sound familiar?

So what we need during this time is to have a solid head on our shoulders and to be able to discern with clarity the many actors on this political and global field of play. Let’s not get caught up in the rhetoric of dangerous egomaniacs, as some of our predecessors did in the 1930’s.

We need to look past our need to see danger and drama everywhere. We need to step out of the thoughts that it is them or us. We need to look calmly to the future as to what serves the greater whole of our country and the world. That may or may not be what we want. What we need to choose is what is real, what is doable, and what makes the most sense for everyone and our future.

The fact is that none of us can go back. No matter how much we glamorize the past, the past is over. It is dead. It is unhealthy to live in delusions, regrets, and desires of the past.

Just ask any therapist.

We need to look forward to the potential for our children and our children’s children. They live in a very different world then us. Just look at how technologically advanced they are. They are not interested in what their parents were interested in. Their skill and forward thinking is where we are headed whether we like it or not. So how do we choose with conscious clarity to move forward and create structures and boundaries that allow for creative growth and balance that with some home grown common sense?

That is the challenge that January presents.

Sometimes we just have to let it all go and open to another way or view. We all have opinions about everything. But how often do those fears actually become the reality.

When world and astrological energies are pulling in different directions it tears at the very fabric of reality. The result is often another way opens up right in the center of the old reality that has been torn asunder. There is always a way that we do not perceive with our old eyes. But sometimes we have to let go and break down our old self in order to find that sometimes in rebellion there is a wealth of dreams and possibilities.

It is difficult to not want to grasp at being right. It is challenging to not offer an opinion when you are not sure of the validity of that opinion. It is so hard to practice observation and compassion. Minds love to polarize and show conflict. That is how they keep control. It is mature to observe the dialogue of the mind and not get caught up in it at the same time.

This year is going to bring to the surface the intense disappointments and resentments of your past. But recognize them as past patterns and attempt to not paste the past images of suffering on this present circumstance.

Let go.

Trust life.

Trust that there is something outside of us that has more wisdom and clarity. Allow that to unravel the old and bring in the new. It might be scary. It might bring up past painful memories. But those need to clear and heal anyway. You can waste a lot of energy pushing down the suffering and unhealed emotions within. It is time to let them out for some fresh air.

Let go of the need to be right. Feel the truth of your unhealed emotions. Love them into your awareness and in doing so set yourself and everyone else in your life free.

Sharing a Lovely Quote from Osho

2011-12-16T19:17:00.000-08:00

One of my friends shared this quote of Osho on Facebook and I loved it so much I wanted to share it again. Thank you Lokita!

"Only through acceptance does one start cooling down. One becomes more collected and centered. When you accept, tensions are dropped. In acceptance is relaxation. In relaxation it is possible to turn in, and in relaxation it is possible to turn out. Both become smooth. Easy is the flow. You can go out and meet the other, and you can come back and meet with yourself. One day you will be surprised to find that the one who is in and the one who is out are not two. And when you go out, you go to your own outside, and when you go in, you go to your own inside. That 'in' and 'out' are sides of you.

This whole existence is a universe -- that is the meaning of the word 'universe': it is unity. It is not a multi-verse, it is a uni-verse. But that universe will be revealed to you only at the very peak of meditation and love."

~ Osho

Ralfee Finn's Weekly Astrological Report for Dec 7-13, 2011

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Here is Ralfee Finn's latest Weekly Astrological Report. Enjoy.

The world goes even more topsy-turvy this week, as a series of planetary events, each with differing time signatures, makes it nearly impossible to find a comfortable personal pace. Don’t be surprised if you can’t catch your breath between the rise and fall of crises big and small – and I’m not just talking about the stock market. The planets are so busy this week, and each astral presence is so strong, that even the non-believers might be inclined to believe there is a connection between heaven and earth.

Here’s the skinny:

(1) Early in the morning on Saturday, December 10, Uranus goes Direct. Pay attention. We always experience a “bump” in the ethers when Uranus, the representative of startling plot twists, makes a “course correction.” The days prior to this turn around are certain to be uncomfortable, if only because Uranus always affects nervous systems. Don’t be surprised if you or those around you are experiencing high anxiety or disturbed sleep patterns.

(2) On that very same day and only a few hours later, there is a lunar eclipse, with the Sun, in Sagittarius and the Moon, in Gemini. During a lunar eclipse, conscious concerns override unconscious ones. Eclipses tend to distort time, so put aside any expectations that any of your plans will go smoothly. (Then you can be pleasantly surprised if they do.) Also be prepared for emotional tides – yours or others’ – to run much higher than usual, even for this time of year. (Think: “flood zone.”)

But that’s not all.

(3) Mercury goes direct on December 13. Normally, the last few days of Mercury Retrograde slow to a crawl, but because Uranus will be gaining forward momentum, the end of this retrograde is going to be particularly eccentric. Translation: Regular routines will take on peculiar rhythms. One minute it’s “full speed ahead” and the next, it’s “step on the brakes.” Try not to get confused, and most importantly, be patient with yourself and your fellow travelers.

(4) In the midst of all this astral activity, the Sun/Mars square that’s been turning tempers more than a tad testy is finally separating, and as that fractious interaction ends, many of us will find it easier to be kinder to ourselves and to each other.

Fortunately, a Saturn/Neptune trine, fosters foresight, and for those who need it, restraint. The mantra for this Saturn/Neptune trine is “Cooperation. Consideration. Collaboration,” a refrain you might want to substitute for the seasonal “fa-la-la-la-las.” Chant it often, especially on days when you think you’ll just melt down in antsy frustration or anxiety. Also, use it in dealing with others who may not be as kind as you. Remember: Each one of us has the power to change the world through simple acts of heartfelt charity and care for our fellow travelers.

Top Five Regrets of The Dying-December 1, 2011 By T Kelly

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I had a friend on Facebook that found this. I thought it was something to share.

Top Five Regrets of the Dying

For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.

People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learnt never to underestimate someone’s capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.

When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.

This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children’s youth and their partner’s companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.

Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called ‘comfort’ of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.

When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.

Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.

Introducing you to my friend, Christina DeJongh. She is an amazing personal life coach.

2011-12-01T20:34:00.000-08:00

This is my friend Christina DeJongh from Middletown, CA. She is an amazing personal coach. Anyone who needs a little help in navigating these intense times is welcome to call her for a session. She is reasonably priced and worth the time.

Christina now offers special release coaching sessions that help you let go of limiting beliefs and patterning, and open you up to create positive changes and breakthroughs in your life. Call her to set up an appointment for a free half hour introductory session at 1 877.211.8688. (packages of 5 full hour release sessions available for $ 250)

http://www.thumbtack.com/ca/middletown/life-coach/personal-growth-life-coach

Ralfee Finn's Weekly Astrological Report for Nov 30, 2011

2011-12-01T19:49:00.001-08:00

This is one of my favorite astrologers. I thought this was particularly interesting this week. I hope you all enjoy it.

Ralfee Finn's Weekly Frequency http://aquariumage.com/vibration.html

November 30, 2011

The only way I know to express the astral intensity of this week and the next several weeks is to modify that old cliché: “Fasten your seatbelts. It’s going to be a wild ride.” And while you may think that I am exaggerating, over the course of the coming days and nights, as emotional tides rise to higher-than-usual holiday levels, you’re more likely to think that I was underestimating the intensity. As families and friends gather to celebrate a variety of festivals that began with Thanksgiving, and will crescendo with the solstice (in all its iterations, from the actual day of the return of the light to Hannukah to Christmas to Kwanza) and ends with the New Year (which is also solstice-related), deep-seated and long denied feelings are likely to surge through the festivities, adding new depth to the meaning of “dysfunctional.” (I’m tired just thinking about it.) Be prepared for meltdowns, as well as a wide range of declarations, some pronouncing independence, and others proclaiming revolution. The best way to ride these planetary waves is to remember the underlying message of the season: Peace and goodwill.

Several sources contribute to this week’s complexity: First, we are in the wake of a solar eclipse on November 25 and headed straight for the swell of a lunar eclipse on December 10. So don’t be surprised if the world continues to wobble. The eclipse effect is often felt before and after the actual events, which is why they are believed to distort time. Add in Mercury Retrograde, and that time distortion is off the charts. This is the final Mercury Retrograde of the year, which means some of its review is going to include looking back on the details of twelve months of unbelievable shifts, personal and collective – a review, by the way, that is completely appropriate for this time of year.

Unfortunately, the frustration of the retrograde is going to collide with two equally potent configurations: A Venus/Pluto conjunction stimulates everyone’s need to have it their way, especially when it comes to love. The signature of this conjunction is fanatic love. So don’t be surprised if you become obsessed with someone or something. And while passion is always a good thing, Pluto often insists on having its desires acknowledged. And given that we are also in a Sun/Mars square, the inclination to push to have want we want is also going to be off the charts. A square between the Sun and Mars tends to incline dispositions toward being hasty, restless, and irritable. (I won’t make my joke about those Disney dwarves just yet.) As that hot-blooded wind coalesces with the insistence of Pluto/Venus and the “detail fatigue” of Mercury Retrograde, many of us are likely to be more than just a tad testy.

I realize you might get tired of the constant reminder to “play nice with the other children,” but given the escalating existential anxiety about our personal and collective situations, making kindness a constant companion through this holiday season is still the wisest possible choice.

Have a Wonderful Thanksgiving Holiday

2011-11-24T15:57:00.000-08:00

Happy Thanksgiving and Have a Wonderful Holiday Season.

Wishing everyone all the best for the holiday season and let the coming year be the beginning of things wonderful, expansive, and fulfilling.

Suzanne will be in Salt Lake City, Utah, Jan 5-13, 2012.
Then again, Feb 22-March 1, and April 27-May 3, 2012.

Call and make your appointment or schedule online.

Personal Note From Suzanne

It has been such an intense year astrologically and it seems that we are all going to be put through our paces right up to the end. On December 9^th, Uranus will come out of retrograde, which is then followed immediately by a lunar eclipse on December 10^th.

Uranus entered Aries on March 11^th, 2011. This energy urged us to make fresh starts and helps us break through restrictive attitudes or circumstances. It supports us in gaining freedom through independent thoughts and actions. Uranus is associated with electricity and sudden bursts that change our direction.

On one level that sounds great because everyone and the economy has felt stuck. So we all are seeking ways to break free from the past restrictions. You may have noticed a place or circumstance in your life that needed to shift. You have probably thought that you could plan to have that pattern shift next year.

I am afraid that the surge of energy of Uranus will probably make the problem in your life unbearable sooner rather than later. These energies will cause decisions to be made that will radically change situations in your life this month.

Uranus went retrograde in July and with all the other aspects that hit in August we have all felt lost and confused as to what to do. So needless to say when Uranus gets its feet underneath itself again, things are going to surge forward.

The challenge comes in with the eclipse hitting the next day.

Lunar eclipses make you look at things that are not working, realize where things are not stable, and force you to look at the things you have not wanted to see. When a lunar eclipse happens, if things in your life are not stable and you have been trying to keep things from falling apart with your mind or the illusions that you have fabricated in order to cope, let’s just say those illusions are going to fall apart and things might deconstruct rather rapidly.

Right now, it is best to have a back up plan.

Therefore I am sending this email early to give as many a heads up as possible. Multiple plans and options are going to make this time of change feel bearable and less chaotic. There are always many alternatives to any situation. Look at best and worst case scenario and see if you can also find a pathway that is more in the middle.

Fortunately, since we are in the time of Sagittarius, the expanded quality of Jupiter allows us to understand and become more aware of the world around us. We will have great courage this month to expand and break out of our old ways of thinking.

And we cannot forget that Mercury becomes still in the sky Nov 24^th and begins its retrograde motion until Dec 13^th. This allows us to go inward and take another look at things that matter to us. This is a time to be more careful with money and to deal with paperwork as it comes in. Try to not let things slip through the cracks. You will regret it later.

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of December 2011

2011-11-23T11:53:00.000-08:00

Well, here we are knocking on the door to 2012. Can you believe that we made it? I find that often odd years are odd and no one could say that 2011 was a normal year. But 2012 being an even year does not mean that life will level out.

Quite the contrary.

We are coming into the year of intense astrological configurations. We want to be in the holiday spirit but the Solar eclipse of November 24 at 2 degrees Sagittarius and the Lunar eclipse of Dec 10 at 18 degrees Gemini have forced us to look in the rear view mirror again and then kick us through more doorways.

As we enter into the fading light of winter, energies around friendships and connections from the past may also alter and change. Sometimes it is about learning to let go gracefully and allow the divinity in each person to freely move and grow in the pathway of his or her life. People are sometimes like pages in the book of your life. Others are chapters. We are blessed when there are those who journey along with us for long periods of time. But that is not always the case.

This energy is forcing some major upsets as the old patterns come crashing down and new players come onto the playing field of your life. Don’t worry. It is going to be beautiful and amazing.

You can feel it. Something has changed within. Something is not the same. Many of you are tried of playing by the rules of someone else’s game. It is too late for second chances. It is too late to go back to sleep. It’s time to trust your instincts, close your eyes, and leap.

The bear, the guardian of the winter sleep, is guiding us inward. We are finally feeling a flow. That flow has woven a thread of reality together and that reality is coming to the surface of our consciousness. The intensity of the flow is so great that the minds negative ability to stop the progression of change is finally halted like the freezing of the ice in the winter.

After all Pluto is a frozen water planet and Pluto is sitting in Capricorn till 2023. Sometimes destructive patterns have to be stopped. These eclipses will force governments and systems to take another look at what might work for the future. What becomes clear is that the past patterns need to be adjusted again. But it is not just the external situations that will be re-evaluated. Internally each of us is being rewired and upgraded to make the shifts into the next developing phase of our life.

In the quiet that follows there is an acceptance that opens into surrender. Sometimes we need to be trapped in order to feel beyond what we think. Sometimes we want situations to not allow us to do our old pattern. But we may fight right up to the very end.

You will find that the conversations begin to take on a different tone. People have had enough and they need to see the politicians and governments doing something other than the old rhetoric.

Balance is restored when there is an integration and understanding through acceptance and sharing with others.

When we can look into the eyes of our “enemies” and see the divinity in each perspective and pattern, only then can we come home to a place of peace. Then that peace radiates outward to everyone we encounter and they too will begin to awaken to their inner potential.

Nature is so clear that there are moments to expand into the light and to see the beauty. Nature is also very clear when it is time to slow down, surrender into what is and come together with others to find new ways to become more whole. We are in the later.

As winter’s darkening sun begins to enter our awareness it is time to drop inward and go deeply into understanding our reactions to life’s circumstances. There is another answer, one that you may have missed in the heat of the moment. There are always other doorways. The question is will you take one of them?

December is a month to look and listen to the shifting sands of time. What role do you play in this complex dance? What is your next move? You will feel shifts to the tempo and flavor of your life. Let those shifts be spectacular and compassionate. See the unfolding of your new self with appreciative eyes. Love what you are becoming.

I have so enjoyed my time in Salt Lake City!

2011-11-18T07:45:00.000-08:00

It is Friday the 18th of Nov and I have one more day in Utah before I have to take off again for California. I have appointments in San Francisco on Sunday so I will be leaving tomorrow for California. There is a storm coming in tonight and I hope if blows through by the morning as I want to leave to California as soon as the weather permits.

So send energy to the weather guides to make this storm blow through as quickly as possible.

I plan on being back to Utah Jan 5-13, 2012. So those that I did not have a chance to see me because my schedule filled up, you can look ahead and plan for your New Years reading.

The energy and astrology has finally begun to clear and I am so grateful that Neptune finally went direct. When Neptune is retrograde I feel confused and lost as to what the future plan is and what steps I should take to get there. When Neptune went direct on Nov 9th, I personally felt a positive uplifting of the intense energy that has been swirling for over a year.

The joke is that I still cannot see the direction or what plan is that the universe has in store for me but emotionally and energetically I feel better.

I notice that many of my clients are also experiencing the same thing in their own version based on the patterning of their life.

On Feb 4th, Neptune goes into Pisces. This is a huge moment because when Neptune goes into Pisces it is finally going home. Neptune takes 156 years to go all the way through the zodiac and so it has been a very long time since this planet aligned with its natural vibration. The Pisces should feel a welcome relief to all the disruption that they have been through in relation to Uranus messing with them from 2004 until March of 2011. So Uranus has left Pisces and when into Aries but that gives the Pisces a moment to regroup. With Neptune going home to Pisces this will give the Pisces a great surge of energy that will create new beginnings and opportunities that have been held back because of this astrological configuration.

I look forward to the revelation and clarity that Neptune in Pisces will bring to the planet. All of us have felt as if we are swimming in an ocean but navigating with only our sonar. Now we will feel as if we can see because the water has cleared. This will allow our political situation to also sort itself out as the lies will be revealed and the people who have the balance to lead will become clear.

So have a wonderful holiday season and get ready for an exciting year.

Personal Notes from Suzanne for November 2011

2011-10-11T18:49:00.000-07:00

As we move into the direction of winter, there is a deep and darkening reflection of this past year and how much each of us has been forced to let go. The consensus seems to be that each and every one of us has been in an enormous process of letting go.

For some, that let go has been of friendships. Whether through the natural process of death or through the dramatic and upsetting changes that happens as each of us grows out of our old places and friendships.

Sometimes the universe calls us to step onto our path. There are those friendships that cannot step with us or will not because it is not part of their destiny. In this way, the losses of friendships have been particularly hard for many.

The changes that each person is going through are deeply personal and often difficult to explain to others. When that happens, and we feel as if we cannot seem to communicate where we are at, that is often the crack that breaks the old world away from us to reveal a new and previously unrevealed world.

The question at the moment seems to be whether we like this new world or not.

It is like in the movie “The Matrix” where you get to choose between the red and blue pill.

All the universe offers is the truth. Sometimes the truth is not pretty. Sometimes the truth is a harsh and a difficult pill to swallow.

Then the lesson becomes acceptance of the present moment. That somehow this moment is divine and perfect.

These astrological aspects of letting go have spilled into areas of letting go of our old reality, our old jobs, our old ego structures, our homes, our financial stability, etc.

There is nothing stabile about this time that we are in. The question becomes, “How quickly can you let go of the old and embrace the new?” “How quickly can you adapt to this new environment in which you realize that you do not have any control over others.

In fact, you may feel as if you barely have control over yourself.

I have heard so many heart wrenching stories from clients that I find myself in deep contemplative places of compassion for them and myself. It is one thing to feel as if there is a wonderful and natural flow that is life when things are going relatively well. It is when things are challenging that the true metal of each person comes to the foreground.

We love the movies when the main character is challenged and manages to come through it intact only to win in the end.

But doing it personally is so much less glorious than the movies.

I find the world sitting at the edge of its own reality. For some we see a precipice like the old images of the ships going to the end of the world and seeing the ocean pouring into the abyss of space. For others there is a sense of impending doom as we wake up from a deep disturbing dream only to awaken to a world very different than we were expecting.

In the older generation, many tell me that they do not have faith in the direction of our planet and country right now because they have never seen so many people wanting to tear down and break apart rather than work together and find solutions. That is what they believed America was about.

What has happened to the common goals of the greater good for all? The older generation is shocked and dismayed by the narrowness of the mindsets of those in charge and the rigidity of those making decisions that affect so many.

So many have told me that they did everything that their parents told them to do: pay your bills, stay in stabile jobs, be supportive of your community, pay your taxes, be responsible, teach good morals and ethics to your children, etc.

But this cycle has taken so many good, honest, honorable, citizens and made them into lower class citizens and they are still bewildered as to how it happened. The speed at which it all broke down has also been remarkable.

It is as if a tornado came through each of our realities and with no warning stripped everything to the ground.

So when you feel exhausted and overwhelmed with this reality, stop and see that everyone is also in this boat with you. You are not alone in this feeling.

So now what do we do to get motivated and move forward? We can never go back. We have to let go of all the longing for that which we no longer have. We have to come to peace with this moment. We have to find the jewels in the mud of this reality. There will be different gifts than the previous cycle. But there are gifts to be found.

Take a moment to forgive yourself for not knowing how to let the past go. Put the past in a bubble and let it float away from you. Cut the cords that are dragging your thoughts backwards and trying to find answers when there are no answers to find.

There is only acceptance that each person is doing what he or she believes to be right. There is no right or wrong there are only the choices and lessons that each of us choose to take on in this life.

I pray for the goddess to be merciful on all of us as we struggle to find a new flow in our lives.

Better times will come. But for now, just breathe into this moment and allow yourself to find a stable place to stand. That is enough for this moment. Be in the stillness of these seasonal changes. Allow something to find its roots. It will bloom with the time is right and the conditions allow for growth.

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of November 2011

2011-10-10T10:10:00.000-07:00

November is the month for visions of your future. The problem is that we get visions but we often don’t completely understand the levels of meaning within them at the time we experience them.

Neptune has been retrograde since Aug 4^th and finally goes direct on November 9^th. That will make us feel as if we finally might have some clarity and an ability to see the vision that is creating itself in our lives.

The vision itself is designed to push you into places in which you can discover yourself and find meaning and fulfillment in this life. The vision is often a metaphor and metaphors are not designed to be something set in stone.

A vision is the instigator for change. A vision is not necessarily completely true. It is what you need to have the courage to move forward.

Some visions are joyous and exciting. That flavor of vision brings in hope and inspiration. But visions can also be frightening. These of the darker persuasion are designed to make you look at your fears, beliefs, and perceptions. The most important factor is what part of the vision is literally true and what part are metaphors for you to address aspects within that need modification.

As we come into the 2012 year. There are going to be those whose dreams and visions are going to manifest as Armageddon types of disasters. And people with those fears might manifest them as self-fulfilling prophecies. But are they literally true or is this a desire for the soul to escape the scary places within that need to change and grow? They can also be a little bit of both. It is through the scary experiences that we are forced to step into skills that may be hidden or unpracticed. Fear is a wonderful motivator for change when held properly in a place of centered awareness.

That is difficult I know. But it is possible to do when you observe the situation before reacting to it. Taking a step back allows objectivity to evaluate what is really happening and allows for a calmer reaction and smoother flow even in the face of great fear.

I am sure Perivale did not know what he was getting into when he embarked on following his vision.

Visions give us the motivation.

Visions remind us to hope and dream.

We want to remain open to the limitless of being and yet keep the innocent eyes of a child experiencing something for the first time.

In the month of November take a look at all the relationships in your life. Are those relationships filling you up with wonder, love, safety, acceptance and joy? If they are not it might be time to re-evaluate your choice.

All things in life have cycles; people, friendships, business, money, emotional issues, etc. What becomes difficult is when it is time to shift but we are attached to a past vision and now a new vision is opening our eyes once again to another possibility.

It does not mean the last vision was wrong. The new vision is just coaxing you along to the next place of growth that your soul is longing to find.

It is a process to allow the visions to motivate you into the new phase of life. However, remember to not let yourself become flakey and unstable in the process.

We all dream. Dreams are gifts that show us our longing, our desires, and what our soul yearns to find as fulfillment. Dreams show us other options. And dreams can be questions from angels and guidance as to what will motivate us forward.

Which dreams do not let you go? Which dreams gives you joy every time you think of them? These are the dreams to follow. Do not let the chaos and demand of life take you away from the wonder and magic of your dreams.

Stay open and receptive to the magical inspiration that guides and motivates us through dreams and visions. Allow the adventurous spirit within you to stretch out of the old ways. Let the dreams mix with your personal energies and gifts and see what begins to manifest.

Notice those that inspire you in your life. Allow their methods and path to give clues to the pathways that might work for you.

We are attracted to people for wonderful reasons. Others inspire us because of an inner alignment with their energies that we understand and relate to. But your way will still be unique and look very different from even those who have inspired and motivated you.

Allow that to be perfect. No one but you can unravel the intricate patterns and energetic blocks that you uniquely carry. Others can give us clues. Others can share their tools and abilities with us. But we are the ones choosing and manifesting in this reality and we get to create and un-create our energies as feels correct in each moment for us.

You are an amazing manifestation of sound, matter, and light. Create your own symphony. And experience yourself as fully as possible this month.

Musings of Life

2011-09-28T10:34:00.000-07:00

I am taking advantage of the beautiful fall weather right now as I know that I am living in a temperate rain forest and when it decides to rain then it is really going to rain. And I mean for weeks and weeks.

But if that is the compromise I need to make to live in the beautiful redwoods and that is what they need to survive than that is what I am happy to live with.

The cat is basking in the sun and the sky is clear as a bell today. It is beautiful!

I am attempting to create workshops here in northern California for Numerology, Tarot, Palmistry and Channeling. I realize that to get things going I am going to have to put out the advertising way in advance. The problem is in getting people to call me back so I can get costs and dates set.

Patience seems to be the lesson over and over again. How do you stay proactive and yet know how to flow in the direction of what the universe has in store for you? That is something that I am working on finding out.

At least I will be coming back to Utah November 9th and then from the 14th-18th, 2011. I managed to get that advertising done and the Catalyst Magazine is informed and so hopefully for Oct and Nov I will have that handled.

I am also doing a free psychic fair at Mahazar's (an amazing clothing store in Willits) for the Harvest Moon Festival on Oct 14th. I will be available from 10 am till 8 pm that day for readings. It will be first come - first served.

This is a way for me to introduce myself into the Willits area and get to know the locals. I am looking forward to it. It should be fun and a merry event.

I am also looking at doing workshops and lectures at Open Secret Bookstore in San Rafael. It is a great location but I am still getting numbers and costs right now worked out.

Hopefully you are also having a moment to breathe in the lovely fall weather and feel the changing of the seasons in your life, heart, and energy.

Remember to appreciate everyone in your life today and remember that everyone is divine and wanting to receive love and support.

Personal Note And Update On What I Have Learned Recently

2011-09-27T15:22:00.000-07:00

Well I had a whirlwind trip to Salt Lake City and Idaho Falls.

It was great to connect to those clients that were new and those that I knew very well. It was amazing to meet those who had wanted to have a session with me for years and then they found out that I had moved and they were so upset with themselves that they had waited too long.

So they were thrilled to finally be able to get a session in person rather than over the phone or skype.

Because of the tremendous outpouring of support and appreciation I have decided to find a way to more regularly come to Salt Lake City. I also am planning to come to Idaho Falls perhaps in April again.

I sit back at take a look at my reality and I realize that I am not in charge of anything. Something so much bigger and vaster than myself is obviously at work in my life. I wanted to move to California because I have literally been driving to LA once a month since 1998. I finally just got exhausted from all the traveling and decided to simplify my reality by moving and shifting the focus more to California.

But then the universe has its own plan that we are not let into. And here I am now traveling in the opposite direction. How crazy is that? I guess deep down in my bones I am a traveling gypsy from a past life. How else can I explain all this driving? Ha!

This is where I fall back into accepting the perfection of each and every moment as divine. No matter what I think or my ego wants to believe is the way, the universe always makes an adjustment to that experience.

In my life I do not think I have done everything with perfect awareness. But that is because life is fraught with pitfalls and mistakes.

When life kicks us down there are many that cannot take the hits to the ego. Each person will make mistakes based on their programming, fears, doubts, insecurities, and unresolved issues. But are these really mistakes? Often the soul needs to learn certain lessons and certain situations are designed to make us very aware of choices that are incongruent with divine universal flow.

I like to think of them as angelic course corrections.

The game is to learn to open in the face of contraction. This is tremendously difficult. We learn that it is not about trusting others, leaders, presidents, bosses, gurus, communities, religions, businesses, our 401 K plan, the stock market, etc, but about trusting the process of life itself. More important it is about trusting our ability to navigate life when it gets challenging.

To me the game is to choose to open in love when everything in my body wants to scream, scratch, hit, and cause suffering to those who I think are deceiving me, disappointing me, upsetting my control patterns, disturbing my perfect illusion, intentionally causing suffering, or rejecting me.

People being able to be honest with us is based on how much honesty we hold within ourselves. If we are honest within to the issues that each of us hold, and we know our kinks and quirks, we have worked on navigating them, and we have some skill in staying centered when everything in our ego/little mind is screaming for us to leave. Then people will unknowingly trust us and tell me things they would never say to another human being.

The hard part is finding those parts inside where we manipulate, hook, get needy, desire certain outcomes, or demand a certain type of attention or support. That is where life puts it right in our face. We will attract those who will make us look at our worst self.

If we are not careful our insecurity will make us become someone we never wanted to believe we could become. Such as: a liar, a snoop, someone who is using words to catch someone off guard and catch them in a lie so we can use that as a weapon against them, etc. It is in those moments when awareness becomes the key. If we can become aware of those voices, archetypes, parts within that are disowned, then we can own them and learn to love them. If we love the internal archetypes then we can integrate others into our life in more balanced ways. That creates space within and then we can see that others have their own process and it is somehow perfect. When we step out of the ego we can see the divine flowing in the complex moments and upsets then we know that the divine is flowing in a way that they cannot see. Only then can we can be the space for them to open and help them find acceptance in this moment and become aware of the perfection in this moment.

I give everyone in my life permission to mess up.

I choose friendships that give me the same permission. But we have to remember that it is all love. It is all divine. It is when the energy surges and get and the upsets get huge that the big internal issues rear their heads. When we make shifts the energy will naturally magnify and unresolved issues will come bouncing to the surface.

Then it gets really messy. There are times in my life where it has taken me months, even years to work through all the parts that show up. All we can do is stay present with those parts and learn to love the reflections that others present into our life.

I choose a life where there is a reciprocal energy in any context. And there are many ways to reciprocate energy. When there is a reciprocal flow than there is a way for life force and love to circulate between everyone and there is no limit as to the potential of energy. With this intent we can explode into a bigger arena of life, power, money, and joy.

But what happens when we do not believe that we deserve that much joy?

Again, potential problems are everywhere.

What often happens in life is that someone wants all the energy and is taking, taking, taking, and not reciprocating the flow. Then the energy dies because there is a parasite in the mix that is manipulating the situation to get their needs met. The result is that others will get exhausted. Then it becomes no fun for anyone and eventually situations break apart.

No matter how clear we are with the words, agreements, boundaries, etc. Someone will mess it up. We all have greedy parts that have needed something for so long that when we find it we want to grab onto that thing, person, or situation and hang on for dear life.

The only way to really love is to trust the flow of love. If we love someone we have to trust that they will come and go and come back again when it is in the correct flow and understanding for them. It is not always about what we want as an outcome in any moment. We do not need anyone else to complete us. We do need reflections from others to see the unresolved triggers, judgments, and issues we cannot see within our self. By observing and accepting the reflections in our life be come to know us more deeply and intimately.

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of October 2011

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October begins with a great degree of astrological tension but the energies are attempting to find a new place of balance. Opposing forces attempt to reconcile but there is still mistrust and suspicion. Part of the reason for reconciliation is because we are finally so exhausted from the strain of the past year that the density has forced everyone to re-evaluate his or her positions and patterns.

We are finally looking at the fact that everyone is on the same journey and we need to learn how to work together. Being right is great but what does it get you when you have alienated yourself to those whom you need to manifest the changes?

October is a month when you will find yourself coming together with others in new ways in order to take action and get things moving again. Longing or wallowing in the past will not help us move into the uncharted waters of the future. The past is a guidepost reminding us of the patterns that have worked and those that have not worked historically.

But the past is not able to decipher the complex patterns of this present modern world. We will feel as if we are required to step out of our old boxes and move towards new patterns of reality.

I like to look at how the intense density is actually a gift. We are looking at how we have allowed ourselves to get stretched too thin and now we need something very different. You will feel this duality fighting within you throughout the month.

You may hear the questions in your head:

Do I want to be alone? Yes!

Do I want to be a part of this unfolding pattern? Yes!

How do I let myself out of my own cage and find the freedom I so long for?

What steps do I need to take to find the courage necessary to feel safe and protected in this unpredictable world?

The key is grounding. Find the place of center within you. Feel that connection to everyone and everything that is alive on this planet. In times of great change you need to know yourself and you need to know that you can trust your highest self to carry you through to new places of light and love.

At this place of new beginnings it is wonderful to remember that there is magic and protection when you embark into unknown territories. Awareness of all the subtle messages coming into you is essential to navigating places that stretch us mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually.

The choice to begin is always a personal choice. The feeling of aloneness in those moments is profound. When surrender and acceptance of this moment is allowed, doorways open and you find others who, like you, are moving in the same direction and with a similar purpose.

We are never really alone. We just need to have our eyes refreshed and opened to the magic that is right in front of us at all times. Let this moment free you from the density of your positions and opinions. Let transformation be the guide this month. Come together with others and share ideas that bridge the gaps and upsets. Set aside the positions of polarity, right and wrong. Allow the new doorway to be jointly manifested. Find the thrill in the coming together of ideas with others. Feel the relief in the fact that you do not have to have all the answers. Allow others in who are seeking to find a similar place within themselves and walk that path together.

Enjoy October!

Why does the universe keep giving me purple when I want scarlet red?

2011-08-25T16:20:00.001-07:00

Here I am again, navigating the patterns of Northern California. I am presently in Walnut Creek working on ways to flow and integrate with this energy shift that is my life. I am so grateful that I have so many loving and supportive clients and friends in my life. I am even more grateful that I seem to finally have time to connect on a much deeper level with those friends and clients. It is wonderful to feel a very different flow of timing and life right now.

The theme has been one of slowing down and allowing myself to find a more organic space from which to manifest my life. I am so blessed with safety and support during this time and I send out the wish and prayer that everyone who reads this will also experience the same when they come to doorways of transformation in their life.

I know that the universe protects and supports us when we make big shifts but it is scary to test that theory at times.

Presently we are navigating a Neptune retrograde (which will last until November) that is causing many to feel lost and confused as to what the next place and pattern is in their life. It is like you are in a fog bank and you cannot see where you are going. Yet, you know you are going someplace. You know you are taking steps every day. You know that those steps will lead you somewhere eventually. And yet you do not know where your spirit is leading you.

It is in these moments that I fall back into faith with myself. It is not really about having faith in others. It is about believing in the fact that every moment of your life creates meaning and colors your tapestry with potential and beauty. Some days you do not know why everything just turned purple. You may not even like purple in that moment. But purple is what you have. So where do you put the purple? What are you to do with this sudden influx of a new energy that you were not expecting?

That is where the art of life comes into play.

It is about accepting what is. Accept what is offered. Do not question it. Just allow it to be. What becomes difficult is when you (metaphorically) want scarlet red but you keep getting purple.

That is when the frustration comes in. I ask myself the question, "Why do those people not give me what I am asking for? Why won't they give me scarlet red? They know I want it so badly but are they dense and do not see or are they purposely not giving it to me to irritate me?"

In reality it is simple. The universe gives you what you need not what you want. And it gives you what you need to grow and move past your karma. Life is not about making you comfortable. It is about making you uncomfortable enough to notice unresolved issues and patterns that still block your complete and total awareness in this life.

So again, I step into gratitude as to what I have because it is obviously what I can handle and what I need in order to move into other realms of existence.

I ask myself the question do I want to be content or do I want to be whole?

Personally, I go for wholeness. But that choice can make my life a constantly changing equation of magic, metaphors, and mayhem. And I would not have it any other way.

So it is also important to know what you signed up for in this life. There are no wrong choices. There are only your personal preferences and lessons that you came in to experience.

Love yourself. Love your life. Love your family. Love the drama. Love the intensity. Love the emotions that crop up. And live a full life.

The Dance of the Dolphin and the Hummingbird

2011-08-05T16:31:00.000-07:00

The month of September seems to be a mixed bag of aggravation and opportunities. There are moments when you can relax into the new emerging pattern of your life and then other moments when the aggravation and frustration of the world situation will feel as if life is going to get the better of you.

Times like these remind me of that Chinese curse, “May you live in interesting times.”

We are in a very interesting time. Every generation has its complex moments that are designed to make those of that time stretch into unknown territories. This particular time is filled to the brim with massive shifts of consciousness and global responsibility. Conflicts seem more conflicted. Shifts seem more dramatic. Nothing seems to be done in a small way anymore.

It is the extreme swings that seem to be getting to everyone.

This month you might wish you could just have a break for one moment. I am afraid that none of us will get off this hook so easily.

In times of great stress we find the depth of our courage. In times of great sorrow we find our compassion for humanity.

When the old reality is torn away and you find yourself in the place of the unknown you learn how to make your dolphin and hummingbird dance together.

This is a beautiful metaphor for this month. How does one make two totally different archetypes find the balance to work and flow together?

The answer is to make it a dance.

I use the model of dance because to dance well you have to have some skill, some awareness of movement, some control, and the desire to abandon yourself beyond your minds coaching that you might look like an idiot. To get a dolphin and a hummingbird to dance together becomes a great challenge.

The dolphin is a smart watery archetype that has a playful quality. The hummingbird is a beautiful, quick, fragile, air creature. Yet, they have energies that can find the balance to dance and flow together with practice.

The trick is practice.

Practice allows for strength to come in and give you choice and the ability to adapt. Skill gives you the confidence to know that you can find the way. Abandon is the ultimate goal when you combine the strength of practice and the confidence that comes from skill. Only with both can you create art that takes you beyond the form into the formless.

A hummingbird knows one dynamic, air. The dolphin is the master of the water element. But each has to step beyond their comfort zone to connect. Each has to overcome the fear that they are stepping beyond what they are familiar with. When you are no longer in the flow that is most natural you must rely on instinct and trust in something that is divine that flows between all life forms.

Each archetype has to learn to trust. But what are you trusting. It is not about trusting others. It is about trusting your own flow, your own awareness, and your own body/mind to give you an experience beyond the present constructs of your life.

Each of us has had many negative experiences. But each moment is unique. Each impacting moment is completely different than anything you have experienced previously. It is very difficult to not want to put events into boxes from our past failures.

Instead make the flow a dance and allow more awareness to fill your consciousness. With awareness you stay alert to potential missteps and bumping into things unconsciously. With awareness you connect to the deeper heart within all things and the natural curiosity of nature reveals its many splendored patterns.

That is where the growth is. Not in the routine of mundane existence but in the exploration beyond the known into the alternative realms of universal creation.

This is a month where you can dance spontaneously something graceful and unique if you play the game of conscious intent. If you are the dolphin, try not to get your hummingbird wet because then she will not be able to fly.

If you are the hummingbird try not to move unconsciously because that dolphin jumping out of the water to dance with you might miscalculate where you are. Breathe into the rhythm of each other.

Let go of your patterns and desire to do it your way. Only by reaching out to each other in the language of compassion and play can we find a unique expression that will open us to something new and divine.

We become our best self when we are not paying attention to our wants, needs, or desires but learn to feel into others.

This month is about knowing that our conscious presence is the gift to others. It is not about what we want to give others. It is not about what we think is our gift. It is about becoming so aware that we can see and give what someone else needs. It is then that we are dancing with them. And it gives them an opportunity to dance with us.

We are in interesting time no matter what. It is about what you do with those moments and how you experience them. Will you allow the intense energies to thrash you against the rocks or will you learn how to go with the flow. There is beauty in everything. There is beauty in intensity. There is depth in letting go. There is divinity in reaching beyond the known.

Have a beautiful dance this September!

Expansion and the Allowing of the Energy of August to Bring You Inner Peace.

2011-08-05T09:43:00.000-07:00

I thought this fun/crazy hair picture from Hawaii last year would be fun to put on the blog. I seem to have curl when I am in that kink of wind and humidity. Hope you all have a great laugh.

I have finished 95% of the building of my new office extension on my home in California. So right now I am sitting overlooking the beautiful redwoods and Mendocino coast in the distance. I have some of my furniture out of storage and I am feeling more settled and at peace.

What a long and emotional road this shift has been for me. There has been so much happening over the past year and a half. The letting go of the old patterns within myself has been insightful. As a Leo, (a fixed fire sign) I find some types of big changes to be challenging.

I must admit to you that this has probably been the biggest shift I have ever done in my life.

After being tucked in, safe and secure, in Salt Lake City since 1982, the process of moving and letting go of so many things that I had seen as security in my life, has been a tremendous gift. It also has made me question so many aspects of my reality and redefine what is important in life.

I am so grateful to be on this side of the shift but I must tell you that my mind struggled with the complete rearranging of my habits and tendencies. I know it is good to shake things up but the process of admitting to myself that what I had created was no longer serving the growth of my soul was very difficult.

It has been an amazing process to begin to find another pace than the one that I have lived my life by for so long. But I am getting the hang of it now and I am so appreciative to be able to spend more time with clients without feeling rushed. I am finding a deeper intimacy with my clients, more humor and grace, and an ability to feel intuitively into the subtle energy patterns of each person in a new and amazing way.

The result has been clients growing and expanding much more rapidly and a newfound confidence in the intuitive information that I am giving them. It is as if I have a key to a new place within that is allowing me to explain and share information in a way that serves and opens.

At times I have amazed myself! I have been able to feel more depth than ever before. It is as if the redwoods are teaching me the power of stillness and observation.

It is a beautiful thing.

There really is no choice but to flow with this pattern of energy that is here. The breath of the redwoods dominates the entire space. I feel the redwoods call the moisture off the ocean at night and then I watch the mist roll in responding to the call of the trees. The mist bathes everything in magical light. The quiet allows the most subtle sound to suddenly seem large. The trees and forest are like a giant lung breathing in and out. The mountains and forest breathe in and with wind comes up the mountain from the ocean bringing the moisture. Then the wind from the land, exhales and the wind flows down the mountain with its warmth.

It is natural. It is organic. It is peaceful. And I feel it taking over my body and breathing me into its flow.

Then there are moments like right now, where the wind is silent. No wind, no movement, stillness and a deep pause of peace. This energy is regenerative and calming.

How much my nervous system has needed and longed for this place. I find it amazing how a location can change your entire perspective and mindset.

My past life had been a busy, conglomeration of cities, art, culture, languages, philosophy, and metaphysical seeking. I have always loved nature and that is what drew me to move in the direction of the shamanic teachings of north and south America. It is amazing that when you allow a person to go back into nature, how much nature teaches from the place of silence, acceptance, and trust.

In our desire for success and constant movement we can loose site of the things that give us what we are really seeking, which is an acceptance and understanding of our self. We think we will accept ourself when we have success, money, fame, or power. But the first step is to know yourself from a deep place of love and understanding.

How can you connect in a deep way to another if you do not know how to connect with your own deepest self.

I have a client that is awakening to the rewiring of her entire nervous system because of an Asian energy practice.

I am watching with amazement how she is unfolding the dysfunctional aspects of her nervous system and begin to learn how to run energy in a more healthy way for her body. I can see her mind as it wants to yank her back into the old habits. I can see the struggle between organic expression of mind and body and the desire of the mind to continue the patterns of the past.

Fortunately, I know what is going to win. The power of health, balance, and well being is always stronger if the person has the opportunity to find tools that with allow them to experience another way that has ease and grace.

So take the warmth of August and allow yourself to expand and explore new opportunities for yourself. You will find yourself and in doing that the happiness you feel for you will expand and infuse love and light to all you know.

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of August 2011

2011-07-19T08:16:00.000-07:00

Yes, we are living in a schizophrenic world.

The month of August is creating opportunities to leap beyond the old reality and then somehow at the same time there is a sense of continuous delays in daily patterns that need further unraveling.

I am sure all of you are feeling the oppositional forces of the astrological Cardinal Cross, as is runs over us once again.

Some of you are asking, “When is this going to stop?”

Honestly, I am beginning to wonder that myself.

There seems to be a constant pushing and pulling of energies in our daily life that seems to bring up one more thing, then another, then another. You may feel as if it will never end. You may feel as if the universe is nickel and dime-ing you to death. Just when you think that you are on level ground financially there is one more financial emergency.

When I feel psychically into the unfolding pattern I would have to say that we are going to feel pummeled by the waves of change until 2015.

Now that does not mean that we do not get a hang of it at a certain point. I like to think of navigating this time as me being a seal pup learning how to flow with the waves. The pup has to learn how to relax with each larger wave until he or she is completely one with the force and intensity of emotional change. A seal pup does not see the waves as a problem. It just is what it is. That is what I try to think of when I feel into this time. It is just another wave coming and going in our life. This too will pass so we might as well relax and flow with what is. There is no need to resist, as resistance will only get you pounded into the sand at the bottom of the ocean.

This month the cards are full of waves. Those waves are making us more aware by pounding us repeatedly into the sand until we start to pay attention to our surroundings. Eventually, you learn (just like a seal) to be constantly aware of the water and waves. You learn how to (metaphorically) keep one eye open at all times and stay aware of the constantly changing circumstances that is life. And somehow still flow.

August is a time to take action. August is a time to look at the situations that are exhausting you and choose another pathway. There is hopefulness with the warmth of the August sun but there is also a desire to find the direction and finally point that arrow of yours someplace that allows for more fulfillment and joy.

At the beginning of the month, it will be easier to feel more grounded and stabile internally and externally. It will feel as if the intense energies are attempting to calm down and give us a small break. But it will only be a small one because the planets are always moving and change is the name of the game at the moment.

Since Uranus and Pluto are squaring, those two powerful agents of change that are going to aggravate and evolve us whether we like it or not. Anything that is stagnating or anything that needs to be reorganized is going to change. But other aspects finally allow us a much-needed dose of mental reflection and introspection.

There have been recent moments when we needed to take an honest look inward but the energies were too emotional to have objectivity and clarity. But now there is a doorway to a new level of understanding. We finally feel as if we have the energy to look inward and allow a more sensible side of us to make more practical choices for our life.

It is one thing to have spiritual knowledge but quite another to know how to apply it into your daily life. This is a month of finding the doorway to practical application to the challenges that are facing us. But now we will have the objectivity, internal calmness, and clarity to finally feel as if those shifts are possible. We will also feel as if something internal has settled and that will allow us to relax with our choices because we know for certain that they are correct.

So enjoy this month. Take action. Find the pathway to your own inner clarity with each choice. Feel the movement within that allows for a feeling of grounded understanding and acceptance. Give the seeds of hope some water and light and see what might begin to grow.

Getting Close to July, 2011

2011-06-23T09:37:00.000-07:00

I am slowing integrating being back in the U.S. My trip was not what I expected but all journeys are valuable in ways that become clear as we continue to grow and evolve.

I can say that I have never been so grateful for an American salad. Funny what you crave and appreciate. The intense heat in India is not so conducive for lettuce and cool leafy vegetables. I did have my moments when they had cucumber salads and I gobbled them right up but an American salad with all the great greens and vegetables was not there.

I think I have had a salad once or twice a day since being back.

I am appreciating the quiet of where I live and work here in Northern California. The weather has been perfect which is so wonderful because we have had so much rain since January. But now it is clear, sunny, and the perfect temperature. Even the coast is not socked in with fog. It is so beautiful.

Last weekend I went up north to the Redwood National Park and just played tourist. It was wonderful. Wide open roads. Not a lot of traffic. Sunny days. Cool nights. Fresh air. Ugh! I am such an outdoors girl.

After the chaos of a billion people in India, I could so appreciate the wide-open spaces of America. I stayed in these cute cabins that were probably made in the 50’s or 60’s and they were like a time warp transporting me back to my younger days when my family went camping in Colorado, New Mexico, Wyoming, and Utah. These cute cabins were amazingly empty.

Does no one go out and away from a television any more?

Regardless, it was peaceful and relaxing. I suggest it to anyone who has a love for wilderness.

I am getting my energy going to start looking for spaces to teach workshops in Napa, Sonoma, Santa Rosa, San Rafael, and Ukaih. It will be interesting to see how it all works out. I am so grateful that so many of you continue to call me for psychic sessions over the phone. I love my system where I can send an mp3 file to each client after the reading that they just click on and download to their Itunes or computer. It is working really well. Clients really love it over the tape. And it is so much easier for me also.

I feel I have more quality time to spend with clients and that I can connect more deeply with each person.

I am keeping my prices lowered to $80 per hour and $50 per half hour as an incentive for each of you to call and connect through a phone session. I am so grateful to have this opportunity to be in California and do the work I love.

I am learning how to relax and go with a new flow. The northern California flow is so different than anything I have previously experienced. I feel as if I am learning how to enjoy and appreciate life in a totally new way. Perhaps it is the process of aging that makes us want to stop rushing around and instead slow down and smell the roses. This had been an interesting process of knowing and trusting that everything will be as it is supposed to be. All I need to do is let go and allow the flow of life to take me new places. I do not need to strive or stress. I just need to feel the natural order of things and allow something bigger than myself to carry me forward.

Have a beautiful month and a fabulous 4^th of July!

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of July 2011

2011-06-03T08:35:00.000-07:00

All we have in life are our choices. Each choice propels us down a pathway that becomes the unfolding that is to become this life. What life has chosen to manifest for us has many contributing factors, such as: what did we come into learn and accomplish in this life, what past life experiences color and mold the flavor of this life, do we break through issues of emotional blockage and break through to an authentic expression of our being, learning acceptance and trust in the flow of appropriate timing for our soul, and have we become appreciative and present to the magic that is constantly reflected in this life’s expression?

Those are huge issues to learn to navigate while somehow managing to survive, make money, deal with the complexities of children, be responsible, contribute to life as a whole, and plan for the future.

There is a fine balance between knowing that what is supposed to come to you will manifest and actively working on becoming aware of patterns and issues that need to be healed, let go of, modified, and matured.

The astrology of the past few years has hit everyone in ways that have changed us in a big way. You probably do not feel the same way about your self and your life.

Illusions and delusions have dissolved. That has been replaced with a more mature view of reality that has required a tremendous amount of patience, communication, planning, structure, and owning of the responsibility that is your life.

That doesn’t sound so glamorous, does it? I am sure it has not felt as fun as living in the illusion of “What if?”

Though what is does give is a taking charge of yourself in a way that serves not only yourself but also all those you touch. When your head is not in the clouds you project a more grounded, reliable, and stable possibility for others. You become a person upon whom they can depend.

There is peace when you are in the present moment and not chasing cobwebs in your mind. There is also a slowing down that comes with acceptance of this moment as perfect that allows you to enjoy the simple things and just be.

Do you want to live a life where you are constantly trying to get somewhere and never feeling as if you arrive?

Of course not!

In life there is always one more thing to do, one more issue to address, or one more problem to solve.

There is no “there” to find.

Life is just a constantly evolving equation of choices and actions that become the description of your life.

It is you that has to find the meaning in each of those actions. When you can find meaning in your choices and actions, then you arrive at some degree of wisdom. When you can hold your own wisdom in the present moment, you can then impart that wisdom to others and assist them in also finding their own truth.

It will never really be your exact truth. They may not come to the conclusion that you did. They have their own energetic patterns to unravel and understand. That is what makes it so interesting.

I personally love hearing about what others discover about life, consciousness, and truth. It often enhances my own understanding, even deepening it. Sometimes it challenges me to take another look at a perception or conclusion that I believed to be true.

No matter what I know that I have to stay in the present to gleam the bits of awareness from others and integrate them into my life.

Or not.

I know that my way is not the only way. However, sometimes I am not able to completely connect to someone’s experience in a way that I can integrate successfully into my own patterns.

Historically I have found that things that made no sense at one point will often make sense later on, often years into the future. That is when I get those breakthrough moments and my brain suddenly understands. I love when I can experience the sublime momentary clarity for the complex dance that is my life. I then can appreciate what I had to do in order to have certain personal, physical experiences before I could come to a place of understanding.

There are no quick fixes. There is only the pathway that aligns with your present state of awareness and your willingness to accept it and move towards your own flow.

Listen to that calm place inside and know that you will find the way.

Trust life and your heart to follow a pathway that allows for your continued growth.

Let peace and presence become the guiding force of your being.

"Tantra says that there is nobody above you whom you have to follow, through whom you have to get your pattern."

Osho

More About My Trip To India

2011-05-28T02:25:00.000-07:00

After almost two months of being in India, Nepal, and Bhutan I am finally preparing to return home to Northern California. It has been an exciting and insightful journey.

Most of it was not what I expected or dreamed.

I want to begin with saying that the Indian people are some of the warmest, most loving, smart, determined, driven to succeed people, I have ever met.

Perhaps it is the challenges of India that make everyone you meet so determined in their life and work. Their desire to better themselves is a power I can see and respect. They have a fabulous attitude and consistently a smile on their face.

What they go through on a normal day would frustrate most Americans into screaming fits.

I have seen women working with cement in 100-degree heat in beautiful saris. I have seen men carrying loads with bikes or by hand that seem unbearable. And yet they keep going. They do not complain. Quite the contrary. They are almost always pleasant, smiling, and helpful.

Nothing in India is easy. There are very few effective systems that run smoothly. In fact, I am still trying to find one example to share. I am sure there must be something. But I draw a blank.

The Indian people deserve our respect and admiration. What they carry energetically inside is what I believe our pioneering ancestors probably had. They are independent, forthright, willing to say, “Yes” and try to find the way (even when they do not know the way). They just keep going. They show me every day how strong humanity really is. They remind me how much more we are capable of manifesting.

So as I describe India, please understand I am not criticizing but attempting to paint a picture to Americans from American eyes. I believe it is important for us to become familiar with other ways and cultures in order to understand them and to understand and appreciate our self.

I also want to point out that I was not doing the normal tourist thing. My vantage point was much more a local perspective than a luxury tourist perspective. And I was here for a long period of time. Seven weeks is a long time to be immersed in a culture.

I was in a nice area. It was across the street from a big market area with shops, etc.

The first thing I noticed was the unrelenting heat. The heat has ended up subduing many day trips and tourist outings because of its intensity. 100 + degrees, day after day, is nothing to sneeze at. You must take it into consideration if you want to be out all day, because things are not air-conditioned, as in America.

There are no sidewalks. So when you walk you are walking on the road with all the cars, motorized rickshaws, and bicycle rickshaws. It is dusty, dirty, noisy, and not easy to navigate. Not to mention that they drive on the other side of the road. As an American I have to remember to really “Look both ways”, because I will have a tendency to look the wrong way for oncoming traffic. Though I have gotten the hang of it now. They also put 5 lanes of traffic on a three-lane road.

What also became very obvious was that the Indian people are night owls. Nothing happens in the morning. Nothing is open in the morning. Nothing begins to move until about 10 to 11 am. By that time the heat is literally taking your breath away.

Oh, and I need to mention the smell! The smell of the garbage, spices, incense, humanity, and feces all mixing together is worse in the heat. (I am so grateful for the cleanliness of America.)

The people here really do not use a garbage can. Well, in truth there are no garbage cans. So they just throw trash everywhere. Once a week, the market sweeps all the garbage into a pile and then they shovel it into a bicycle powered flat bed trailer and haul it away.

Where do they take it? I do not know.

This situation creates a rat and roach problem that you cannot imagine in your worst nightmares. There are no health codes (that I can see) for any place that is serving food. Certain restaurants attempt to keep things looking clean but with the streets full of garbage, keeping roaches out of buildings is impossible.

Now I need to remind you that I am not in the tourist areas. I am in a nice area of Delhi. So the rules are definitely different if you are in the tourist areas. But after seeing what I have seen I would look more carefully even in the tourist areas.

It is a normal to go to a decent restaurant and there are roaches crawling across the floor, crawling across your table, and coming out from the bottom of your plate as it is served.

Yes, take a deep breath on that one.

I am sure there are no health inspections going on. No one would pass if they did.

There are cows eating garbage along the roads. There are camels crossing the streets carrying large wagons in the middle of rush hour traffic. There are elephants with people on top in the intersections. There are homeless dogs and cats sleeping and moving about everywhere. They are often filthy, too thin, have illnesses such as mange, eye problems, etc. Sometimes they are very used to people and just ignore you. Every once in a while they bark, snap and come at you. You can never figure out why.

I marvel at the strength of the human capacity to adapt, survive, and thrive in these conditions. But then you realize that this is what we, as humans, have dealt with for millions of years. This is really the norm in the real world.

What we experience in America is unique to this planet. And we should be tremendously grateful to our ancestors that fought, struggled, and braved tremendous obstacles just to get here. They deserve tremendous respect and gratitude for giving each of us a life of luxury and bliss. No matter what your present standard or experience of life, you are living a better life than 90% of the people on the planet.

So light a candle of gratitude to your ancestors tonight and say thanks.

In India, I have seen poverty that you cannot fathom. What we see in America, as poverty, does not hold a candle to what is out there in the world. Now I know suffering is suffering and you cannot compare the degree of anyone’s suffering but I was astounded by the reality of suffering here in India.

I have seen yogis, with the long beard and beads, filthy dirty, emaciated beyond what you think someone could survive walking around. I have seen people with body deformities that are frightening to observe. I have seen amputees begging for anything on the streets. I have seen children being forced to work in the streets selling anything to motorists by the India Mafia. I have seen people suffering and yet they have the will to endure conditions that would paralyze an American’s sensitivities.

I have been on a train in India. OMG! (Again, an experience that you would not believe.) There are hordes of people. I am the odd duck and everyone stares. Not surprising really. But anywhere I went I got stared at and mobbed for money.

What I realize is that there is so much suffering going on that you really cannot do anything but offer kindness and compassion. You cannot do anything really to make a difference because they are a billion of them suffering.

I got there early in the morning to catch my train and people were sleeping everywhere, on the way to the station out front, in the street, on the stairs, on the platforms, you name it. And there were hundreds of people moving towards trains. If you did not have a reservation you would have had to be crammed into a boxcar to stand the entire way.

Think of a New York subway at rush hour and it is 100 degrees and you are shoulder to shoulder with a hundred people in a car. They were literally hanging out the doorway as the train began to move.

You dare not open your purse to give money as you will immediately not be safe and you will be mobbed. In such situations you are not safe. Perhaps if I had been dressed more traditionally in Indian style it would have helped. Fortunately I had an Indian male guide to help me navigate the immense train situation. Otherwise it would have not been possible to figure out all the trains, times, cars, and bunks.

Simple things like toilet paper are not in restaurants, train stations, even some airports. You cannot go to the bathroom without your own paper. In India they wash their left hand in water sitting by the hole in the ground after they go to the bathroom. Wiping the appropriate parts with water. But then there is no towel to dry your hand. I have learned to be so grateful for the simplest things like toilet paper and paper towels.

I think that now, when any American goes into a drama about something small, I am sure now I will look at them with completely different eyes. I will look at them with the eyes of compassion and recognize that this person is limited in their perspective. Over-reacting to something small is really like being a spoiled child that does not really understand life. They are not appreciating the tremendous gift that is their life and they are looking for meaning in the wrong way to find true fulfillment.
 

Being an American in India puts us into the ExPat category. In this caste system, puts us into the higher echelon. Which causes a totally new set of problems and obstacles. At least for me it is challenging. I am used to doing things myself.

I am not used to being completely catered to. But in India, labor is so cheap that you can get a full time servant for $200 per month.

Goodness gracious, I would spend almost that for my house to be cleaned by two women in America in one day.

When you go to a restaurant or store. Multiple workers want to cater to you. They shadow you around the shop, waiting for the moment when they can help you. It is like being constantly bombarded by other people energetically. You feel as if you cannot be alone just to think something through and make a decision.

The workers also want to talk to you. They are desperate to practice their English, which gives them status and opportunity in a country of a billion people. Their intent is really very sweet but you have to remember, it is 110 degrees, there is limited air conditioning, the heat is suffocating, you are overwhelmed with smells and the energy of so many people, and you are attempting to navigate a new situation, calculate cost based on rupee, etc. Well you get the idea.

I have tried asking them nicely saying, “I am so sorry, but I am exhausted, could you just give me a minute and some space to think?” However, then you realize that most of the time they do not understand what you are saying. They are used to a more British version of English and so our accent is very difficult for them to interpret.

I also have realized another piece, which is that they do not want to be seen as not doing their job, not being of service. I am sure they think that they will loose their job and jobs are hard to come by.

What the Indian people have is a determination to keep going no matter what. It is to be commended and respected.

Then there is the next piece to know about India, you have to check your restaurant bill to see if there is already a service fee (translation: a tip) included in the bill. Some do and some don’t. So you have to check. A normal service fee is 10% in India and most of the time it is automatically included in the bill. If you leave more money for the waiter (trying to be nice), they will come running after you to tell you that you forgot your money.

I have tried to explain that I was leaving it for the waiter, at which point they look confused and like they do not understand your reasoning behind your actions.

Another time I was in my apartment and the doorknob of a room just fell off the door. So I called the manager and explained the situation and said that I also needed some glue to fix the shower curtain hangers. Which had come apart and the shower curtain was not hanging properly. I also needed a tool to put the futon hide-a-bed in the extra guest room back together properly as it would no longer close. On the frame there was a piece that needed to be screwed back together again. This was what I considered something simple.

By the way, there is no Home Depot!

So here comes my joke. How many people does it take to change a doorknob in India?

The answer is 4.

You need a worker for the owner to come to look at the problem and report it back to the owner, get approval to change the doorknob, and the authority to make the purchase of the doorknob.

You need two locksmiths to do the job and to discuss exactly what needs to be done and what kind of doorknob will work. One of the workers will go to buy the doorknob with the owners’ worker and one will stay put and dismantle the old doorknob. And you need one cleaning person to clean up the mess.

Not to mention that they spent 3 hours in the apartment discussing everything and making a decision. Then going out to buy the doorknob leaving the cleaning person and the other locksmith behind.

Then I realized that the other locksmith was sitting on the hard marble floor in the second bedroom, quietly waiting.

I told him to come in and sit on the sofa and watch the television and at least get comfortable.
His face became horrified. I realized that it was not normal for the “Lady of the House” to make such an offer. He saw himself as below me in status and caste.

I insisted he come on in and at least relax and watch the English movie that I was watching.

He moved like molasses looking at the other worker to see if he was really doing something wrong. With a glance from the other guy that it was okay, he nervously sat down. I made sure I sat somewhere else in the room because I have learned how much moral protocol there is in India between men and women.

He tried to relax and fortunately he seemed to get there after an hour or so of waiting.
But the moment the others came in the door, he was standing like a shot and they promptly got back to business.

As it was the last time I was going to see the cleaning man, I gave him a tip of about $20. I tell you, it was as if I had just given him the moon. He was stunned and grateful. It is amazing how such a small thing can give so much joy.

India is also the highest gold buyer in the world. The women love their jewelry here and the pieces are amazing. But they are big, ostentatious and very heavy. Most of the earrings I could never wear. The posts are bigger and tough to get through my ears and then the weight is completely uncomfortable for any length of time.

When I was in a jewelry store I had to ask the question to the women at the counter, “Where do you wear this type of jewelry? It is so big and expensive. I would be afraid to wear it out.”

She replied, “Oh yes! You cannot wear it out in a normal setting. Someone could pull it right off your neck. That is why we have these huge clasps that will bear 400 pounds of pressure. You can only wear this if you have bodyguards. Or perhaps if you are going to an event or a wedding.”

The question then becomes, “Why would you buy it?”

And buy it they do. The stores are busy. Perhaps it is a way to save money and they do not trust the banks. Perhaps it is to wear at home in the privacy of safety and security. I do not know.
I bought one set of small earrings and that was all. The rest I bought costume jewelry with gold plate. It still looks Indian and unique but not worth much.

Where I did go crazy was in shoes.

God, how typical of an American woman is that?

But they were really unique and amazing. They are all sandals but they are sparkly and colorful. Manolo Blotnick, get out of the way. The Indian woman already had this flirty shoe thing down. When it comes to wanting to be girly, feminine, colorful, or making a statement, the shoes win.

I have some lovely ones to show off when I get back.

Fortunately in California, I can wear them a lot. I am glad I do not live in Chicago. They probably would not fit in so well in the cold and snow. Ha!

The middle of May we entered into an early monsoon season. Which is good and bad. What was good was that the clouds and rain does break the heat. The clouds come in. It gets very dark. Thunder and lightening starts crackling across the sky until finally it pours. Since we are at the beginning of the monsoons, it rains hugely for a while and then stops. That will not be the case when the full monsoon hits. Then it will literally rain for months.

I hear that in Delhi we are lucky as the rain has a huge flat plain to disperse the water. So the water will come down but it will also leave quickly.

Mumbai is another story. Because of its location and how the streets are, when it rains the water has no place to go and you will end up knee deep in water. I hear that the higher caste women will not go out at all. They will have all their servants do all the errands.

I understand why. With all the garbage around, I do not want to walk in knee-deep water that is full of garbage. Ugh!

That is also the season for malaria, and all the water borne diseases. I am glad I am leaving now. So remember to not go to India in June/July/August unless you want to get very wet and have to take all your malaria pills.

There is also very tight security in India. You can understand why when you look at the fact that Pakistan is right next door. And these two countries have had strained relations for a thousand years. So getting into the country you need a visa, which takes a couple of weeks. They are very careful and you need to have more than just your passport. They want your birth certificate, driver’s license (with present address), and a utility bill (in your name with a present address that matches the previous one).

Then when you get to India, you need to make sure at customs, that you let the customs person know that you might me leaving and going to another country. (Such as myself who went to Nepal and Bhutan). Seems that you can enter the country but then if you leave you have to be gone for 60 days before you return. If you let the customs person know they make a note in their computer and you are fine. But they will check and want to see a copy of your airplane itinerary to leave the country.

So it is a bad idea to have a one-way ticket to India. They want a round trip ticket to know that you will be actually leaving the country. You will need to show a copy of your itinerary and your passport in hand to enter the front door of any airport. You will also have your luggage and carry-on luggage screened multiple times to get on the plane.

Nepal was actually the worst. We got checked 3 times to get to the gate. Then a bus took us to the plane at which time they made us open all our hand luggage one last time before we could get on the plane. It took a long time to just get on the plane and sit down.

Also getting into hotels is a bomb squad check at the gate to the hotel. (Probably a really good idea with all the suicide bombers so close by.) India has had its fair share of bombings, which as Americans we do not hear so much about.

So do not make jokes and be a stupid American as you are going through all the checkpoints. This is very serious business to them and not funny. People regularly die from bombings and so they are extremely cautious.

I have seen the most amazing airport in Surat. It was brand new, modern, and two flights per day. Then I realized that Surat was the diamond cutting capital of India. Now I know what financed that airport. They wanted to bring the diamonds in and out without a lot of hassle.

The people in India have a devotion to their religion that colors everything no matter what the religion is that we are speaking.

Personally, I am not sure I could keep all the gods and goddesses straight in Hinduism. It is complicated. But there is much more than just that. Buddhism is strong. Sikhism is also strong. And there are also Muslims here. I am sure there are many offshoots of other things as everything became so intermingled in my mind. But my best skill is not in explaining the complex patterns of religion in India.

Lets just say that India is a melting pot of some of the most influential religions of the past 3000 years. Even Christianity is tremendously influenced by India, as the stories of Christ are actually Buddhist, Hindu, Jewish, Sumerian, Egyptian, and Shivism, all mixed together. There are probably many more than that. But I digress.

In Hinduism there are lots of holidays. One in particular is fun. It is called Holi. Not as in Holy. Holi.

Holi is the springtime festival of colors. It is undoubtedly the most fun-filled and boisterous of Hindu festivals. It's an occasion that brings in unadulterated joy and mirth, fun and play, music and dance, and, of course, lots of bright colors!

During Holi, things (which at other times could be offensive) are allowed. Squirting colored water on passers-by, dunking friends in mud pools amidst teasing and laughter, getting intoxicated on bhaang and reveling with companions is perfectly acceptable.

In fact, on the days of Holi, you can get away with almost anything by saying, "Don't mind, it's Holi!"

Holi is a boisterous occasion! Draped in white, people throng the streets in large numbers and smear each other with bright hued powders and squirt colored water on one another through pichkaris (big syringe-like hand-pumps), irrespective of caste, color, race, sex, or social status. All the petty differences are temporarily relegated to the background and people give into an unalloyed colorful rebellion. There is exchange of greetings, the elders distribute sweets and money, and all join in frenzied dance to the rhythm of the drums.

Women especially enjoy the holiday as it allows for freedoms not accepted in normal Hindu society. They can come up to anyone and give him or her a hug and a kiss. They can express affections in a more wild way. Holi is the most insane after work. Then everyone dresses in white and goes out on the streets to ambushing others with liquid color and hugs. It is quite crazy and fun.

India is full of color, extremes, spirituality, religious fervor, spices, tastes, sounds, smells, intensity, humidity, heat, dirt, dust, philosophy, corrupt politicians, ancient wisdom, temples of grandeur, etc. It plunges you into its chaotic mix of life and you cannot help but be infected by it and changed forever. Nothing is small here. India is alive. It is thriving. It is driven. It is a country that will be noticed. It is a people that will stand up and be seen in the world. They will find a way to leave their mark in the world and we are blessed to have them as part of the human race.

Spiritual Adventure in India, Nepal, and Bhutan

2011-05-17T01:47:00.000-07:00

Spiritual Adventure Update

Nothing opens your mind like a total change of reality. This trip has made some big patterns within me shift perspectives, modify, and evolve. This adventure to was nothing like I expected. It has been a continuing process to live in the moment, to learn to enjoy the present, and to let go of pictures, expectations, and desires.

One of the guides on the Bhutan trip lives on and off in India. He had a phrase that I love and echoes in my mind, “People come to India and think that they will change India. What they discover is that India changes you.”

I find that to be true for me.

Here is the fifth largest financial country in the world and I have never see such poverty and desperateness. There is garbage everywhere. People sleeping where ever they can. There is so much poverty you have the realization that you cannot possibly help in the conventional ways.

If you are unprepared for dealing with the beggars when you go out onto the street with small bills or coins in your pockets, it becomes very dangerous to suddenly dig in your purse as then everyone will come running up and wanting something from you. There is this awareness that you can do nothing really to make a difference except to treat everyone with compassion, friendliness, and understanding. I look in their faces and I wonder how many lifetimes I have been in their situation? How many lifetimes have I struggled just to eat?

I have no choice but to fall into deep gratitude and appreciation for being an American.

The standard of our life is total luxury for billions of people on this planet. No wonder everyone wants to come to America.

I would be riding in a motorized rickshaw and we would be stopped at one of the few traffic lights. Men on motorcycles see that I am a foreigner; probably a European or American and they want to talk to me. They all have tried to get a visa to work in America and are still trying to get one. Their hope is that I might have an idea or suggestion.

The Indian people are smart, well educated, quick, and will not turn down an opportunity to try to find a doorway to prosperity. But in business you need to be careful, as they will tell you anything you want to hear to get you to sign on the dotted line.

India is a huge mixture of languages and culture. We think it is just Hindi but in reality there are over 20 languages here. The television reflects that diversity. We think we are a melting pot but India beats us hands down.

Here is a country that has had China breathing down its neck for a long time; Pakistan wanting to blow it away and its own political corruption that would make us cringe in the US. It is a vitally, breathing, conflicted mass of total chaos. Yet, somehow it works.

Yes, it works.

As shocking as that sounds, it does seem to have a flow that manifests and is beautiful to observe. Painful but beautiful.

I have seen women working in 110 degrees, mixing cement in the most beautiful colorful saris. I have seen elephants and camels battling the cars and traffic at insane intersections that fray my nerves. I cannot image what that is like for an animal. There is constant honking for everything. It is actually a conversation. Honk, I am coming up on your right. Honk, I am coming up on your left. Honk, you are not moving fast enough, etc.

This is a land of contradiction. Garbage collection happens on Sunday morning and it consists of everyone sweeping it all out into the street in one spot and someone shoveling it into trucks to be taken away.

India invades your senses with smells and sights. You smell the spices, incense, garbage, human excrement, and dust. The dust covers everything. India is a huge landmass that is being pushed up into Asia. Most of India is flat plains that were once covered in jungle. But the jungle is gone and so there is nothing to stop the dry ground from being picked up by the wind creating dust storms that cover massive areas. From a plane your look out and see what you think is pollution. But it is dust.

The heat is oppressive. The air is so hot it is thin, so even though you are not at high altitude it is hard to get enough air, as it is so hot. Then when you breathe you are overwhelmed with the smells and dust that is ever present.

Unknowingly I picked the hottest month to be here. In America, May is the spring and it is nice and cool. In India, May is right before the monsoons and it just does not cool down. It is boiling. Even evenings are oppressive. There is no escape from the heat, except the restaurants and my apartment. There are rolling blackouts where there is no electricity, cable, etc. I spent one whole night in the dark waiting for the lights to come back on, sweating in my bed. It reminded me of the New York City, blackout in 1977.

Little things you miss, like toilet paper. Yes, isn’t that an interesting one. It’s the simple pleasures that make the difference.

Here you eat with your right hand and you wipe with the other hand. Some places have a water faucet to clean your hand at the toilet. Others do not.

Water is an interesting color and you cannot drink the tap water. There is a special filtration system attached to the kitchen sink for purifying the tap to make it drinkable. It uses ultraviolet light and all the bells and whistles. The water is stored on the roofs as there is not constant water. As it sits in these black water containers it gets really hot. So the tap water is hot. And inside you have to turn on the water heaters for your shower and to do the dishes. It takes 20 minutes to heat the water up to do the basics.

The theme here is that everything is more difficult, takes more time, and requires patience. As I was going to the airport to go to Nepal and Bhutan, the driver needed gas. He stopped at the station to fill up and even though his gas tank had a sign on it to put in only petrol (unleaded) in, the attendant filled the engine with diesel. If you know anything about engines, you cannot start the engine with the wrong fuel in it because you will ruin the engine. So suddenly we have multiple people trying to figure out what to do and I have a plane to catch with the time ticking away. We ended up getting the gas stations owner to give us his car to get to the airport. It was a great idea until I realized that there were more flies in the vehicle than outside the vehicle.

Washing you hands is not just a luxury. It is a necessity. I go anywhere and I do not touch my face or nose. I wash the moment I get in the door. I have been impressed with restaurants as they battle with attempting to manage ex-pat (foreigner) standards with no controls on food preparation in this country that I have been able to detect. My carefulness has kept me healthy until the last 2 days in Bhutan. Then I got food poisoning really bad. Thank God for the antibiotics, probiotics, colon pills, and black walnut.

I will still have to see when I get home if I caught anything else. But I was really careful and got all my shots for Asia from the travel clinic. I am sure I have avoided the worst. In truth, Peru was very similar to India in regards to the state of cleanliness and health concerns about food.

What I admire about this country is that they are strong vegetarians. If they were not it would be really difficult to feed them all. But the vegetarianism and how it is held with the Indians and how the Nepalese and Bhutanese hold it is very different.

In India if they are vegetarian, they seem to be very strict vegetarians. It is deeply held within their psyche. It is spiritual and not a flexible issue. Though the younger generation does not seem as willing to play by their parent’s rules and standards. This is because many families save for their children to go to the US or England to finish school and give them better opportunities. Once they are exposed to the way we live they do not really want to come back to this way of living.

Nepal and Bhutan are their own series of complex contradictions. I have a friend that did not believe me when I told her that I had a friend that was a chef and he had cooked for an event for the Dali Lama. He told me that the Dali Lama ate meat and drank alcohol. She practically screamed at me that that could not possibly be true as she was a devoted, heath conscious, vegetarian and had a picture of Buddhism and what the Dali Lama represented.

Even our Bhutan trip, there was a woman that personally ate with the Dali Lama and said he had a steak and drank a beer at dinner.

But being in Bhutan, I decided to find out if that was possible. I was able to get my many questions answered by the guides and our monk that was on the journey with us. They said that Buddhists do not believe in killing anything. It is not okay to kill an ant, fly, mosquito, worm, cow, chicken, etc. Killing and eating plants are okay.

They believe that to be human is a very special thing. They believe that there are billions of beings that want to earn the right to be human. They exist in the creepy, crawly world waiting for the chance to have a human body. People who die can go back to being animals or rocks (if you were really bad and killed another). Sometimes it is a choice. Sometimes it is because you were not generous and appreciative of your life.

It is something to remember so you can have another body in another lifetime. This is their belief, I am not sure if I believe it all but it is interesting to think about and to learn gratitude for this life, even if this life has not manifested what you wanted.

Anyway, since you cannot kill anything (if you are a Buddhist) that does not mean that you cannot eat dead animals. You just cannot be the one who killed them. So all the meat in Nepal and Bhutan comes from India (which is interesting because most of them are vegetarians) and is then shipped to those countries (which to me is the expensive way to do things).

Now, I have eaten the meat in all these places and I must say it tastes like a dead cow that died along the side of the road and someone dragged it to the meat processing plant. The meat was tough, grainy, and tasteless. So again, as American’s we are so spoiled by the amazing job the ranchers do, as well as, the inspectors for the meat.

The Bhutanese explained that in the high altitude cold climate you have to have fat and meat to survive. It is essential. There is very little land that is good for agriculture. You just cannot kill the animal yourself. But the government in Bhutan closes the meat stores in Jan for a month in order to observe the vegetarian policy and to not kill living things. But what people do is buy it ahead of time and then dry the meat or store it so they can still eat the meat during the fasting time of January.

The Bhutanese also believe that rules are just rules and that each situation is about flexibility. So you can be a Buddhist monk or nun and still get married and have children if you want. You could be married with children and then decide to become a monk or nun and live a celibate life also. Ten percent of the population is polyamorous. Meaning that a woman can have more than one husband and a man can have more than one wife. This is social acceptable as land is passed down through the women’s line and there are times when the property requires the help of more than one man and many children.

In Bhutan, penises are a symbol of protection and prosperity, so they paint them on their walls of the houses on the outside. It is an interesting experience to see.

Bhutan is a country, which has been protected because of its remoteness and the impassable mountains. Roads are few and far between. All roads (except one stretch past the water sanitation plant in the capital) are one lane. Now the road is a two-lane road but there is really only one lane. Passing an oncoming car, or worse, truck is not for the faint hearted. That is because Bhutan is like the Alps. Sharp, steep, cliffs made out of sandstone that has been pushed up from the bottom of the ocean by tectonic forces of India slamming into the Asian landmass. So it rains and the roads on cliffs wash completely away or become slick and muddy. The wind blows and rocks and roofs fly off and block roads. They must constantly work to maintain the roads. There is only one road that goes from east to west in Bhutan and it is a twisty windy road that you are required to go very slowly.

Then there is the perspective of Gross National Happiness, which is the country motto from their latest king. It is a great idea and seems to work well regardless of the desperate poverty. I found the people happy and content, following strong Buddhist principals and having a way to find contentment in every moment. It is very endearing. But then you hear and realize that all the hard jobs (road building, tar manufacturing, gravel laying, dam building is all being done by Indians who are bought in for these jobs specifically and when their job is done they are required to leave the country immediately. They live in shanties along the roads they are working on. They are considered second-class citizens but they are thrilled to have a job when in their country there are a billion people who are desperately struggling to get out of the poverty. So amazingly they are quite happy also.

Again, one of those contradictions. It is easy to promote Gross National Happiness if others do the miserable jobs. Hum. Interesting.

I have seen temples and intricate paintings from the 6^th century into the present. I have seen that the buildings even today in Bhutan are being built the same way for the past 2000 years. In the city of Paro and Timphu they are using more cement and modern techniques but they are still making houses out of mud walls with flayed bamboo rebar.

I have prayed and listened to the beautiful Buddhist chants and drums and the sound of timeless devotion has shifted the neural pathways in my body. I have felt more joy in being me and a wonderful appreciation of my body, my health, my mind, my parents, my opportunities, my country, and being vitally alive and consciously awake to be present with this experience.

So any of you that want to see Bhutan before it becomes more modern, I recommend you make that happen sooner rather than later. They are building an airport in the middle of the country in the central valley and that will change it forever. But know if you go, there is a lot of driving just to get anywhere. There are days when all you do is be in your SUV cage to get to the next place.

Patience is the key. Carry snacks. Be prepared for none of your normal American luxuries to be there. There is no Diet Coke. There are no chocolate bars. There is no ice cream.

But there are people with a heart that will melt you into your authentic appreciative self. They will show you compassion you have never shown yourself. Bhutan will break you down. It will show you your expectations. It will show you what you are addicted to. It will not allow you to fall into your habits. It will force you to breathe and be grateful for each gasp of air that fills your emptiness. You will see views that few eyes have witnesses. You will find the simplicity that you have lost. You will get a peak into the past and into the ways your ancestors have struggled to survive. You will become grateful for all those that have helped you become this amazing person you are. The Bhutanese will show you where your strength has been hidden away. You will find your faith in life itself. You will find that your mind is just an illusion. You will become committed to becoming your best self. You will come home revitalized, healthy, cleared of old priorities, ready to enjoy the life that has always been waiting there for you.

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of June, 2011 - Yes, I know this is very early

2011-03-27T17:42:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone:

These blogs are going out early as I will be on my spiritual journey to India, Nepal, and Bhutan for the months of April, May, and returning in June of 2011. But I wanted to get these out while I could. I hope they help with the upcoming shifts in each of your lives.

Thank the stars we have made it to June. Yea! We finally have a shift in the intensity from the last many months.

Now, the Grand Cardinal Cross is going to last until 2015. So expect many more shifts in the coming years but the intensity of the Stellium in Aries is finally past us and the calming influence of Venus has allowed reason to return and bring a better balance into the mix. This is going to feel like a welcome relief from all the drama that everyone has been feeling.

With the Mercury and Venus moving into Taurus on May 15^th, and Mars moving into Taurus on May 11^th, we finally see a shift and an opportunity to find peace and clarity to this new alignment that is manifesting in our lives.

Admittedly it has been a wild ride and there were moments over the last few months that you doubted your choices not to mention your sanity. But now in June it is as if your physical body is aligning with the driving force of your spirit that kicked you into these new places with no explanation.

I know you thought that you had an idea of what you were up against but sometimes the universe is being helpful by not letting you in on all the secrets that are about to unfold. We are often given just enough to propel us forward and not enough to terrify us into remaining in the old pattern.

The good news is now things are making more sense. You have been birthed into a new place that is probably beyond anything your mind could have come up with. You have detoxed an old self into a free and more open place.

Yes, it has been painful at times but now you see how tenaciously you had held onto the old reality and there is a newfound understanding and appreciation as to why the lessons came in the way that they did.

We are going to be having a Solar and Lunar Eclipse in June. All eclipses, whether solar or lunar, have the potential to change your circumstances. They are called “Course Rectifiers”. Eclipses are expressed through a crisis of some kind, whether it is a real crisis or not, it may feel very real to you. Many times a new beginning involves letting go of something from the past, whether that could be a person, a relationship, an object, or a behavior. This is especially true during a lunar eclipse. Eclipses have more impact when they hit your Ruling planet. Therefore, in the June eclipses, Gemini's and Virgo's will be greatly affected by the Solar Eclipse on June 1st. One June 15th the Sagittarius's will feel the Lunar Eclipse intensely.

Eclipses can present opportunities. This is a time when the energies are more amplified, intensified, and focused. An eclipse may force you to take leaps of faith that you might not have thought possible without the help from the energy of an eclipse. An eclipse may force you to take action in an area that had stalled and can bring about changes that seem completely beyond your control.

A solar eclipse signifies a fresh start. It can feel like a new chapter beginning in your life. The effects of a solar eclipse are shown in the outward expression of our external circumstances. This can present us with very exciting and joyous developments. What develops due to a solar eclipse is seen in a very external way in your life. This is often even noticed by others.

A lunar eclipse points to a moment of maximum stress and represents the culmination of events or the “end of a matter.” Lunar eclipses often influence relationships because of the polarity between the sun and moon. A lunar eclipse becomes a catalyst from which dramatic change occurs based on what has already been experienced in your life. A lunar eclipse often brings with it a sense of finality, or unavoidable conditions to the area of your life that it touches.

In a lunar eclipse, anything on "iffy" ground will collapse. Often there is an indication of a foreshadowing of what that might look like 6 months before the eclipse. Lunar eclipses make you look in the rear view mirror. So take a look at what was happening 6 months ago. Perhaps that will give you an insight and an ability to be more prepared as to what will shift for you on the 15^th of June.

No matter what sign you are, the good news is that things are finally going to feel as if they are on the mend. There is going to be significant movement in large areas and it will feel as if you are clear in your direction and purpose. Just that in-of-itself it going to be huge relief.

You are waking up. You will feel as if you are waking up from a dream that you have been climbing hills and going through fire. You know how it is when you wake up from one of those exhausting dreams. You awaken and you are so grateful to be awake but you are deeply tired. But you are here and ready to move forward in the real world.

Let the struggle in the dream go. Let the past go. Let this moment become the most important thing. Do not cling. Do not wish for times past. They are but dreams in your rear view mirror. What is ahead is better than any illusion of your past.

Is This The Right Moment to Shift Things in Your Life?

2011-03-26T10:15:00.000-07:00

I will be on my spiritual journey to India, Nepal, and Bhutan from April 6th through May 29th, 2011. I am so excited about this trip. I have been waiting my whole life to have this experience.

What I will experience, I have no idea. I am just going with an open mind and heart.

I have been watching movies about these areas just to get a pulse on the energy and patterns that I might experience. Needless-to-say, it is going to be beyond my normal realm of life. That is probably a very good thing. I have felt for a while that I need to step beyond what I know about myself to be true and find out another place for my energy to flow and expand.

I so appreciate my basic understanding of astrology and the support from great astrologers like Ralfee Finn and Christopher Renstrom in helping me through last year. I knew, going into 2010, that the eclipses that had been really breaking my chart open were going to totally flip over the game board of my life into the potential that had always been there but held back until the right moment when not only the stars align but I align with my true nature.

I know from the nature of my work and the extensive studying throughout my life that there are times when regardless of how you want to hang onto the old self, the universe has another idea. It is as if you are caught in a giant wave of change and regardless of the costs of time, energy, or money you have to take that risk and jump into the middle of that wave or you know you will miss a great opportunity.

Those opportunities do not come along all the time. And when they come you find an inner strength to go for it in ways that can surprise even yourself. I love being constantly amazed at how adaptable and strong each of us can be when confronted with the power of the truth in a moment. That truth cannot be denied and even when you cannot see the other side you will choose to risk and find experiences and expressions of your soul that have been hidden away from yourself until that right moment.

There is a feeling about this time and these astrological aspects that are big, for not just myself, but for everyone. There are moments when it is as if the whole world comes to a new place of awareness and choice. This seems to be one of those moments. For some of you it is hitting on a more personal level. For others, we notice the gigantic changes in the external world situations and governments.

With all this energy in Aries from April 10 through May 12, it is like a global fire of change. Suddenly many of us have the energy to do the impossible. For some it will be breakthroughs in perspective, willingness to change careers, creating a family, letting go of past patterns that have caused a withholding of who we really are, or any number of other options. For others, they will come together and do the impossible by opposing governments, dictators, and monarchy’s that have manipulated the money and prosperity of the common people in favor of their own power, greed, and ego. Each of these beings is to be commended and acknowledged. The risk is high, the pathway to freedom and change unclear, and the potential for failure right there staring you in the face.

But what an exciting time to live. Rarely do we get moments when we can see, experience, and participate in an extraordinary moment or event. So whether this energy is hitting you on a personal level or on a more community level, feel that bravery in your heart. Feel the fire of inspiration ignite you into leaping beyond your commonplace life. Choose to let your expanded self out.

You remember who that is. He or she is that person who trusts in the flow of life and does not want to live an unexpressed life. It is that part that knows beyond a shadow of a doubt that inside you is a spark of divinity yearning to come out and find expression.

Each of you has a potential waiting for its right moment. Is this the right moment for you? If that answer is “Yes” then allow the courage in your heart to expand and find the doorway into a new place and life.

Intuitive Patterns for May 2011

2011-03-24T16:50:00.000-07:00

With the coming of spring there is an intensity to jump forward and take leaps of faith into the void of the unknown. This can be a very exciting time but energy can shift quickly when the focus is undefined.

So this would be a time to create a clear picture of what you want and where you want to go. That does not mean that you will get your picture but you need a place to start in the creative process. Often you need to make some decisions and then the guides and angels know how to support your process and how to proceed in manifesting the little coincidences and magic that make change fun.

If you feel as if you are afraid to make a decision because so many of your dreams have come crashing down around your head over the last few years, take a deep breath and know that the breakdown of our egos “ideas” is a necessary process to allow a deepening and expansion of your souls true potential.

These last 6 months have brought about the realization of many conflicting beliefs and dualities within you. That awakening and awareness has brought about a radical shift in your wants and desires for the future. This felt like a bolt of lightening hitting that has woken you up with a start and bought about a complete reversal of some aspects and priorities in your life.

It is as if the universe said, “Oh, you think that is so important? Let me show you what is really needing to be addressed or dealt with.”

Life often has its own flow and agenda. Sometimes we are not allowed into the deeper secrets until the last minute.

That is what this has felt like for many.

The major about-face of this energy has rocked many of you to your core. Life suddenly has taken over and now some new dawning of what has been percolating below the surface is finally becoming clear.

It may feel as if you are being thrown over a chasm by some unseen force to the opposite side of a cliff. You did not see the chasm and you did not see the energy that was throwing you. You find yourself propelled into an unknown space and landing in a new territory with no idea of how or what got you there.

But when you got “there” something seemed very different. There were new people to connect with and new understanding and acceptance.

Are you willing to surrender up your old shame and guilt to allow the universe to create a completion in your life unlike anything you have ever experienced? Now is the time. By the middle of the month all the hard work will finally feel as if it is paying off. A gentle compassion, acceptance, and understanding will move you towards a new balance that you had previously thought impossible.

Allow this change of envelope and enfold your spirit. Allow the grief to be released as you find a place beyond pushing from your mind or ego. Know that you are enough.

Use what you have learned to create appropriate boundaries and expand your intuitive capacities. Trust life. Trust your crazy hair-brained schemes. Trust the flow that is going to take you to a new place whether you like it or not. So why not surrender to this thing that has taken over your life. After all you have a choice to enjoy and appreciate the journey through the eyes of your inner amazed childlike archetypes or you can allow your ego to tell you how horrible and difficult all this has been. Remember, “Bitching is Bragging” in the consciousness circles.

Lets find a way to be so present in the moment that this month’s experience is one of awe and amazement.

The Tapestry of Your Life is Changing- It's time to mix the colors and metaphors in new ways.

2011-03-05T15:48:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I just have to admit that there will be no easy way through these difficult energies. With that realization comes a degree of calm as the acceptance of the present moment shifts us out of our preconceived notions and forces us to deal with the reality slamming us in the face.

Yes, life is about change and adaption. In personal growth workshops there is a very constructive place that comes when you confront and acknowledge the “White Elephant” that is obviously in the room.

In speaking the truth there is finally an ability to find creative solutions to the very real problems surfacing in your life. The belief that you can somehow make it work for everyone is absolutely not going to manifest at this time. So now you have to tell the truth about what is not working for “You”! That is very difficult, as we often want to find a win/win solution. There are times when the growth edge is more personal and less cosmic.

This is one of those moments.

You may feel as if you have tried and tried to make something work. And it is still not working. You may be noticing that you have been using your valuable life force energy to keep something together that actually needs to break down and fall apart. Perhaps this is not about everyone else. Perhaps this is about claiming what you need in this moment. At what point do you get to make “You” the priority in your life?

This is actually very difficult to do. In societies, we need to learn to work together. This is very important for keeping stability in governments and systems. But there is a point when “Enough is enough!”

We have hit that point on the planet. For some of us it is political and for some it is more personal.

But this edge is presenting itself strongly in our life to make us pay attention to what we have suppressed. Suddenly, all the resentment of not being heard, not getting our needs met, and selling out to keep an illusion of calm in our reality is crumbling around us.

This is a good thing. But also miserable as we realize that no matter what we have tried we have failed and so now huge changes are manifesting.

People and things we have loved and cherished are going away.

Situations at work are forcing us to make very difficult choices.

We feel unsure, as we cannot see the outcome for the future. This is wonderful because most of the time, it is our egos need for control that creates the pictures or illusions of our future. Sometimes they are real but sometimes they are fabricated by our mind to keep us in situations and circumstances.

Let’s face it. We are frightened of big changes. These energy waves are huge right now. Who would not be a little concerned and unsure?

What if there is another way to live? What if there is a place within that we could find that allows us to trust that our authentic emotional expression in the moment will guide new and magical things to become a part of our life. This is about finding the spontaneity and bringing air and light back into that box we have been calling our life.

That box is crumbling and breaking down. The safety and stability was an illusion.

Don’t panic! It is going to be okay. In fact it is going to be wonderful! It is just going to take some time.

How can we create systems that work if you do not express what you are feeling in the moment? That does not mean that you will get what you want but you will feel better by feeling heard and acknowledged. When everyone is expressing his or her authentic feelings, it is very messy and stressful for everyone. The intensity of this moment requires a big release valve to prevent situations from getting completely out of control. People need to find ways to discharge what they have been holding. Finding constructive ways to do that is going to be critical for maintaining balance internally and externally.

So much misery has built up in the sewers of our reality that they are now spilling out into our conscious reality. It is going to be a mess for a bit. The good news it that we know we need a better system. The reconstruction of our self takes time.

So be patient with yourself and others. Do not fault them for their issues. Just express what you need also. Do not expect them to have the answers for you. They do not have their own answers right now. Each person needs to stay accountable for his or her own experience. Each person’s process is very personal. You cannot make choices for anyone else at this time either. This is how each of us grows. We make choices and we learn from those choices. There are no bad choices.

We are creating a tapestry of our life and sometimes there is a wild moment, which flips over the old game board. Your style will change, your flow will change, and your color preferences may not match the old weavings in the tapestry of your life.

How do we make it all work and blend? There is a way, and it is going to be a gorgeous new creation! You are going to find how amazing you are. It is worth taking the risk to break out of the old you.

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of April 2011

2011-03-04T20:25:00.000-08:00

Batten down the hatches and get ready for a big blow.

The stellium in Aries is upon us from the middle of April till the middle of May. If you thought the volatility index was challenging the month of March, just wait for the next month and a half. Five planets are going to be in Aries, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, and Uranus with a part of the time with the Sun being also in Aries. This mixed with the Grand Cardinal Cross is going to bump and grind us over the next 2 to 3 years.

Please note that the summer of 2012 will probably be the most intense time.

So take a deep breath and know that we are going to continue to see major changes, socially, politically and economically. Corrupt situations and oppressive regimes will be broken down by the new energy of rising resistance and the deep desire for personal freedom.

If you are feeling divided in your life and dis-satisfied with your present circumstances then this is the time for radical change. You will find sweeping and sometimes shocking changes that will move so quickly that you will be stunned and surprised.

During such times of intense shifting it is important to stay aligned with the natural laws and hold tight to any grounding cord you can find that will allow for some minor illusion of stability in this tsunami of change.

Have you noticed that it is not slowing down, despite what you have been attempting to create in your life? This change of pace has taken off so rapidly that you may be feeling as if you are being sucked out to ocean in a rip current of astrologic chaos.

You would not be far from the truth. It is times like these that the only response is to find a place of courage, wisdom, and grace. Because that rip current of life is going to strip you of all your most cherished illusions and if you are lucky you will find the stability in the courage, wisdom, and grace of your deepest and most conscious self.

For the first four months of this year the aspects of Jupiter and Uranus in Aries give a youthful surge of passions, enthusiasm, and eagerness to grab new ideas as they show up. It gives everyone a feeling of confidence and a belief in the fact that you are right. You are going to do new things in a bold but sometimes foolhardy way. Yet the enthusiasm and energy of these aspects is inspirational and exciting.

In reality the rebellious child within you has taken center stage. This is a moment when all hell can break loose if you are not careful. Life is about choices and those choices have consequences. Not from the old mindset of “You made your bed, so you can lay in it.” But from the stand point of each action you take moves your entire life in new directions. Do you know what those directions are about or what they may or may not give you?

Of course not! That would be impossible. However, you might want to select your words carefully and all your choices should be looked at with as calm of an eye as you can under these intense energies.

This energy is going to fuel our rebellious nature. Remember that the heat is on, the stakes are very high, and this energy is going to break things up. You can feel the sense of unrest in your core. You want to get rid of the sterile, safe existence you have been living. You now want to have something in your life really mean something.

The tension, frustration, and feeling of a stalemate internally will become more pronounced the beginning of April. But with this youthful exuberance and rebellion also comes a nativity and a tendency to want to believe the new rhetoric, which promises salvation, new governments, and the end of suffering. Just remember that they may not be able to completely fulfill that promise.

This Aries fueled time will create the emergence of new leaders, knee jerk reactions, and the desire for people to be hungry to feel and experience their own passions. Any contracts or agreements reached are going to be tense, uneasy, and fraught with misunderstandings and miscommunications. The end of the month gives some relief from this chronic tension.

In May the energies will change and allow a new balance between action and reflection into our lives. In May we will finally feel as if we have actually learned something. So do not give up hope, as there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Personally I feel these changes are going to be very exciting to be a part of. It is a real gift to witness and participate in a life of extraordinary times. Find the grace within the deepest place of your soul and allow this wave of change to shift your reality into a place of aliveness.

2011 Psychic Medium Award

2011-02-20T14:32:00.001-08:00

Even though I am not in Utah any longer it is still exciting to win the 2011 Best of SLC, Psychic Medium Award for the 2nd year in a row.

I appreciate all my clients and friends in Utah that have helped me grow so much.

Enjoy the Coming Attractions for March, April, and May 2011.

Personal Story from Feb 20th, 2011

2011-02-20T14:30:00.000-08:00

Wow! What a wild ride February has been for me personally. I do not know about everyone but the consensus has been that many of you are also feeling this tremendous transformation that is happening. When we get more than one outer planet (Jupiter through Pluto) shifting signs, you experience regime changes. Well, that is happening in a large way and the feeling is one of a total and unexpected turn of events.

Now this is obvious in the global sense as the Middle East is opening to a new independent perspective that is allowing for the people to have a voice and a choice. But this is also happening personally.

What I have noticed is a tremendous need to let go of how my mind wants to have the only correct way of seeing something. Internally I know that there are many ways to see something but when I get triggered, my ego wants to jump in and be right in its perspective. The conclusion I have come to is that I cannot possibly have all the answers or ways of seeing something.

I have learned a little trick. When I disagree with someone else’s perspective, I let go of my position and try on theirs.

I have learned that I cannot possibly become aware of all my shadow aspects that are throwing wrenches into the neat little habits and patterns of my life. I cannot possibly be aware of disowned parts that want to get their needs met.

And this process is perfect. I am not a bad person if I admit that I might have parts that I am unaware of that are making choices that hurt others unconsciously.

I have been dealing with a particular situation and I had this amazing metaphor show up to make it even clearer.

Where I am in northern California is deep in the redwoods. I have a wood-burning stove that requires me to bring wood into the house. It is a messy affair at times and I was attempting to shake off the bits to not carry them into the house. As I moved a particular piece of wood I did not realize that a bat was hiding in the woodbins on a particular piece of wood. I shook the piece of wood but the bat hung onto the underside of the wood. Then I dropped the wood into the wheelbarrow. I suddenly hear this sound. A high-pitched squeal. To my horror, I had partially crushed a small bat. It was crying in agony.

I freaked out!

I could not stop crying. I collapsed in the realization that I had probably killed this small creature.

Suddenly I was the bat. Bats (to me) are the reflection of the ego death and destruction of my old way. Here I was clinging desperately onto one safe place, which has suddenly become a death trap. And someone’s unconscious behavior has killed me.

I could feel how, I did not mean to hurt the bat. I often do not mean to hurt others. But in my unconsciousness, at times I cause others suffering.

How do you become so conscious and aware of everything in each moment? It is probably impossible (but a worthwhile goal) to become aware of the subtle energetic patterns of all of life and the interconnectedness and the impact we have on everyone and everything around us.

We are a global family. We all experience the same emotions. Life is the eternal quest for internal balance and harmony. Without inner peace we cannot possible find ways to manifest outer peace. Without the capacity to step out of our ego’s need to be right, how can we understand another person’s perspective? Without understanding another’s perspective how can we hope to have global peace?

This month, begin within your own small sphere of reality. Step out of what you know and look with fresh eyes at another person’s world and experience. You might just find something that you like. You might find a lost part of yourself that gives you more insight into your own quest for wholeness. All you have to loose is your need to be right.

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of March 2011

2011-02-10T12:48:00.000-08:00

What is it that allows us to find the doorway to the manifestation of our dreams? I find for each person there are patterns through which our nervous system prefers to adapt and grow. That may work for a while but no matter what, even the most amazing ways we have learned to shift outgrow their usefulness at some point and the most exhilarating patterns become routine when over used.

We are creatures of habit and when the habit is at the beginning it is new, exiting, stimulating, and there is the feeling of a peak experience through that pattern. So we attempt to try it again and again, hoping to have that same experience that we had at the beginning.

Somehow, it is never the same. And over time that forces us to stretch again into new and different ways that may have seemed unnecessary or impossible at other times in our life.

It is a wonderful sign when you are finally bored of your own creation, tired of hearing your old words, sick of existing, and wanting to find a door to thrive in a life that is lived moment by moment rather than by the need for safety and agreements that you made a long time ago.

When you feel inspired to do something different there is that illusion of ease as you are stimulated by the idea, dream, or possibility. That gives you the energy to move. Without it you would stay stuck in the old pattern. So that good swift kick in the pants is what is necessary to begin to shift. We need the illusions we make up in our mind as to the outcomes so that we jump in fully with both feet into the experience. Life can never be fulfilling if you only place safe bets on the gambling table of change.

I remind myself that pretty much most of my outcomes have never looked the way I envisioned them. Sometimes they were better and sometimes they fell short of the mark. Regardless, they were an infusion of learning and expansion out of my old reality. That, in of itself is enough.

This month is about ends. End to the old self. End to your egos control over your sense of self-lack. End to the fear that has plagued you over the last 18 months. We are coming into a new place and space.

That is because we are moving towards a stellium in Aries that will greatly affect everyone April and May. I am speaking of it now because people are feeling it and wondering what is happening.

What is happening is the cherished illusions of the past are disintegrating right in front of us. This allows us to see the world and ourselves more bluntly and honestly. We are noticing the co-dependant ways in which we were bolstering each other in maintaining the old illusions. And we are choosing another way.

Breaking out of our most cherished ideals is work. The emotions that have been held in check by your egos control over your mind will come streaming out in waves.

With that release comes new decisions. The venom and negativity that has been spewing out of us internally, verbally, and externally becomes sickeningly obvious. We finally cannot tolerate this old behavior and way another second.

This is a huge victory. The patterns of the past become like crumbling sandstone underneath our fingertips and you awaken to find yourself hanging on the side of a cliff of the truth of your reality. Only now can you choose a different way. Up or down does not matter. Movement is required. No movement is a choice. But movement is painful and fraught with huge effort and toil. It is about how much grace can be mustered in those moments that sets the stage for the new you. How much compassion do you have for your souls efforts to live and grow?

This is the month to practice great compassion for self. When you have compassion for yourself you will have more compassion for the suffering of others.

Know that there are many awakening happening over the next few months. People will be wanting to break free of the old entrapments from the past. This will be a time of breakthroughs in science and technology. This will be a time for freedoms to find new ways of expression. This will be a time for new voices to be heard. Will you hear the call of your own souls desire to awaken and become more full? Will you allow yourself to spring forth into a new life? The energy is there for the next few months. Outcomes may not be what you expect. Allow each person to find his or her own expression and place in this new dance. Do not project your old fears and self onto outcomes that have not yet manifested. Stay in your center. Practice peacefulness. Become the compassion you so desperately yearn for.

Settling into Northern California

2011-01-17T21:33:00.001-08:00

Well I am settling into the new reality of being in Northern California. I am sitting here in the redwoods watching the fog roll in and feeling so blessed to be in a new space.

I am not remotely unpacked. So much is still in boxes and in storage but I want to have a different experience of reality and my goal is to allow myself to slow down and enjoy the moments.

Perhaps it is because I am 50 and I just want to have a life that is about having time to connect to friends in a real way, to have time to hang out, and to be at peace. Regardless, it is bliss. I feel that now I can slow down enough to hear the deeper calling of my innermost self.

I do not have any answers but I also do not feel the need to find anything. The experience of life and presence of this divine moment is all that is required. I so wish that each of you had a moment in your life to feel the perfection of who you are in the present. There is a place touched by that acceptance that is beyond words and allows a deeper appreciation of all that you are to unfold in all its magnificence.

Each morning I take a run with the dog up the hill and back down. It is not a huge event but it is invigorating and I love to see the bliss and joy in a dogs but as he is running up the hill ahead of me, occasionally looking back to see how far I have lagged behind, and then with his slap happy tongue hanging out of his mouth urging me onward into the joy of the smells and passions of this moment. It is all divinely perfect. The dog knows it and so do I.

I find that clients are feeling the shift in positive ways, as I am not so pushed to navigate clients back to back. I have more time to gently explore the places and options for each person.

I hope you are all having a wonderful direction shifting time also. I look forward to hearing your stories.

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of February 2011

2011-01-17T21:18:00.001-08:00

February comes in with the tide turning in favor of greater simplicity, exploring pursuits that align with finding peace within your own nature, and the desire to go within.

The moose is classically about exploring self-esteem. But when I looked at this card I intuitively saw the solitary nature of a male moose. The feeling for February is about looking at what it takes to be still, in the present moment, and at peace with what is. Sometimes you must accept situations as they are and muddle through them with as much conscious dignity as is possible.

As humans we often think that if we could just figure out the right way or the right answer, then everything should work out. That is not always the case. Some things need to be accepted in compassion and peace. Sometimes there is no “right” answer. That is how life is. That is how this moment will feel for this month.

You may try to get overview from the hawk. You may try to aggressively push through oppositions and be angry with everyone and everything like the badger. But in the end what does it get you? This is where the moose seems to lead in the equation of understanding for the month of February.

A moose moves slowly. It is a big animal and rushing is not in the nature of this animal. Expelling too much energy during times of hardship is not going to work. A moose moves at the pace that is required to get you somewhere without wasting your life force and energy that you will probably need later.

We are in the depth of winter. The cold months call us to think, reflect, and calculate appropriately for our circumstances.

If you have had the opportunity to see a moose in the wild, it is always a startling event. It is amazing that the moose obviously knew you were there before you did. It is often hidden in the trees looking like a part of the branches of the forest. It is quietly watching. It makes no sound. It observes and watches to see what you are doing and if you are any threat. If it feels threatened it will definitely make itself known. But as a counter point a bear will attack before you know it is there. Not the moose. It is thinking about the options. It will always choose the path that will require the least amount of energy rather than the most.

This is where the moose has enough self-esteem and confidence in its abilities that is does not need to waste time or energy needlessly. A moose’s stance is one of maturity and control.

This is the path to take this month. You will see a lot of duality and options. But you must have the confidence that you are the master of your own destiny. You are mature enough to make a choice and stand by the consequences of that choice. There is no right or wrong. There is only the way that seemed the best option at the time based on your experiences and history.

Just remember that sometimes things are outside our realm of experience and then you have to rapidly choose and try new things. And sometimes that is the magical way through a challenging experience.

Know that you are going to be challenged in areas that are beyond your old reference points. Know that you are able and mature enough to find a hidden door by listening to your deep, inner self. You may just find that the correct approach is to allow others to observe you and know that there is actually no threat. Perhaps you will not have to fight the way you have had to in the past. Perhaps you will not have to figure out the right way. Perhaps you do not have to do anything and the situation will resolve itself right in front of you. This might be the moment when you find that you can actually relax and just be.

I Seem To Be Having Problems With The Radio Show Group

2011-01-07T19:27:00.000-08:00

I have really been enjoying the radio show with Psychic Visions Radio Network. But there have been some shows where the show has not happened at all. So I apologize for my listeners as I have attempted to call in and the show is not up and running. So if anyone out there has some connections to another show on line or otherwise let me know. I love getting the messages and information out but I also do not want to disappoint clients and listeners that are getting online and wanting to listen.

There have been some shows that I took off as I was moving my home to California but tonight I once again called in and there was no one there.

Anyway, on to the California update. It has been exciting, exhausting, stressful, beautiful, enlivening, and a huge shift in my reality. I am not remotely moved in yet. There are many things that need attention and I have taken a position to learn to go more slowly and at a pace that is with less stress.

I am so grateful to Adam Sagers and Wade Lake for moving the last bit of my furniture and painting that did not fit in the last Uhaul to California for me. It is a big help. I am excited to just put another life together in a way that supports my gifts and allows for new experiences and expansion.

I want everyone to know that it is a great adventure to do such a big shift. Even at 50 years old this has been one of the most amazing things that I have experienced. To know that it is time to shift and to know that somehow it is going to all work out is a dance of trust in yourself and to trust in the universe. It is a real experience.

I am moving my mother to Texas at the end of the month and then I have to go again to LA and then finally home and hopefully unpack the rest of my stuff. It is transformative to say the least. I hope everyone is well and enjoying your own transformations.

Intuitive Hits for 2011 Coming To Fruition Early

2010-12-24T06:19:00.000-08:00

Intuitive Hits for 2011 Coming To Fruition Early

For those of you that were at my Golden Braid Predictions Lecture this last week or those of you that read my blogs and Predictions on my website, I was surprised to find one of my predictions came true early.

After I published my predictions, on yahoo news 3 days later it was on the web. The specific one in question was about leaks from a government about aliens or UFO's.

Specifically I said:

More things will become revealed as to the real nature of alien visits to earth. Information will get leaked from governments as to facts and figures. This will change our perspective of our world.

So what happened was that New Zealand's Air Force released documentation about their experiences with UFO's over the last 60 years.

Honestly, this was one that I thought was going to be the most far fetched. But there it was in black and white.

I am busy spending my last few days in Salt Lake City, working everyday in an attempt to accommodate all the lovely clients that want to see me before I leave town. It has been a heart felt, wonderful, experience in love and appreciation. I am very grateful to everyone who has supported me along the pathway.

I am looking forward to a new adventure and flow in my life. I am so happy to just be shifting my energy to a new place and a new way. I can feel how I want and need to let my cup completely empty in order for something new to emerge. It is lovely to not know what anything is going to look like. To just step with an open heart, an authentic self, and to let the universe make the choices for a time is bringing me much peace and contentment.

This is something that I highly recommend for everyone at some point in your life when you feel ready. There is a freedom and expansion that is unparalleled and joyous.

I have always firmly believed that until you know, you are not ready. I have obviously been working through the karmas that this place and energy presented for me. Then suddenly, it was completely clear that stage of me life was complete and it was time to shift.

I love when it is so clear. It helps to eliminate the fear. Because the clarity hits you like a brick and it is as if there is no other choice as a doorway has opened where once there was none. And that pathway is like fresh air coming in and enticing you into another place and time.

So in this coming amazing year I encourage all of you to take leaps of faith when you feel called and clear. Be patient and wait for that moment of clarity. Then jump without hesitation onto the new pathway unfolding in your life.

I will continue to write for the Catalyst Magazine and I trust that those who are drawn will still call to say hello.

Have a wonderful holiday and a Bright and Prosperous New Year.

Make an Intention on the Lunar Eclipse Tonight

2010-12-20T21:35:00.001-08:00

Welcome to the Lunar night. One that reveals the shadows bright.

What do you want to allow to become? What is inside that wants to run?

I take a look inside today and know that things will come my way.

As stelliums cross in this lunar sky. I know that in May my old life dies.

The past is tearing like paper moons. Whipping in the wind and over the dunes.

We are not what our mind perceives. It takes great courage to climb into the eaves.

Letting go of what is here. Trusting in something that instills fear.

My ego wants to finally die. My heart so strong it is ready to fly.

What will come I do not know. Where I have been I am letting go.

With my shadow casting its light across the moon. I am lifting higher like a balloon.

In peace and flow I travel forth. In joy and love I move henceforth.

In my life I see the three. I release my spirit and cast a new decree.

Each of us has seen the past. Each of us has patterns that last.

I do not want to finish this life without a link to the potential sight.

Of what my soul could mature to become. Of what it would feel to flow as one.

One with the earth and one with the sky. One with the hearts trapped in bodies denied.

There is no beginning there is no end. There is only the time that has no when.

When you are ready your soul will fly. When you are at peace your eyes will spy.

Something so wonderful that you catch your breath. That is you in the mirror of your own Macbeth.

Tragedy or triumph. Joy or shame. Life or death, they are all the same.

With this time take away the veil. Reveal the splendor of your own amazing tale.

Predictions for 2011

2010-12-20T20:37:00.000-08:00

Welcome to the wild and wacky beginning of 2011. If you thought the intensity was over, take a deep breath and know that for the first 6 months it is going to be a wild ride. There are many reasons, not the least of which is the tremendous intensity of the astrological Grand Cardinal Square.

Lets look at this for a minute. A Grand Cardinal Square is a rare event that impacts everyone and will especially affect those who are cardinal signs. Those signs are Cancer (Cardinal Water), Libra (Cardinal Air), Capricorn (Cardinal Earth), and Aries (Cardinal Fire). Cardinal signs are the signs that show direction. Cancer is the time of the Summer Solstice, Libra is the time of the Fall Equinox, Capricorn is the time of the Winter Solstice, and Aries is the time of the Spring Equinox. Each of these signs is pointing us in different directions. The effect is one of feeling pulled apart, radical change in your life directions, purpose, mission, and desire, and feeling as if the stability in your life is no longer there. This began on May 27 but it will continue in greater and lesser extents till 2015.

These patterns will affect how we live and view the world on a global, as well as, a personal scale.

The year begins with a new moon eclipse on Jan 4, which is the same day, that Uranus and Jupiter will make their third and final conjunction at 27 degrees Pisces. On one level this will make all of us feel better when it is over but the effect is one of electrifying the year with expanding medical accomplishments and a new understanding of humanitarian needs.

This conjunction signals a new expansion and influence in hybrid, electric vehicles and the green energy systems finding a strong foothold in our society. The next time we will see this pattern is not until April 21, 2024. At which time these new systems will be completely the norm. You may find that by then solar panels will be required on all new construction.

When Jupiter goes into Aries on Jan 23 you are going to be drawn to new adventures. Just know that as exciting as it will feel sometimes the influence of Aries causes us to start things but not finish them. So make an agreement with yourself to stay on top of the unfolding pattern and know that you are the hero of your own journey. You want your hero to overcome the obstacles and win in the end. That means to keep going when the going gets tough.

On Feb 25 the aspects demand truth, justice, and honesty or there will be huge global implications that will affect everyone. It may also cause the next hit to the economy to be the defaulting of student loans.

Uranus enters Aries again and permanently for the next 7 years on March 13. This will cause a world revolution about what we what, what we believe, and what we are now choosing to create. Personal freedom will become very important and the desire for less government in our lives will become a theme. The individual and the feeling of revolting against the past patterns will become obvious and it is sure to spill out of the private area into the political and global perspective. You will find a strong rise in the Tea Party and people will want a movement that represents more individual freedom and a resistance to large institutions that want to create more regulation in people’s lives.

As Neptune goes back into Pisces April 4 it will bring new developments and environmental changes around water. Now that may be that there is a lot of rain and snow and the water tables increase. It may also bring awareness to the pollution of the earth’s waters and the desire to bring new restrictions and laws into place.

May 1-12 brings a moment when we will have 5 planets in Aries, Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, and Uranus. This is an unusual pattern and those that are Aries may feel this more than everyone else. Also those who are ruled by Mars may feel that hit intimately. So that will be Aries and Scorpio as Scorpio has a dual planet ruler ship of Mars and Pluto. Home prices will still have not recovered and this is a slow pattern to change but the recovery will begin.

This is a lot of energy as Aries is the sign of springtime and new beginnings. But Aries is also the God of War and you can expect a volatile quality to cause provocation from Iran and North Korea. Iran’s chart is at 0 degrees Aries and all this energy going into Aries can create an atmosphere of tension and anger. It would be good for everyone to watch his or her tempers during that cycle. The cards indicate that Korea is a greater threat than realized.

On June 4^th Jupiter enters Taurus. Yea! This is finally the place where the consumer will feel money expand and the things you have been putting off purchasing will seem easier to buy. If you have been looking for a job, the opportunities will increase, as the businesses will be in the mood to hire.

There will be a deep feeling that everyone wants to move, take trips, and get going in their new life by the middle of the year.

This is a turning point year. We will discover and want to find our own center and new values. There is a rebellion to break away from the old established ways of doing things and create new grass roots businesses and networking. You will want to put into action your new beliefs and perspectives. It will require a sacrifice but it will be worth it in the end.

So from the middle of June onward you will see things finally improving on all fronts.

High points.

1. It will be revealed that Osama bin Laden is dead.

2. The Catholic Church will continue to be under strain and pressure as the influence of the church continues it’s downward slide. Within the next 5-10 years the church as we know it will dissolve because of its positions and policies.

3. The risk of war from Jan through May 2011 is extremely high but there is more bluff than actual crisis. Though the verbal repartee is going to create tremendous stress globally.

4. The green energy trend really gets a foothold and is going to become more popular and governmentally supported.

5. The job market will improve especially after June 2011.

6. Terror threats will continue but attacks are less effective in America but may be effective in other countries.

7. Our government will continue to be forced to look at changes that are influenced by the positions and perspective of the Tea Party.

8. We will see some amazing medical breakthroughs related to understanding the brain and diseases associated with the brain.

9. Immigration issues will continue to rise and the political fallout is going to continue.

10. There will be those who are going to become more and more Armageddon oriented as we get closer to 2012 and as it so often the case we will find fanatics that are so far out of the reality that they want to harm others or their followers. But 2012 will come and go without a real global crisis. The transformation is going to be related to the consciousness of humanity not the gloom and doom predicted.

11. More things will become revealed as to the real nature of alien visits to earth. Information will get leaked from governments as to facts and figures. This will change our perspective of our world.

12. The economy will be on the road to recovery by the end of 2011.

13. Our government will look at creative ways to increase tax revenue. Be ready to be surprised as to the places it may look for taxation.

14. Gay issues will become more on the forefront of government policies, such as; gay marriage, gay rights, as our government attempts to create more balance and understanding. This position will be opposed aggressively by the Tea Party movement but will slowly gain ground as our world will be required to put things that cause suffering to others to the side.

15. Hillary Clinton will continue to shine and her influence will be felt more and more as we head to the next presidential election. She may again, give Obama a run for his money.

Announcing the Return of Carol Lessinger - Feldenkrais Practitioner

2010-12-18T08:38:00.000-08:00

Announcing the Return of Carol Lessinger to Salt Lake City

I am so happy to announce that Utah's favorite Feldenkrais Practitioner has returned to Utah. After working for years at Eslan Institute, teaching and working in California, Carol Lessinger is back to work with those willing and wanting to explore consciousness through their body. She is an amazingly gifted practitioner of many methods of movement and intuitive flow.

A session with her is like no other. You will find your brain awakening to the held patterns within your body that are no longer serving you. As your awareness connects to your body, magically your body will unwind and rebalance itself into a new pattern of homeostasis.

Individualized sessions - known as Functional Integration (FI) - are performed with the client fully clothed, usually lying on a table or in a seated or standing position. At times, various props (pillows, rollers, blankets) may used to support posture or facilitate movements in patients who have limitations. Through gentle touch and a series of guided movements, a practitioner will develop lessons that are tailored to a patient’s unique structural needs with the goal of expanding flexibility and coordination.

To reach Carol Lessinger, you can call, (805) 907-6875.

The Fondest of Farewells

2010-12-06T21:48:00.001-08:00

As the days of winter creep coldly upon us. I am looking backwards with the fondest of memories as I prepare to move my life to California. I hope that each of you will stay connected in what ever way is appropriate for each of you. I am so excited to be making this shift with no idea of how it is going to look or unfold.

Sometimes you have to completely shed a skin and discover the wonders that you are becoming regardless of fears or what your mind tells you are limitations and potential problems.

I finally had a chance to see the movie, “Eat, Pray, Love”, with Julie Roberts. I could so relate to the place of the character in that movie. I am doing my own limited version of that movie. I do not know where the universe is taking me but what I do know is that I have wanted to experience a different reality than what I have so beautifully created in Salt Lake City.

It seems so strange to pour so much of my life, light, and energy into this magnificent state and the beautiful people I have met here, only to find myself called to something else.

When I bought my house in 1993 over by Liberty Park, I bought it with the intention that I was probably going to be an old woman in this house. I carefully planned to be within walking distance of the grocery store, near my favorite coffee house at the corner of 9^th and 9^th, within walking distance of the park to play tennis and run, etc. I had it all figured out.

Funny, now when I think about it. No matter how much control we think we have over our life, it is amazing to watch the angels, guides, and higher self steer the course of our life in directions that we would have never perceived.

Often people say that they want to know “Everything”. I have known for many years that the guides and angels will not tell you everything because your ego will fight and attempt to block the magic that your soul needs to evolve and grow beyond its’ conditioning.

Such is this moment in time for me.

I am grateful for the growth and acceptance I have learned in knowing to just trust the flow and allow myself to go. When the energy takes you, of course. If you are not clear, you are either not ready, not willing, or not able to see beyond the lessons being presented. Once those lessons have been learned and once you have touched those that you agreed to love, support, and connect with, then the wheel of life turns again.

At this moment in time, not knowing is exciting. Not knowing is allowing for a new level of freedom to return. It allows me to make things very simple once again.

Whenever you begin something new, you automatically connect to the part of your brain when you were an infant and life was simple but magical. You never knew what was around the corner and each moment was a precious miracle of new people, places, and experiences. I feel that sweet innocence within me still totally alive and ready to play. I feel younger. I feel acceptance. I feel divinely supported along this journey.

Then my adult brain will attempt to jump into the peace and bliss with thoughts such as, “What do you think you are doing? Are you out of your mind? You have a perfectly lovely life in Utah. Why do you feel the need to make things more complicated than they are?”

And the answer comes to me simply and innocently, “I want to try something new. I have learned this pattern and this place so well. I know how to do this game. I have enjoyed it immensely but now I want to make my life less complicated and more authentic. I do not know what that totally means but I want to find out. I created this particular pattern but now I want to allow the universe to show me what it has in store for me. I want to learn to surrender and not worry about what life has in store. I want to trust my divine nature to find the way. I know and believe in myself enough now to go.”

I sit in blissful silence, as my ego and adult brain have no comeback for that place within that knows and is connected to something beyond itself.

That is the gift of consciousness. The ability to experience yourself in any creation you choose and just as clearly know that you are more than what you have chosen to create. These creations are all masks that we have chosen to wear for a period of time. And in a flash the mask is no longer needed and it is removed to reveal the splendor of the soul that is the master puppeteer that has been dancing you the whole time.

We are all playing a role of our creation and co-creation with those in our life that we have chosen to listen to and move towards their advice and experience. The co-creation is important as you learn to navigate the complex patterns of this dimension. Then comes the moment when you step out of the role and choose to become the conscious director of your life’s play. It is a powerful step into the clear recognition of divinity within self and therefore the divinity within everyone.

I look at each person now in amazement and wonder at the puppeteer dancing each person into the dramas and characters that it has chosen to have the experience through. The lenses of perception are vast and infinitely beautiful. Each one is valid and valued. There is no right an wrong way to have experiences. Each level of play has its own set of rules to learn and talismans to gather up. Each level has a beginning of play and an end point. Then it is on to the next level when your skills have been mastered to the present level. Only then can move to the next level and not panic as the energy and intensity increases with the shifted level of play.

So, I hope that you all have a lovely dance with your master puppeteer within and that my writing can inspire you to break into a place of confident, competent, consciousness.

I am just a phone call away if any of you desire a sounding board along your journey or a piece of intuitive advice. My new phone number in California is (707) 354-1019. And you can still schedule yourself online with my online scheduler. I would love to hear your stories and experiences.

Suzanne's Tarot Classes are on “YouTube”!

2010-11-28T18:12:00.000-08:00

It is with great pride that I announce that I have finally gotten my act together enough to get this project done.

Now, these videos are not perfect, as I am a novice at all this, but I hope they will give good information and inspire you to learn and expand you mind into the world of Tarot.

Click on any links below and learn about Tarot.
Stay tuned, as more classes and lectures will be coming up soon.

For those interested, in the class we are following my book, Integral Tarot and using the Aleister Crowley Thoth Tarot Deck.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RfL3sp78LmU PART 1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8_ozjsD3VIE PART2

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QFGZ4j7aR9E PART3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1rajT1230k PART4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=37nzb3D5fC8 PART5

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tQY-8256Dec PART 6

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ye3VY1_7C9A PART 7

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJ8FlDuH9T8 PART8

Suzanne is now on Psychic Visions Radio - Fridays from 7 to 10 pm MST

2010-11-28T18:07:00.000-08:00

Suzanne has been doing a radio show with Ron Savage, “The Night Traveler”, on Psychic Visions Radio for the past month. The show airs on Friday nights from 7 to 10 pm. This is an online radio show and you can reach it by going to:

www.psychicvisionsradio.com

Scroll down and you will see the link to the radio show. It will ask which way you want to listen to the file, (ex ITunes, etc). Click on your preference and you are there.

This has been a fun and exciting place for me to play and get information out to lots of people.

You can also call in and ask me questions during the show. The phone number for the show is (443) 602-8995.

I hope to hear from some of you.

Free Gift With Appointments Scheduled Online.

2010-11-28T18:04:00.000-08:00

Receive a free pdf copy of Suzanne’s book, “Integral Numerology” with your appointment.

In January I will be so excited to finally be landing in my home in northern California. In gratitude for all my wonderful clients over the years, I am offering a gift of my book, “Integral Numerology” for you. When you make an appointment with my online scheduler you will receive a confirmation email with a link that you can copy and paste to your browser to download the book.

From this point on I will be doing the majority of my appointments as phone consultations unless you are in the area that I may be working in California. I have been doing phone consultations for years and I am very comfortable with this form of reading. I also have Skype options for those that want to see a live and responding person.

Skype is easy to download to your computer. You will need a computer with a camera to make it work with video. I also have Skype phone options called VoIP.

I will be traveling from northern to southern California regularly and you can check my website to find my locations and times, or go to my online scheduler to make your appointments.

Navigating these times and finding your way through.

2010-11-28T17:54:00.000-08:00

What a whirlwind it has been for everyone. It is in these moments when I look at the metaphors and images from the great seers of the past and begin to understand (in my own limited way) how tricky and complicated explaining the future can be.

The astrology has clearly pointed to great upheavals and times of inner and outer crisis for everyone alive on the planet. When you listen to the complex metaphors of the great masters of the mystical world from the past, I try to imagine what it would be like to attempt to translate these shifting modern times and then find a way to translate that to someone who is not from that time and place.

What I am grateful for is that the huge amazing changes I see in my clients. The inner and outer growth that so many are experiencing is changing the very foundations of our old self. Metaphorically it is so completely transformative as to be challenging to explain. Perhaps this is why Nostradamus spoke in Quatrains.

The decision that I seem to be coming to is that consciousness itself is massively altering in such a way that our old world is dissolving and breaking down on all levels simultaneously. Perhaps this is the Armageddon. Perhaps it is not the total annihilation of humanity. But the annihilation of the reality we have been attempting to live. Our narrow and limited perspective is no longer applicable to this dramatic shift in consciousness.

I know and can see the huge issues looming. North Korea trying to bait America into a war. Ditto for Iran. Both legitimate threats and not to be taken lightly. The danger is real. The threats are real. The shifts that earth is attempting to move towards are very threatening to the old ways and old perspectives. I know that some can feel so threatened by change that they would want to destroy the direction things are going towards by killing off those who they see are causing them discomfort and forcing them to change their ways, beliefs, and perspectives.

But what I know and trust about humanity and history is that you can only hold back a wave for so long. Eventually the force of the energy breaks down the old reality and a rush of creativity and flow will naturally occur.

Perhaps I am just an optimist at heart. But I am a realist at the same time. I know that you cannot be complacent during such tremendous times. I know that you cannot fall asleep in your old places of security and comfort. Threats are always there and that requires a vigilance and a good dose of reality constantly challenging you to stay awake to make it through such times.

It is not good to constantly run fear as a way to stay awake. That will exhaust you and make you no fun to be around. Others will label you as an alarmist and not only will they not listen but they will also not take you seriously when something really happens. So there is a good prescription of sanity that is necessary to be able to function in this chaotic world. I like to take a good spoonful of it on a daily basis. These days it is good to know when you are reacting to fears and projections of others or if you are truly seeing something and needing to respond appropriately.

But remember to not be the one crying, “Wolf” or running around saying, “The sky is falling.” Try to not get caught up in the hearsay and the hipe of others emotions. Feel each situation individually and with an calm heart and a clear mind make choices that serve you and those you love. Cultivate “Happiness” in your daily life. The world is full of bad news. Do not fall asleep but do not allow that perspective to make your life one of more stress either.

Intuitive Patterns for the Month of January 2011

2010-11-28T14:49:00.000-08:00

Well those eclipses have flipped everyone and everything on their heads and we have finally ended the 10-year and have moved into a year with a Gift of 11.

The number eleven is a mastery number. It is the number of transcendence. It is about visionaries who want to dream the dream awake. It is the energy of the empowered global visionary, freedom, and the bridge between realities connecting heaven to earth.

The “eleven” is the number of risk taking and choosing to become more than you believe possible.

It is the energy of the writer, humanitarian, and the power to break free of social constraints and beliefs. It is the number of the philosopher, wanderer, and spiritual seeker.

In the oldest Tarot decks the 11th card in the Trumps was the Tower (the energy that breaks down the illusions of the mind and forces you to grow and change). In the modern decks the 11 Trump is the Lust card (the scarlet women who uses passion, seduction, and the denial of desire to control all those around her). So this is a year when your passions may be unleashed and it is a good idea to let go of any old illusions of your mind and let yourself expand and change.

Leonardo da Vinci is the archetype of the eleven because he was so expanded in his visions. He was inventive and creative, yet he was a procrastinator and tested the edges of social conduct.

In the positive, the number eleven is inventive, philosophical, meditative, self actualized, and understands the dance of life that moves naturally between light and shadow. It is willing to take risks and to challenge preconceived notions and beliefs to uncover the truth.

In the negative, the number eleven is a rebel and can be addictive, escapist-oriented, aligned with shadow and the darker elements in life. The eleven can be inconsistent and irresponsible wanting the world to revolve around it.

Now the 11-year is one that initiates a change into higher consciousness and attempts to bring us out of the duality of the 2, or negative mind, and gives us an option to come from a more aware and conscious place. Some of us will willingly do this and others of us may find that we struggle against the negativity and criticism within our mind and lives.

The goal is to find a balance within and allow the process of neutral mind and harmony to guide your choices and path.

You may find that the negativity in your life has become very clear. It is as if a blinder has been taken off your eyes and for the first time you are seeing the world with objective clarity. It has probably been a big shock to most of you to notice just how much you have been placating people and situations in your life. Somewhere in Dec (probably related to many aspects that broke things loose astrologically) you had finally given yourself permission to tell the truth, see what was really happening, and choose another path.

For some, it has been a huge awakening. For others, it is as if you have been climbing out of a deep hole. Regardless, you are different. You feel different. And you cannot go back to the old way. You have let go of an old life that has finally released you from its grip. It has been tremendously challenging and difficult to break out of this patterns as often things and people do not want to let go. But through strength of will and with compassion in your heart you are finally in a different place.

The compassion that I am speaking of is actually the compassion for you. There is a staunch realization of the stuck patterns that you had been perpetuating in your life. That awareness has changed the very core of your being.

This is a moment of tremendous opportunity. When you let go of a life in which you have put so much energy, the cosmic force of change is like a combustion of energy releasing. This allows that energy to move out into the world and begin to create something new and exciting for you.

This does not mean that you know what you are doing or where you are going. Quite the contrary. You have no idea what is in store and it is actually exciting and invigorating. You can now see that staying safe and playing within the old rules that you created about what is good or bad have allowed you to be gapped from the tremendous overview and higher awareness that is naturally within you.

You may feel as if you are a dolphin finally freed from the aquarium. You are now in the wildness of the ocean and anything goes! Yet, this is the real life of a dolphin. To the natural part of your being this is allowing you to be your ordinary self. You no longer need or want others approval. You can choose where to go in each moment based on what you desire to experience. You want to have your life. You want to live that completely in the moment. And that is the secret to a life of abundance, joy, and peace.

The quest is within. The quest is how to live authentically in the moment and to allow the pleasure and pain of that fullness of life to guide you. You cannot live another’s life. You cannot stop others from their lessons, joys, or harsh realities that may come their way. Everyone will have challenges and lessons that they must learn to navigate. You are now letting the flow of your life guide you to what is most important for you. This will feel new and transformative. It will be scary and different. It will be what your heart and soul need to progress.

So there is nothing to really worry about. You have let a ball go and that ball is following the pathway that is true for your essence right now. Trust, let go, and follow the pathway in front of you. There are many exciting and new people along your path. You will find new friends and associates. You will also find yourself in their reflections.

Don't Forget My Amazing Holiday Specials - Only Until Dec 24, 2010

2010-11-16T06:39:00.000-08:00

Just know that if you are in the system there is also a discount that you will receive as an

As the Holidays quickly come upon us, I am offering a great deal on one hour and half hour readings through the months of November and December 24, 2010. The Holiday rate applies to all clients not just new ones. So as you take a look at what to give this holiday season, take advantage of this great offer. As it is a limited time you will have to book ahead to get the discount.

You can book online through my “Online Store” tab at the top of the page on the far right of my mindbodyonline.com page.

Just click on the Scheduler. Go to the Online Store tab. Click on Services. Open up either “Psychic Readings” or “Phone Consultations” as the Kind of Service you want. Then under Which Service would you like? Open the drop down box and you will see “Nov/Dec Holiday Special” You can choose either a ½ hour or a full hour. ½ hour is $40 (normally $65). The full hour is $80 (normally $125 value).

I hope you enjoy this holiday treat for yourself or your friends and loved ones.

(310) 874-4383.

My Last Tarot Class In Utah-Dec 18-19, 2010

2010-11-16T06:34:00.000-08:00

This will be my last Tarot class in Utah. So I hope all those who have been putting off taking this class will take advantage before I go. I love to teach Tarot and I would love to support others in becoming more intuitive and in touch with the magic of Tarot.

This class is for all of those who are interested in exploring their intuitive skills. Tarot is a tool that helps you hone and understand subtle energies and open up to the deeper mysteries that are held in metaphorical images within each of us. Tarot shows us the natural maps that each of us carry to help guide us along our path in life.

As you continue to work with the Tarot you will begin to feel the energies surrounding everyone and every situation. Then when you pull a card, you will not be surprised by that image, as you knew that you would get that particular message.

The title, Integral Tarot, was chosen to indicate the holistic approach of this book and workshop. In this class we will explore all the levels of being. This class integrates matter, body, mind, soul, and spirit as we open each participants mind to explore the great experience of life. Each person will learn to become a Tarot reader and how to understand and access the mysteries held in the oracle of Tarot.

Through this class Suzanne gives you amazing insights into the physical, emotional, and spiritual levels of each Major Arcana card as well as the perspective and explanation of reversed cards.

We will play with a variety of spreads to show and explain the complexity and magic of Tarot readings.

You will be encouraged to interpret the cards from your own reference points, allowing the integration of information from a more personal level with quicker learning and fewer struggles. After this class you can almost instantly begin to do readings for yourself and friends.

The information contained in the Integral Tarot Class encourages: the mind to open and understand; feelings and emotions to find expression; the internal exploration of the spirit into mysticism; and the integration of awareness of the soul’s understanding of theology.

Whether you are a beginner or someone who has worked with the Tarot for years, you will find that information in Integral Tarot will encourage the journey of your soul into greater awareness. The Tarot is a deck of 78 artistic expressions of science and history that have been used for centuries to reveal hidden truths.

This weekends experiences will show you how to use the tarot as a powerful tool to live life creatively through insight and empowerment.

Time: 10 AM to 6 PM both days. Investment in this workshop is: $200. Which includes a bonus copy of Suzanne's book on the subject.

You may schedule online with Suzanne's Mindbodyonline system at Suzanne's Home page
or call our office at (310) 874-4383.